A random post!

Weiling told me something yesterday.... And I decided to check this out!!

 Ooo Mmmm Gggg!! Megan Fox is a man?! Apa?! The lady from Transformer movie. Yeah. That is the lady!

She said: "I am pretty sure I am a doppelganger for Alan Alda. I'm a transvestite. I'm a man. I'm so painfully insecure. I'm on the verge of vomiting now. I am so horrified that I am here, and embarrassed. I'm scared."

Anyway this is so cool! Lol. I didnt know doctor can do such a good job. Eh.. Who is the surgery doctor? Who, who?

Last night, party till like one dog at Double O with Mei Hui!!! Lol. Kidding. Well. I enjoyed the music last night. It was damn good. Yea. As usually, I dont dance but drink. At first, I didnt want to go but cos.... Mei Hui want to enjoy due to some issue lah. Fine. So I accompanied her loh. We went in to grab some drinks till we drink like MAD!!! In total, I had 6 shots (5 shots continuously), 2 1/2 half jugs and 1 bottle. 

Last night was a scene siol. I seriously I.G.N.T.S!!! One girl (a friend's friend) that I just happened to know less than 2hrs.... Ehhhh.. She got so so so drunk (kept saying never drunk and blah blah) and she started to....... me. Oh well... Let's not share on my blog, k? Hm. Ai. I just feel girls that cant drink are dumb!! I mean not that they are dumb but felt that if you cant drink then dont drink so much lah. Aiyo. NIGHTMARE LAST NIGHT!! 

So I woke up in the morning, having hangover but Im glad that I wasnt drank last night. Maybe 30-40%. Then I felt so uncomfortable and went to drank tons of plain water and I started merlion-ing non-stop. Hahahah. So FUN and SILLY to TORTURE myself at times. Hahah. So I went to take FTT(test mode) again and I FAILED!!! Arrgggghhh!!!!! MY LIFE!!! Ok. I cant focus today, my head was like... hanging... Hahhaa. Yeah.

After my test, I met up with Weiling to go to church. Lol. Before that we shopping, had lunch and just..... relax one corner. Lol. Yeah. I had a long day spending time with Weiling and had dinner with Pastor and some kids... Lol. 

NEXT WEEK- FTT AGAIN!!

Mark Your Calendars!
Spider-Man 4 to be released May 6, 2011

Woohoo! Spidey is coming out soon!! I cant wait!! 

OH MY TIAN!!

THE SOOOOONNNNN IS LIKKKKEEEEEEE

2011?

=(

**** the world and seriously **** you too!

Why am I on this mother****ing world? 

Why people have to suffer? 

Why humans beings are a bunch of morons who are...

 Selfish. 

Greedy.

No integrity.

Insecure.

No love.

Broken.

What is the world coming to?

Why ain't there any peace?

We want peace but we ain't doing that.

I wonder if anyone could just kill all of us.

Let us all perish together and 

This is what I called our mother****ing world peace!

Are we dumb or what?

Leaving your partner for happiness?

What is happiness?

A temporary feeling of feeling good?

**** you!

There is nothing in this world called LOVE!

Are we mad?

Stab one each other for fame, money and greed.

What is fame?

What is money?

What is greed?

Can all these bring you somewhere?

A temporary place of being great?

Feeling that you have own the world?

**** you!

There is nothing called being the King of the World!

Losing yourself?

Choosing to leave your loved ones.

Leaving them a scar in their hearts & memories?

Making them feel broken? 

And making them can't get the shit out of it?!

How does it help you?

Made you feel awesome that you tear someone's heart down?

**** you!

Do you know how much they have to deal 

The ****ing scar that you gave them in their lives?

Have you ever wonder why..

This world became so chaotic? 

War after war. Broken families after another.

Why are there homosexual, bisexual, transsexual in this world? 

And why are there people out there are criticising them? 

So why are there such "weirdo", hurts and pains

 On this ****ing world today?

It is because of the root of your ****ing problem!!

Where are your conscience?

Damn it! 

Kill yourself, MOTHER****ERS!!!

You don't rule the world!

Get down on your knees, repent and then kill yourself!

Have no ideas on suicide?

Slit your wrist. 

Jump down from the building.

Eat sleeping pills.

Bang your head from wall to wall.

Close all your windows, turn on the gas tap and let it run.

Set fire on yourself.

Anything, everything!

Just DIE!

Go to hell!

There are too much hatred in this world

It is because it was started by YOU!

YES!! YOU'RE THE ONE 

WHO CREATED THESE "WORLD PEACE" 

IS THAT WHAT YOU HAVE ALWAYS WISH FOR?

Oh. So are you happy now?

Maybe should I thank you or 

Would you rather to have a nobel prize for your noble doings?

Feeling guilty right now?

**** you!

Commit suicide and that will be the best solution!

Put yourself to an end and there will be world peace!  

Saronara.

Lol. I went out with Cheryl yesterday. She taught me how to draw and improve my toner value. Hmm. I guess now I know how to add in my drawings with the tone now. Lol. Yeah! We had fun hanging out. We went to Changi Airport at first but there wasn't any powerpoint for our lappies, so we head down to sembawang mac to get our powerpoint. We took a lot of photos, using my mac. Hahhaa. We uploaded on facebook. Lol. 

Of cos, that wasn't the main thing. I was surfing the net at mac last night and I was happened to come across a video clip about Todd Bentley. He is my all-time favourite evangelist. He is the coolest man I ever know. Lol. Oh. What was it about? It was about "christians" criticising him about being the false prophet about miracles healing etc. Ok. I was very furious at first but now Im okay. After thinking for awhile, I guess everyone were just being jealous because they don't have the same spiritual level as Todd and that is why they ended up criticising him. Lol. Their comments on youtube is really hilarious- Commenting about Todd is 100% false etc.. How can prophet have tattoos. He must be satan!! Demons are in him. He have been lying about these and that. Im like... "Aiyo. What so many childish people on earth? If you're so holy, be a prophet and evangelist yourself then!" 

So I went to do more research and found out that Todd divorced with his wife, Shannon and he went on marrying another girl. OH MY TIAN!! Ok. I don't agree with him doing that but that is his issue to deal with. Not mine. Probably I will only say I just have to take care and look after of myself. But guess what people out there were saying? Lol. Very nasty stuffs. People comment rubbish. Saying things... Like damn random? This is guy said that I was with his 1st wife that night when Todd committed adultery. WAH! FAINT! I don't know what's wrong with the world. The best part is there are people saying Benny Hinn, Patricia King etc are fake too. Aiyo. What have the world becoming to? Lol. I really have nothing to say to those people out there. Old fashioned mind set about miracles should happened in a quiet place, don't have to advertise etc.. Lol. I bet if a guy get healed by God, he would be very excited and won't be keeping the good news to himself. So selfish!! Lol. I shall end here. 

Anyway... I JUST WANNA SAY SHIOK!! I HAVE 5 DAYS OFF!!! Whee~~~~

Yeah! I met up with Mei Yee yesterday at Bugis to watch Night At The Museum 2. Oh my oh my. She's now 14 years old only!!!!!!!!! Hahaha. Well.. When I first met her, it was like..... She was 12!! Lol. I had some catch up session with her and get to know slightly better too. It was nice and Im meeting her on thursday and saturday(her school's funfair). CHEERS!

Dan, for your reference. Remember now?! Lol! (WAH LAU!! I HAVE TO POST MY 2 YRS AGO PIC!!)

Hm. Let's talk about American Idol for awhile. I read Straits Times Life! yesterday about why did Adam Lambert lost? With FIVE reasons.

1) Location, Location, Location

Lambert lives in LA, where people are known to be too cool to vote? The same thing happened to Angeleno Katherine McPhee, Season  Five's runner-up, who lost to Alabama-bred Taylor Hicks.

2) The Gokey Effect

When top three finalist Danny Gokey was voted of, Idol watchers speculated that those who voted for him would throw their support behind Allen because they had a similar vibe. Gokey's Pastor Jeff Pruit helped things along in a Twitter message, asking the singer's fans to vote to "Save Kris Allen!" 

3) The Comfort Factor 

Lambert's flamboyance - the black nail polish, the eyeliner, the ambiguous sexuality - made middle America uncomfortable. (What's wrong with him being a gay anyway. Lol.)

Allen, on the hand, is a shy, lovable all-american boy and devout Christian who married his longtime girlfriend. 

4) Lambert Backlash

The adoration Idol judges showered on Lambert got Allen fans worried about favouritism. The season was even nicknamed "The Adam Lambert Show". Singer Katy Perry upset Allen and Gokey fans when she wore a cape embroidered with the words Adam Lambert during her performance on the show. (Hmmm.. Humans are people who have tons of jealousy uh.)

5) The Adam Note

Lambert might have used his trademark high-pitch, rocker-like screams one time too many. The Adam Note showed off his range and impressed the world the first few times but became predictable. (Quite true lah. At times, I also get bored with him using his trademark.)

Allen put his piano- and guitar-playing talents to work, showing off his inventiveness. 

Oh well.. Too bad that Adam lost. But Im cool with it. Cos he gonna have his album anyway. Im gonna support him. =) I love the way he sang the 'Mad World' song. Damn bloody nice !!!!!

I didn't go to work today. Migraine is the worst nightmare I can ever have lah. Migraine can make you wanna vomit loh. Terrible sickness!!! Well... I was having very bad migraine last night till I seen a doctor this afternoon and took my medicine. Well.... And now Im perfectly fine!! 

Woah!! I just finished reading up on migraine at wikipedia. About migraine, you will be very surprise by a lot of things. Very interesting....... Well. I've been observing some things about my own migraine for quite some time. I found that Im sensitive to certain lights and sounds. And what I found out about some typical migraine problem is..... It can last from 4 to 72 hours; symptoms include nausea, vomiting, photophobia (increased sensitivity to bright light), and hyperacusis (increased sensitivity to noise) etc... Yes. I can't stand camera flash lights and spot lights. For sound, I cant stand screaming, shouting with out of the blue kinda anger or with lots of emotions, burping sound, eating with loud munches etc. And guess what I found about Hyperacusis (also spelled hyperacousis) is a health condition characterized by an over-sensitivity to certain frequency ranges of sound (a collapsed tolerance to normal environmental sound). A person with severe hyperacusis has difficulty tolerating everyday sounds, some of which may seem unpleasantly loud to that person but not to others. The most common sound to appear unpleasant in hyperacusis is people eating or clicking their fingers. YES!! EATING AND BURPING ARE THE MOST ANNOYING THING FOR MY EARS!! Just please give me a break. I just feel very frustrated when I hear it and I hope that the person will be fine cos that person will geeeet it from me!! And if Im very nice that day, I would tell the person nicely. Ahhhh...

And the funny thing that I just found out is that I think I may be suffering from gluten-sensitivity. Gluten is actually come from wheat, rice, bread kinda of stuffs. And seven out of nine of the patients that went on a gluten-free diet stopped having headaches completely. A gluten-free diet improved blood-flow to the brain and either eliminated migraine frequency, duration and intensity. The simple task of starting a diet journal to help modify the intake of trigger foods like hot dogs, chocolate, cheese and ice cream could help alleviate symptoms. Please lah, just let me be 神仙 now!! Then it will solve all my problem.

Of cos the weather is play a big part too- Temperature mixed with humidity. High humidity plus high or  low temperature was the biggest cause. Pharmological treatment are considered effective if they reduce the frequency or severity of migraine attacks by 50%. Aiyo. Tsk tsk. Poor me. 

Some treatments

Behaviour treatment

In many cases where a migraine follows a particular cycle, attempting to interrupt the cycle may prolong the symptoms. Letting a headache "run its course" by not using painkillers can sometimes decrease the length of an episode. This is especially true of cases where vomiting is common, as often the headache will subside immediately after vomiting. Curbing the pain may delay vomiting, and prolong the headache. 

Alternatives treatment

Frequent migraines can leave the sufferer with a stiff neck (I always have that problem) which can cause stress headaches that can then exacerbate the migraines. Claims have been made that Myofascial Release can relieve this tension and in doing so reduce or eliminate the stress headache element. Some migraine sufferers find relief through acupuncture, which is usually used to help prevent headaches from developing. Sometimes acupuncture is used to relieve the pain of an active migraine headache. In one controlled trial of acupuncture with a sham control in migraine, the acupuncture was not more effective than the sham acupuncture but was more effective than delayed acupuncture. Incense and scents are shown to help. The smell and incense of peppermint and lavender have been proven to help with migraines and headaches more so than most other scents. However, some scents can be a trigger factor. Ehhh. To me is more of a trigger factor. 

Well.. I serious... IGNTS. I read till I feel damn sad lah. I hweel that I need to be 神仙 soon.Tsk! Cannot eat this, cannot do, see and hear that. WAH!! Damn sad!! Lol. Wanna read more..... You can check out yourself  at http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Migraine. SMILE!!

WHAT?! NOT AGAIN?!

Last night.....

SOME FAGGOT CAME TO KNOCK MY DOOR IN MY SLEEP...

'BOO' he went and 

NIGHTMARE CAME TO HAUNT ME DOWN!

Am I a target of yours?

Serious go **** yourself.

Get back to hell!!

Hello!! You belong there in the ****ing first place!

No one told you to rebel.

What a god-wannabe!

SORE LOSER!!

I PASSED MY ARTS TEST!! 

LOL!!

 67 / 100

Alright. It's kinda low. Oh well.. I just need to practice on my toner value. *oink*

OH MY GOSH!! I felt I just entered into paradise for one sec when I stepped into Angel's place. I went to collect my order of jelly heart from Angel. When passed by the swimming pool area... I was like.. Totally love it and felt that this is what I called life!! This living style is like the world of Sentosa loh! I will always remember the name of the condo, it called Lakeshore. I think damn expensive lah. I dont care!! Im so gonna work hard for that. The swimming pool is like.... Never ending. I swear that my dad will love it!! Oh man. I can bring my mum and myself for spa. Ehh.. My brother will love the swimming pool too. 

The Living room.

The Spa Village

The Kitchen

The never ending of SWIMMING POOL!! My dad can swim like a fish!!!

What A Day. ='(

Well. Today was the day for me. I had my good rest, woke up in the morning, using my macbook pro. I had a perfect peaceful quiet morning with myself. My family members weren't at home. At times, I feel good without them. 

So I went out to meet my financial consultant at 12:55pm and also had another appointment with my friend, Joe (not his real name) at Raffles City Shopping Centre, 1:45pm. So I finally met up with Joe after some time. Today, he seem to be very sweet. He made sandwich for me at his work place, O'Briens. So we went on shopping, he managed to get a pair of his shoes. FINALLY AFTER WAITING FOR SO LONG!! He was so happy! And oh well.. I cant make up my mind to get myself anything with my $70 voucher. Lol. 

So I told Joe, why not, we go ahead with this $70 voucher to have food for ourselves. We planned to go donut factory and ben & jerry. So we got down to the basement at Ben & Jerry, we was about to queue up for the queue. He received a call from his brother. He hang up and turned around and looked at me and said, "Jo, let's go. My dad just passed away." "Huh?", was what I replied. After that, I asked him whether is he okay a not. He didn't tear and kept ensuring me that he is okay when his voice sounded so robotic? I was so worried for him. I think it is just way too shocking for him till he don't know how to react. So he took a cab home and I sent him off at the cab stand.

On my way home, I had a lot of questions in my mind. I was wondering why life and death have to be like this? I was asking myself why I didn't choose to tell him to go home since he did told me that he have to leave early cos his dad is not feeling very well today. Well. I don't know whether am I blaming myself. I just felt that I "should have" given up my planned schedule with him to allow him to spend time with his dad. Even though it was just 1 hour. =( Sigh.

I have plenty of things to say. I bet this post may be the longest of all.

Why are there so many diseases, illness, sickness, etc..? I know God didn't create all these. But then why is satan "allowed to create" all these? Why are there curses? Why our sins seem to be so big? So big till there are nothing curable for these problems? And the only way is to be washed by the blood of Lamb (Jesus)? Im seriously tired witnessing all these shit even though I never talk about these much. My friend come from a Christian family. Both of his parents are hardcore holy Christians. Especially his dad. But why are there still curses going in Christians' family? I don't understand. I know is part of life & death. God has His plans for everyone. But why? I just don't get it. Is having illness part of God's plans? His dad had some cancer thingy and was healed by God but now he died cos he couldn't breathe properly.

Yes, I'm a Christian. Well. Probably I should say I have backslided. This year, Im a 6 years old Christian. I failed on my forth year of my walk with God. I failed the test that I was given to. I couldn't accept the fact that I failed and from there I never had the courage to pick myself up to stand on my feet again and that why I never carry on moving in my faith. I couldn't believe why God didn't allow me to realise it earlier. Well. After coming to a conclusion, I come to a point that He did hinted it to me but I wasn't able to recognise that whole incident that time. Yes, I blamed Him for everything, I guess I was too childish and angry at that point of time. And my heart started to grow colder and colder for Him.

Well. I still do speaking in tongues and talk to God most of my times but no longer praying to Him for health, wealth, faith, wish-lists, family, etc.. Maybe some people may think what is the different between talking and praying? Well. My answer is- Talk is like when you're talking to a friend and I'm sure you don't pray to your friends, right? Yeah. Do I still miss Him? Well. I do. Especially when those days, when He performed miracles after miracles for me. Financial come in place perfectly, I used to have one leg shorter than the other and now it's balanced, family relationship got better, etc.. Too many stories to share on this post. "Luckily" I choose to leave my walk "gracefully" without turning back to say things like, "Hey. Why God didn't answer my prayers? Why God didn't perform a miracles for me? Etc etc." Well. A lot of backsliders did that. Well. I did not want to choose to walk this path of no returns. Cos to me, I believe that I may be coming "home" one day. 

I guess I'm just feeling very bitter. Not cos of God but people. I just no longer wants to deal with it. I want to but I'm just taking my own sweet time. Probably I don't want to be healed up so fast. Maybe because I've been growing up too fast? I have no idea of how long am I staying on this evil planet. Maybe today, tomorrow, few weeks, few months, few years. Uhhh. I really have no idea. Life is short.

What is doing meaningful things? What is the purpose of doing the purpose of life that is given to you? What is life? What is death? What is evil? What is good? Who is God? Who is Jesus? Who is Buddha? Who is Satan? Who is Prophet Mohammad? Who is Ganesh? Who created these gods? Who created the livings and dead? Who have the rights to judge? I really have no interests in all these right now. My life is mine; I own my world, my life, my death, my rights, my judgement and my everything. 

I dont know how's Joe doing right now. He's not replying my sms and answering my call. I guess he need some time to be alone for awhile. Well. I won't know how to react if is my dad. 

I remembered I have an aunt that I used to dislike so much. But I ended up forgive her for what she did to me. The feeling is... I think there are no words for me to describe this feeling. Can you imagine your aunt always nag at you, saying you are useless, lousy, not filial etc etc? I mean definitely will feel like... "%^&*$%^&*(*^, I didnt even do anything to you lah. Why are you so.... ARGH!!" So before she passed away, she was staying at my place, so that my mum could take care of her. She's the youngest sister of my mum's. I sacrifice my bed and I slept on some thin cloth tent style bed for many many months. 

Well. Sidetrack a bit. When she passed away, I didn't know she left her assets to my brother and I till my dad told me. I got the slightly more of the portion. I think it was a total of $35K plus going $36K. She half her asset under my brother and my name. My brother received $17K plus and I got $18K plus. We only can get it at the age of 18. But my mum told me that aunt left some instructions down to her about on how to spend her assets that she passed down. She want each of our $5K to be in a fixed account to collect interests. $1K to be in our bank for saving or spending. I think $5K to give charity and left $7K to be split among the 7 sisters. =)

Well. That was a sidetrack of the assets. But when she passed away, even though how much I dislike her, I still felt for her. This coming aug, it is her 6th anniversary of death. It took me at least 2 years to accept the fact that she left us. The 2 years of my life, I just kept feeling that she was on a trip of long holidays as she loves to travel around the world. So I kept "lying" to myself that she is on holidays, don't worry too much. She gonna be fine. Well. That's me. I have no idea of how Joe is feeling right now. I guess it will be a big blow to me if my parents just leave me like that. Especially if they don't get to see me becoming successful in life. 

I think the saddest thing is... 11 more days to Joe's birthday and few hours back, his dad just passed away. Damn chui! My heart just sank when I see him sounded so calm and robotic.

14 May 2009

Yea! Finally met up with Cheryl Phua. =) She misses me alot and me too!! Lol. Oh well.. I made her wait for me for damn long. Ehh.. Like for hours... Cos I was packed with works last min and on top of that MIss Yvonne.... She.. Very slow. I swear she damn weird for the day. She jio me to have to lunch when she was on liquid fasting. Then she jio me to go home and said cya downstair in awhile till she forgotten abt it. Hmmm.. -.- Something's very wrong with her. Lol.

Oh well. I had dinner for raman with Cheryl at Bishan. Yummy. Lol. Then we went to lepak one corner.. We chit chat like maddest. Out of the sudden, Cheryl was so curious abt something across the road and so we went there...... She asked for.... And oh wellss... We stayed for quite long and then we went back home. Yes. It may be kinda boring but we are happy to spend time with each other. =)

I did something wrong today. =( I made a big mistake at work. I wish I could forget all these right now. I wish I can catch up with everything around me. =| I hope that I can do better than this. 

Yeah. Im extremely feeling very weary right now due to my sickness. Im having very bad flu and dry cough. Aiyo. My nose hurts alot lah; very dry. I drank 2L++ water liao still doesnt help. =(

Alright. I headed to work today. But around in the afternoon, Miss Jelaine asked me to go home early to catch some rest. Sigh. Im so so so sick. Lol. I kept sneezing in the office like a mad and my nose kept leaking for no reason. So... I got home slightly earlier (supposedly earlier but..) cos I have tons of things to do. So I went home and finished up some work. I went out with my parents to have dinner and... Yes, I went on to see a doctor. Eeeryerr.. The medicine taste.. YUCKS!! For the first time, I felt medicine is so sickening lah. Lol. 

Yeah. I cant really take mc (even though doctor gave me 2 days mc). Oh wells.... I have tons of things to complete and I need to rest but I guess I can only that do over the weekends. 

I need a getaway holidays!!

Oh my gosh. My running nose is not just running. Perspiring loh. It's dripping!!! HARDCORE SIOL!!!

Woohoo!! Monday is good to me! Lol. Every mondays, I will have my off. Wells.. I went to meet my darling, Stella at RP for lunch. That idiotic Brandon couldnt come. Lol. Hahaha. Yeah. After had lunch with Lalalala, I went on to meet jiejie for awhile. I get to know how's her class is like etc... Mmm.. RP sound fun after all. Or maybe depending which class are you in bah. Yeah. 

I headed down to city area to post up TBG posters. And I guess Im sick now. My nose is running!! Im having running nose. Sigh!!!! I hate it. I had my 2nd flu session at ec. I think germs are spreading. Everyone seem like.... FALLING SICK!! Lol. See a doctor please. I need to go for mine too. =( 

Yeah. After posting up posters, I went to meet jiejie for dinner. WOOHOO!! Spending time w each other is sweet. =)

Re bought me 4 presents but I left another at her place. =( 

Thks bud!

WOOHOO! I got a new watch!!

She always get the right present at the right time. =) So happy.

9 May 2009

Hahahha. Finally met up with my buddy, The-Re. 

Both of us wanted to watch Miss Dawn's gig at esplanade, so we met up. Supposedly to see Miss Dawn's gig but we ended up didnt.

Oh. COS MY DARLING THE-RE OVERSLEPT!! And soooo... We missed the gig. We did go there but it ended just right on the dot. We “confessed” to Miss Dawn and she said, Ni men ying liao le. AIYO! Please lah!” Oopss... =X We are sorry!! Damn paiseh.

So we moved on to grab Japanese ice cream and went on to 7-11 to get Vodka, sprite and….. Oh wells… Yeah. We left to slack near the riverside. Sweet~ We talked about tons of things and etc.. (Secret lah. Cos we are planning to have our own business too. Oops. Did I just mention it?)

After drinking, we went to grab cupcorn & candy floss. And.. then The-Re sugguested to over to her place, so she pei me home to grab my clothings cos I still have to work the next day mah. We got back to my hse and grab everything I need and we carried on to Re’s place.

After that, we went cycling… We… Ehh.. Lol. Yeah. Exercise till we have to puke. Cos maybe we didn’t exercise for a long time plus we drank alcohol too. I can feel my blood was rushing up into my brain and started to have some dizziness and can feel that my migraine is acting up soon. So we hail a cab home and Re being Re, very sweet. She was so concerned and she took care of me. She went to take some panadol for me, allowed me to bath first etc etc.. Lol.

Before we move on to Zzzz, we took a lot of photo using my mac and chat till we Zzzz… Lol. We slept at 4am. It was nice spending time tgt.