Today, 16 FEB 06
Went to school today. Totally feel so numb and depressed. Everyone looking at me, and wondering what's wrong with Joann today. Coz I usually go to school and I will say "hi" to the people I know.. But today, I didnt really do that. So instead of me doing the "hi" thingy but is them. Now I feel that my mind is literally shut down for temporarily, feel soooo exhausted and I kept sleeping in class the whole day today. And my classmates kept waking me up when I was sleeping and I was like trying to stay chilled because I really feel like yelling at them but I told myself that I cant treat them in that way coz they also dont know what has been happening to me and it will be so unfair to them if I do yell at them. I feel like sleeping but whenever I want to sleep then is like I will keep waking up. I also dont know why. Is like when I close my eyes, I kept thinking alot of things and these kept making me even more vexed. *Arghhhh* whatever!!!!


After school
Went to accompany my friend to Far East Plaza to cut his hair and after that I went go home immediately. When I reached home, first thing I usually do is go and bathe. So after that, I feel so vexed and instead going to the wall to punch it or talk to the wall, and guess what I did??? I went to skate and do slightly more "daring" stuffs and in the end, turning up hurting myself even more. But kinda numb to it when I kept falling and falling. Fell on my back and front. E.g.- one of them is split. But Im fine, no worries. Of coz, feel abit better after that. But still alot of things are going on in my mind.


Sigh. Now Im having terrible flu and super duper pain headache. Dont know whether tomorrow should I go to school a not. And that kind of headache is like someone is squeezing your head off with a...... Aiya. Dont know how to describe la.. *Urghhhhh*