Will you accept a salary that offer you- S$1200?

HELLO!! Now is recession, not recess time loh!!!

Is the time to take and accept!! Not to spend!!!!!!!

What's wrong with the young people nowadays?

Very low meh? SAVE LAH!

DONT SPEND SO MUCH!!

Aiya. Just start from small. Be humble a little. It wont kill you.

Anyway anyone want to have a full time job at $1200?

Job cope: Paper work? Admin lah!!!!!

OH MY GOD!!!!!! Im so so annoyed by someone yesterday!!

She was my secondary school senior's sister!!

Few years back, she got to know me on friendster and she added me, so I accepted her request. She pestered me for months and months to be her friend and meet her in real person. And yes, we made that appointment but she made me waited for an hour plus and I kept calling her but she didnt pick up her phone for like a million timessssssssss.. So I damn dulan and went off without letting her know. She called me and apologised with blah blah reasons!! Oh well.. That's it!!!

Few years after...... I accidentally added her!!!!!!! FAILURE ME!! I IDIOT!! AND Ooo Mmm Geee!! She's pestering me again. She damn self pitying siol. She said everyone dislikes her etc... At first, I was very nice and asking her why and ever go and find out the real reason. She replied me - "No one is perfect." Grrrrr!!!! I finally picked up the courage and say it in her face! "It is because you have LOW EQ! Dont be so insecure. No one like self pitying people." She total never reply me already. WOAH! Shiok!! I never felt a single bit of badness after telling her the truth!!

And yesterday... She kept asking me to add her in facebook when we already have each other in our list. Then I like........... REPEAT 10 MILLIONSSS TIMEEEESSSSSS!!!!!!!!! She still say, "Add me."

I.G.N.T.S.!!!!!!

#^&*(%$ DULAN LAH!!

NOW I BLOCKED HER & DELETE HER ON MY MSN!!

IM GOING DELETE HER IN FACEBOOK NOW!!!!!!!

HI EVERYONE!!!

I got a new handphone no. 91156086. You still can get me on my 1st one. I will be using both till I decided to stop one. So please take note of the number!!!!! Thank you!!

I slept for the longest time! About 12 hours! Due to.... Outing with Cheryl and friends. Oh well.. But I kept waking up in the middle of the night to.... Ai! I kanna food poisoning!!! Woke up at 9am, thinking to go for a jog but my mum wouldn't allow cos I'm not feeling well. So I just stayed home to watch 3 movie!!

1) Ice Age 3 - I think not as good as 1 & 2.
2) Up - This is the best 3D animation movie! So touching. I kept tearing.. Worth to watch!
3) Deuce Bigalow: European Gigolo - FUNNY!!!

Going for dinner soon. CIAO!

I love what my friend, Wei Ling post on this on her blog.

Sometimes...

I just feel Cheryl is the best person to brighten up your day especially when you're down. The best place to go is Alistair's house especially when you want to de-stress, stay focus, love life etc. Plus I also can get to learn new stuffs from AL which make me feel good in life and about life. Ben is the best at 'heart to heart' chit chat kinda guy when you've been bottling up too much things in life.

I just feel that life has been good to me. I may or may not appreciate everything in life but at least I'm grateful that I'm still alive- breathing, exploring the world. I cannot control every single thing in life but I can change myself- My belief, my strengths, my weakness, my heart and my mind. We're bound to make mistakes, careless mistakes, screw up our lives, ruin friendship, ruin relationship with loved ones etc..

But I just wanna say.. Even I've already come to a point of feeling that having a friend in life doesn't make any different cos I believe that one man alone can live by himself. Just having one another is just helping you to lighten your burdens, sorrows and which is quite nice to get some weigh off from your shoulders. For sure, I can't say that friends are not important to me but it's just no longer first in priority, not even family or anyone right now. Something for sure- About 99.99%, I wouldn't want to lose Cheryl for sure cos I think she's the best among all my friends. I'm not saying that the rest are not good but for Cheryl, she have come to a point that she wont leave me out for the good things that she's holding onto herself. She may seem to give wrong impression to others most of the time but when you get to know her, your perspective will definitely change for the better. I don't remember I have to compromise her so much to make her happy. I feel 10 times better when I'm with her than hanging out than anyone else. Naturally she is happy by herself, she feel for people and that is the most important thing that I see in friends. She is sensitive enough and capable to make people feel comfortable about her.

I thought I no longer will love any of my friends as I used to before but I guess she's the only one in my mind that I really want to invest my time and love. I don't think there will be another "second Cheryl" cos sometime one is more than enough. I love you, Cheryl. =)

WOOHOO!! I've finally done with my drafting for my project calendar! I've been hoping to see AL online but I have no idea where have he melted to lah!!!!!! $!@#$%^&*( Cos I want to send him the draft thru msn/skype!!!!! DULAN LAH!! WHERE ARE YOU?! But Im happy that another of my work load is completed!! Anyway I already dropped your mum the draft. Hope that she'll receive soon.

I haven't get to sleep yet. Oh wells.... COS CHERYL, NARAYAN AND NARAYAN'S FRIENDS BROUGHT ME OUT FOR CAR RIDING LAST NIGHT!!!!! It was so fun and eye opening!! It's kinda cool to have a group of friends like that. Loving it!!!! Lol. We went tons of places. And I guess Im feeling alot better. On top of all these, I met up with Nat and Ben too! Saturday was kinda fully scheduled for me! Cheers!

IM ADDICTED TO THERE FOR TOMORROW'S SONG!!!!!!

THERE IS DEADLINE THIS WEEK END:
MY PROJECT CALENDAR

I'm just wondering........... Have I been....... Hard on myself? Way too hard to myself. Are my expectation too high? I've dropped it to the lowest.. Toward myself and others. I just have big dreams and that is what I left in me. May be very unreality to others but I believe that I can make it even if the world don't believe in me. So what even if I fail and went berserk one day. I'm happy to say that I've dreamt of what I want and compared to others who didn't dream what they want and can dream of.

Well.. Is okay. Everything is gonna be just fine. I'm just questioning myself.

Came back home... Just feeling wanting to relax. I dont want to think about work cos I have tons of them again, feeling a little lousy today. I didn't had any scoldings or whatever at work. I'm bottling everything again; feeling like as if it is cracking soon. I don't really like saying this most of time... "I can't stand people misunderstand me." I'm not perfect. I may not be getting your instructions right but please do understand me- My mind just can't put all your instructors into this linkage. I'm truly sorry. Instructions maybe so detailed that even a dumbo can understand but well.. At times, I really just cant. My mind just couldn't link it all up. I'm trying to fix that. Please be patient with me. I just need more time to deal with it.

I woke up in the late morning. I guess I had a good rest last night. I worked for 12 hours yesterday. I managed to clear tons of work on hands. I still have few more to go. Im glad that I feel lighten up now. =) I went out to jog and practiced my shot put throw at Toa Payoh Stadium. Im so so so happy to grab the metal ball again. But so sad that my furthest throw was 5.3m. My best record in secondary school was 6.8m. =(

I actually had a mini dream and is to play at SEA Games. BUT THEY DONT EVEN HAVE SHOT PUT IN SEA GAMES LAH!! Damn sian. Olympic Games have shot put..... But.... The best record is....... 20m plus. OH MY GOD!! How to challenge that lady lah?!! I think Singapore's best record is 12m plus. Im only half way there. =( I love sports day!! That is the day that I feel the best of the best of myself.

WOOHOO!! Im watching Rachael Ray Show now!! I love her!!

OH MY GOD!!!!!!!! Look at this video!!
It's called the Pygmy jerboa.



Ehh.. Hamster face with a pair of Kangaroo legs?! Soooooo CUTE!!

Few minutes ago........

There is a guy added me on facebook who basically have no common sense. Because he asked me for my name for 3 times and when my name have already appeared right in front of his eyes....... LIKE 4 TIMES!!!

1) Before adding me....
He can see my name!

2) Before sending me a personal msg....
He can definitely see my name!

3) Before writing on my profile wall...
He can ****ing see my name!

4) Before replying my comment about his invitation...
HE CAN ****ING FAGGOT SEE MY NAME!!!

AND WHAT NOW?!!!!!!!
HE IS STILL ASKING
FOR MY NAME!!!

DULAN LAH!!!


Ehhh.. Excuse me, Sir.
Are you blind or something?
Or you used to play too much CS (Counter Strike)
till you have no CS (Common Sense)?

I'm almost getting my project done for the real drafting. I'm loving my job- my business. I guess I just learned a lot of things for these passed few month especially in CHEC. EC is really a training ground. Sometime things isn't easy to go through. Yeah. And sometimes I kinda sacrificed a lot of not sleeping early but I guess I charged a lot energy during my weekends too.

Well. I'm glad that I'm Joann. I'm happy that things are difficult for me in my life. I'm happy to not to have some people or too many friends in life cos I guess it will just get me so distracted and confused of what I really want. I'm happy that I'm single and have a carefree lifestyle; it just get me so stable and focus of what I really wanna do. I no longer can imagine my life involving- taking care of friends, family, loved ones or whatever craps. I need to take care of myself. I used to "sacrifice" so much and forgotten to love myself and now it led me to bitterness. I need to get rid of my bitterness by loving myself, spending time alone and find what I really love. Don't get me wrong, I still love my friends, family etc but just that I feel that they need to step up to their level to take care of themselves. Everyone can live alone by themselves. You don't really need anyone, you can do just fine all by yourself. Having one another is making and helping things to get easier.

Yes, I can't deny that I'll come to a point of loneliness but I'm doing just fine. Why am I like that? I want to be able to love myself before I can love others. Cos for me, loving others is easy. Thus, it has been in me all along and it won't disappear. Big problem for me is that I can't love myself. Once I get this right, I will love others once again. I'm secured about myself (of cos not 100%), that why I don't need anyone right now to add colour my life. Alley and I have been out to town, working and we been seeing everyone involving into boy/ girl relationship and he turned to me and said, "We're really missing out heh?" Oh well. Maybe, maybe not. I have no ideas. I've seen too much failure relationships and it get me 99.99% of NO interest into all these nonsense.

Ask yourself few questions about boy/ girl relationship.
- Do you have the commitment?
- Do you really know the true meaning of commitment?
- Can you stay faithful in these lustful & sinful world?
- Why do you want/ need to get another one?
- Can you predict the future when you have your one?
- Can you be financially doing well?

Oh well. Whatever to anything and any craps! I guess I can't fit in any shit of the list above cos I can't give my 100% to anything. Why? Cos I don't believe in not hurting anyone, so to prevent all these hurtings, I won't love anyone. Loving someone is = to hurting someone. I'm gonna end here.

Anyway I'm happy that I found a phone today and I returned it to the owner. I believe returning it to the owner than having it myself. I can't imagine myself not returning it. Cos I want my lost items* to be returned to me too.

When you're in love, love will become illogical- You will and can do anything for love.

Lol. Im at Alley's guest room right now. We just came back from supper!! Im hitting bed soon. lol. And he is leaving in abt less than 24 hours. =( Damn sian! I also wanna further my studies. Im really feeling so stucked in Singapore. In Singapore: No qualification = No futher studies. So what lah! I am slow in learning all these academic studies cannot uh?! @#$%^&*( DULAN LAH!! I want to get out of Singapore asap. PLEASE SAVE ME!

Oh wells.... Im glad that Im feeling a lot better than before about everything in life, only know that Im tired. Hahaha. AL thinks that I can never be tired. He is trying to tell me that I've been lying about my tireness all these times. Ha. Yea yea. So how now how? Not physically tired lah, is MENTALLY tired!! Hello!! I aint a robot hor! I wanna go holidays! Finally parents agreed to allow me to go holis but need to jio alot of people along then can go. Aiyo. So ma fan!!

ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!! MY FTT!!!!!!! TOO BUSY FOR FTT!! Faggot driving license!! Oops! LET ME PASS!!! Next week, I will go take my trial mode again!!!!! I want to buy studio apartment! I want DSLR camera! No, I want a digital note pad!! I want to buy tons of designing stuffs! I need to master dreamweaver and flash!! So that I can do my website for my company. Oh my goodness!! Am I dying soon? Heaven to be on earth, please!!!!!!!!! I need a peaceful mind to deal with what I need to complete!!

OKAY! OFF TO BED!! K.O.!

I wish I wish... ARGHHH!!! Nevermind!! I need something to numb myself for awhile. Im just way too exhausted. My mind, my thoughts and my ideas are all over the place. I cant wait to save tons of money to buy DSLR Sony Camera. I need it for my business. Im going nuts!!

I headed down to church yesterday. I just wanted to hear a little bit of the word of God. I left early to meet Alley to deal with our business. Yes, our clients finally made up their mind of what they want. Hooray!! Now my job is to do a real draft out to let my clients have the feel of what is it like. Oh my. I cant wait. I want to go to F1 but Im still thinking should I spend that amount to watch a not. Nevermind. I still time to think about it.

Anyone wanna go drinking with Jojo? No pub, no club. Just grab a beer at 7-11 and lepak one corner pls!!!!! Lol. Oh well.... My business partner is going back to Aussie in 2 days times. =( Sigh. Come back soon. Im really tired. I shall go to bed now. Bye.

Hahhaa. Let's talk about my life for a moment. Lol.

Yeah yeah. I've been busy with my full time job & my business project. Alley and I are extremely tired. Ehh.. We are seriously tired. He have his school work to deal with and I have my full time job to deal with too. I worked in the day and in the night when I get home- I cant rest, I need to continue my designing. Oh my tian!! It is not easy to have 2 jobs. Work hard, guys!!

I'm glad that at least we were so busy, we still find time to chill a little. We went to watch movie- Transformers 2, Drag me to Hell and Transformers 2 again (of cos, different days). Lol. Oh well.. Alley and I talked about it before- No matter how busy we are, we need to find time to relax or de-stress ourselves. It is because this is very important especially doing designing and stuffs. You need to have stable mind to be able to think and flow with the creativity world. Next time, our company- We will buy PS3 (probably PS10 will be out by then) or some games to chill. Cos main thing is that I personally I dont wish to see one of my employee - Suddenly cant take it anymore and start throwing my computers or mess up my studio out of nowhere. Lol. It can be quite scary. I can understand why so many artists went ku-ku in their lives. This is all because they dont allow themselves to relax or de-stress.

Yes. I dont really believe in this thing which is called stress! Cos stress is actually like you created it by yourself? Is either you're feeling tired or just need a break from work/school. So probably should try telling yourself- NOT TO SAY TOO MUCH STRESS OUT FROM YOUR MOUTH!! Lol.


ARGGHHH!! ANGRY!!
I've been giving in a lot to what you want to say. Im seriously disliking it. Im just bearing with you. Count yourself lucky! Cos I've tried very hard to respect you.

Guess what guys? I found out that Im so so so lazy to post up TBG photos or anything with my life or whatsoever.

Yeah! I seriously been busy, tired and...... Ehhh.. But managed to find time to hang out with Alistair. Of cos we need to grab hold of every opportunity to spend time and work. He dont come back from Aussie like... as if it is like... Everyday? So yeah. We just finished watching Transformers!! We watched it twice!! Lol. I accidentally fell asleep at the last part when optimus prime was abt to revive. Oops!! Too tired la. That's why.

And yes, I always wanted to say this...... And finally I grab a photo to compare both Debra and Alistair.... THEY LOOK SO ALIKE, RIGHT?! Lol.













*Ahem* Alley, I guess I've just found your long lost sister. Pls thank me for that. Hahaha.

Sorry for posting such random topic!!

Oh my goodness. Im ultimately & extremely exhausted. I've been working for long hours; work at EC and doing my project for my business with Ally. Oh my tian! I cant hold my eyes lid any longer but I still wanna do a post. I missed blogging and I missed about all my updates, complaining, whining etc.. I have tons of photos to upload abt TBG and my projects for my company. Aiyo. But I cant find a longer time to spend with my blog. Poor bloggy. I miss you.

Ally and I are half way through for our project. We need to do a draft on monday!! Luckily due date is at the end of Sept. =) Yeah. We kinda still have that time. He will be back again by Sept and most probably I will go F1 with him too. Yeah. Kinda doing our business again and trying to get exposure to such event cos we have a goal to hit!!

Oh well. I will update more about my business when it comes along. Alright?

I've been spending my time fully especially this week. Yeah. And few days back, I accidentally bumped into someone and........ Sigh... She was so disappointed of what I did. Her face expression... OH MY TIAN!! I want to commit suicide lah. I can never remove it in my mind. It kept running through my head and I decided to stop lah. Im not perfect but I tried my very best not to pick it up again. CHEERS!

Im seriously going to say this. Is no big deal but oh well... Im seriously missing r.n., just probably no courage to go. But yet again, Im not freeing up myself to go too, been stucked with work for passed few weeks when I was missing r.n.. I've always wanting to drop by but it just so happen that office is locking up the place soon, no one is there, no one pick up the phone etc.. Aiya. Just shut up to me lah.