A Dream
that bothers me so much.
The night before, a sudden thought came into my mind- What if I die one day when I'm sleeping? I didn’t have any ideas for that question. Why did my mind asked me such a question? I have no idea.
Only this morning, I had a long dream before I woke up. I can’t really recall what actually had happened. I remembered that I was driven to a dead end of a long wooden bridge at the sea. There were many men in black surrounding me and a man in black with his sunglasses on (he seem to be the boss) was leading the way and guiding me thru out my way to the end of the wooden bridge. We stopped there. Me, being clueless, wondering what’s wrong and the next thing, I knew was that I was trapped and betrayed to be where I’m at and where I’m standing right now.
A conversation that I had with the “Boss”
Boss: Kill her right now!”
Me: Why and what have I done?
Boss: Nothing.
Me: Then why do I deserve to be killed?
Boss: I give you a chance. Either my men shoot you down or you do it yourself.
Me: Alright. I will choose to do it myself.
I was holding the gun in my right hand, thinking to pull the trigger but I didn’t have any ideas where to place it at. My head or my heart? As I was thinking, I kept buying time, so to keep myself alive. My heart was pounding- real fast. I couldn’t get my mind thinking to have an escape plan. I kept thinking and thinking till a point I asked myself – “Where will I go if I pull the trigger? Heaven or hell?” The funny thing is I know that I’m in my dream. For my first time, I felt that this dream is not just any other ordinary dream that I always have. I was really wondering will I die on the spot in my bed when I pull this trigger. This is end of my destiny? Is my life going to be vanished now? How can this be? I paused for long.
The boss shouted at me.
Boss: HEY! Do you want to kill yourself? Can you do it quick? If you don’t want to die right now, I will let you go.
Me: Oh. Are you serious? Then what was your motive for bringing me here?
Boss: Well. I don’t know. I was given the order to kill you.
Me: Thanks for letting me go. =)
Boss: We’re making our move now. *threw me an ATM card* Probably you will get what it mean.
Me: Thanks. Bye.
I went on to check the amount of the ATM card and it was credited with $33, 314 and it wasn't for me, it was actually for that boss but what is he trying to tell me? I seriously don’t know what it means. It does bother me right now because I can’t get what it supposedly to be meant. And what if I pulled trigger, will I be dead right now? Will I be in heaven or hell? What is $33, 314? Is that a symbolic or something else?
I’m very sorry for those who are reading my post; I know you guys don’t get what I’m trying to say in this post and it is really confusing for you to be in my shoes to understand me right now. Every dream that I had, it runs a weight (meaning) in my mind. For me, dreams are not just dreams. It happened for a reason; just like everything happened for a reason. I always believe that there is someone up there with high authority that is trying to tell me something. I know it sound floaty-whoosy (do you spelled it that way?) but I isn’t joking.
I think Alistair will know what I mean, right? Cos you know most of my dreams and instincts come true. Not really exactly come true but it just... Aiya. I dont know how to explain lah. Even Alis finds it amazing too. So it's not just something that it is easy to be expressed with words.
Well. To think abt it again, why didn't I dare to pull the trigger? What will happen if I pulled it? The only thing, I know the truth abt myself right now- is that I cant bear to leave this place without completing My Destiny- My future, My plans, My hope, My dreams and My life. Thank You for the dreams.
Friday, January 30, 2009
25 Jan 2009
I kept falling asleep at my 2nd aunt's sofa. Too tired. I didnt managed to sleep well; I just cant sleep well. I just have tons of things running thru my mind. My mind cant rest in peace. =(
28 Jan 2009
I woke up and guess where did I went to?! I WENT TO SIGN UP FOR DRIVING LICENSE!! FINALLY!!! Wooohoooo!! hahahha. So happy. But I havent book the date for my theory and practical test yet. Hahaha. Cos I dont know when is the best time for me to go. I need to check with my new working schedule plan. Hopefully, I can book it asap.
I met up with The-Re and her fren, Cassandra. We met up at clarke quay. We supposely going to TCC to have some warm drinks but we ended up buying some drinks to chill at the river side. The weather was so windy. So nice. =) I missed Re like crazy. BUDDY!!
After we went our separate ways, I went on to meet Mei Hui. Yea. Clubbing. What else. Lol. We went to Zouk. Well. I seriously didnt enjoyed myself. For me, music sucks for the night. I really dont know why. Im very sorry. I just didnt enjoyed myself. Oh well. Actually I never enjoyed going, is more of accompanying Mei Hui and taking care of her. =) I went home at 2am.
29 Jan 2009
I slept very long.... Hahhaa. Well. I had a long dream too. I will talk abt that more in the next post.
Mmm. I met up with Pei Shan (from HOGC) for lunch. Nice lady. Hahaha. We had jia xiang mee. Very nice. Hahhaha. And we got to know each other more now. Happy. =)
I went back to rest and at 5pm, I got myself prepared and head down to work. SIAN!! Im working tmr and sat too. LONG HOURS. REAL LONG!
Another year of reunion dinner. Rushing down to my 2nd uncle (dad's side)'s place for dinner. Oh well. I didnt have any rice. I ate 2 popiah (DIY), and tons of CP shrimp wonton. I eat till I ki-siao!! Hahaha. After steamboat, is lao yu sheng time. That's all, folks!! Boring.
26 Jan 2009
1st AUNT's PLACE!!! The place where I grew up from. =) Just a lift away. Im at the 5th storey and she's on the 11th storey. Best place on earth. WHEE!!! Im so shocked to see my eldest cousin!! Whee!! Finally he is back. Well... He just came back from "changi chalet". He's a ANG-GONG SIAO!!! I love him very much siol. He took very good care of me when I was young. Haha. He's 40 years old this year. So old.....!!!!!! But he's still soooooo handsome and damn muscular!!
After lunch, Ben jio us to his place. So I brought my 2 cousins along with me to Ben's place, Celeste and Claire. And I met up with XL to Ben's place together. Finally I get to see XL's new hairstyle. OH MY GOSH!! I swear it's damn nice. In photos, she dont look good but.... In real live... Is.... O.O WOAH WOAH WOAH!!!
We took a bus to Seng Kang, head down to Mac first cos my little cousin, Claire, needed some food. She was hungry. Hahah. Ben met us there with Fiona. Haahahaha. So we spent some time there. We head to Ben's place to greet Ben's dad. Hahaha. We got angbao!!! Lol. That's not important. Important part was.... WE ENJOYED OURSELVES!! Tons of Ben's frens came too. Ok. Well. We know each other too. Lol. We all gambled; we played blackjack. Im very sorry, I gambled. I won at first but in the end, I lost $3 to Banker which is Ben. I never like gambling and I never encouraged gambling cos I see tons of people destroyed their lives by gambling. Im very sorry for not setting good example. Very sorry to my 2 cousins too. ='(
After Ben winning so much, he treated us to Mac. Hahaha. We eat till like some ah-siao!! After supper, my dad came to fetch my cousins and I back home. =) My bro and I gave up our beds for our cousins and their mum (6th aunt) to sleep. I get to sleep at the sofa!! Best part of my life. I love sleeping at sofa. I will get a sofa bed, if I can.
27 Jan 2009
Headed down to my 2nd aunt's place for lunch. Was kinda bored. After lunch, all the adults were playing blackjack. Most of the cousins watched. Hahaha. Is kinda funny when adults played BJ too. =)
I kept falling asleep at my 2nd aunt's sofa. Too tired. I didnt managed to sleep well; I just cant sleep well. I just have tons of things running thru my mind. My mind cant rest in peace. =(
28 Jan 2009
I woke up and guess where did I went to?! I WENT TO SIGN UP FOR DRIVING LICENSE!! FINALLY!!! Wooohoooo!! hahahha. So happy. But I havent book the date for my theory and practical test yet. Hahaha. Cos I dont know when is the best time for me to go. I need to check with my new working schedule plan. Hopefully, I can book it asap.
I met up with The-Re and her fren, Cassandra. We met up at clarke quay. We supposely going to TCC to have some warm drinks but we ended up buying some drinks to chill at the river side. The weather was so windy. So nice. =) I missed Re like crazy. BUDDY!!
After we went our separate ways, I went on to meet Mei Hui. Yea. Clubbing. What else. Lol. We went to Zouk. Well. I seriously didnt enjoyed myself. For me, music sucks for the night. I really dont know why. Im very sorry. I just didnt enjoyed myself. Oh well. Actually I never enjoyed going, is more of accompanying Mei Hui and taking care of her. =) I went home at 2am.
29 Jan 2009
I slept very long.... Hahhaa. Well. I had a long dream too. I will talk abt that more in the next post.
Mmm. I met up with Pei Shan (from HOGC) for lunch. Nice lady. Hahaha. We had jia xiang mee. Very nice. Hahhaha. And we got to know each other more now. Happy. =)
I went back to rest and at 5pm, I got myself prepared and head down to work. SIAN!! Im working tmr and sat too. LONG HOURS. REAL LONG!
Sunday, January 25, 2009
Thursday, January 22, 2009
18 Jan 2009
I was forced out of bed by my dad to go Kwang Ming Shan to pay respect to my grandparents (my father's side). I sweared I never like that, not that Im unfilial is cos of what they did in my parents' life that I never respect them abt. My dad brought my bro and I there to see them. I dragged myself there and I probably got the blackest face I ever had for the year. My dad passed me the joss sticks to force me to pray, I was like.... WTH!! I didnt pray at all and when I got the joss stick, I just..... Nevermind. My dad kept demanding me to kneel down at their tombstone (is that what u called?) to talk my grandparents that Im here to see them etc.
Conversation
Dad: I want you to kneel down now to pray to them.
Me: No.
Dad: Oei! I said you better do it.
Me: What for?
Dad: They are your grandparents.
Me: So?
Dad: Pray now.
Me: *put my hands together and sing BLAH BLAH BLAH all the way...*
Dad: Oei. You dont blah blah blah.. You talk.
Me: What for? I dont want.
Dad: Then you kneel down.
Me: NO! I said NO!!
Dad: Do it now!
Me: NO!
Walked away and go home myself.
I can never respect them. Never. I never like CNY cos every year I have to drag myself to pay respect to them. I will avoid whenever I can. I hate them. Another worse thing is I still have to entertain my dad's side's family. Damn annoying. They are those no money no talk kinda people. Yea. Oh well. Over the years, they did changed alot on the money side but I still dont like them. Especially come to CNY!! It is a waste of time celebrating with them. They are celebrating for the sake of it. Angbao? WTH!! I hate it! (Dont ask me to give to you. I want to save that bunch of money up.) Nevermind abt this. Go back to my grandparents.
I never seen my dad's father cos he died during in his 40s. But that is not the main point, all I know abt him was he never took care of his family. He is damn lazy!! If he worked for 1 day, he will need to take a 3 days off from work. He was a taxi-driver. You think abt it lah, if you're a taxi driver in olden days is a blessing lah. Cos in those days, Caucasians are the one who could affort to take taxi and plus most Caucasians give tips and my grandpa should have tons of it but he never spend it on his family but himself. All he cares was himself. SELFISH! The best part is he owned a coffeeshop and he dumped it my grandma to look after. I dont understand why lah. He can really brewed the coffee very well but he is not helping my grandma to tend his coffeeshop. Plus I remembered that my dad told me that whenever he was in the good mood, he would make a trip down to brew the coffee and the queue of people buying from him, will never fail on him. So can you imagine how long is the queue? If he is smart enough, I bet he could set up a shop like Ah-Kun Kaya Toast. Why is he so lazy?
My grandma? She died when I was 9. I dont even want to talk abt her most of my times. I never like her. I think she probably can win an Oscar trophy, the best actress award. She played the role of "angel wannabe". She always the one who was at the back scene creating troubles for everyone especially my mum. She didnt like my mum. You know why? Aiya. It's a damn long story but over all is abt my mum wanting to change my dad's siblings' attitude for greeting people. My dad's siblings sucks at that, so my mum set an example to show everyone but my grandma picked a fight with her just because of that. I really think I do have a childish grandma. She's the one who caused my mum to be in depression. When I was born, my grandma always picked a fight with my mum abt some nonsenses and causes my dad wanted to divorce with my mum (cause my faggot grandma kept pestering my dad to divorce my mum) and from that onward, my mum blamed me for everything in life. She thinks that Im the root of every pain that she was going thru. She was so depressed till my aunty (my mum's side) was worried that my mum might want to hurt me and so I was sent to my aunt's place to be taken care till I was 2+ years old.
When I was 3, I went back to my original home to stay. I thought that my mum will be over and done with her depression but it didnt end there. I was always verbally and physically abused. I can never forget what my mum did in my life. Sometime till today my childhood memories are haunting me. Yes, I have forgiven my mum for what she have done in my life but the scars that she left can never be erased. But is ok. Im fine. No longer holding the grudges but I can never forgive what my grandma did to her. Because if not, there was one scene in my life that it may cause me to be paralysed or be died by now.
20 Jan 2009
Yeah. Reported to school at 8:20am cos Mr Kenny wanted me to be in school to help him to set up his class at 9am. Mr Kenny gave me instructions on setting up his class; he got me to arrange tables, chairs and the board game that he prepared for his class. After Im done with the arrangement, he got me to sit in his class and I played with his students. It was fun!! His class ended at 11:15am.
I went for lunch break with jiejie. At 2pm.... WOAH!! My first arts class!!! It was awesome!! I was trying very hard to stay awake cos I only had 2 hrs of rest the night before. Lol. Oh well. Im Christinananana's classmate for arts now. hahah. I was kinda not used to drawing but Im trying, Im trying my very best to get addicted to it. Im putting my soul and heart in arts. I want to set my foundation right. No error for that, pls, Jo. Im very happy with what I have and I will be working at CHEC on 2 Feb 2009.
After arts class, I headed down to my pub job at 6pm. Hahaha. I finally told my manager and senior manager that Im quitting. WOO!! Im saving my ass from those...... "horse come man"(hidden meaning). For whatever it is... Im over and done with it. I told my senior manager, my reason for my leaving is cos of them then he damn dulan abt it. Hahaha. He felt sad that Im leaving and he gave me a hug. He said he love my smile and I love his concern too. =) Hahaha. *faint* He is the best!! He wants me to come back often to visit him. Yeah. I will do that. My last day will be this sunday.
21 Jan 2009
I went to cut my hair!!! Finally!! 8 months of not cutting my bloody hair!! It was super duper thick!! Now I feel so light and at last my scalp could breathe. Lol. After my haircut, I head down to somerset to walk like crazy and make me think abt things in life of what I had went thru.
Work start at 6pm. I supposely to finish work at 11pm but I ended up have to extend it till 2am cos someone took mc last min and I have to cover up the shift. 30mins to closing and I just screwed up cos I was so tired till I couldnt pay attention and so I printed the wrong bill to the customer and he pay the printed bill at $74++ but his original bill was $116.40. I ended up have to cover up the rest. Sian. But Im ok. Lesson learnt; I will not repeat it again. Hahahha. Im happy again. No heartache. Cos I know what's the reason behind everything.
And I received a MMS from ZHANG XIAOLI!!! She cut her hair too!!! She cut it short. It's shoulder length. It's nice and it suited her. But I still think her long hair make her look sexy. Mmm... Maybe real life, it will look different from MMS. Ok. I cant wait to see XL now. =) And.... One last thing.... She shut down her blog. Sob. =( I love her posting abt her life. Is ok. I still have her posting in her heart.
22 Jan 2009
I didnt have to work today. I wanted to meet Ben but he isnt free cos he got tons of projects and exams to deal with. So I went to town alone and I kept walking and walking non-stop. I cant stop thinking abt my future and my plans for my eating lifestyle. I want my eating lifestyle to be damn ang moh. I want to eat pasta, pizza, salad, drink coffee (the main point is go to cafe to have a seat and relax and probably picking up my pencil to draw), eat fruits like mad (so to kick my habit from drinking carbonated drinks), Im going to exercise; planning to do tons of shuttle run. I want to train my leg muscle. Why? Hahaha. Ehhh.. So that I have a pair of legs that are in good shape to have tattoos on. Oops. =X Lalalalalala.. I enjoyed being alone thinking; I realised it makes me feel more relaxing and freely I can think and dream abt my future. Im loving it!
I was forced out of bed by my dad to go Kwang Ming Shan to pay respect to my grandparents (my father's side). I sweared I never like that, not that Im unfilial is cos of what they did in my parents' life that I never respect them abt. My dad brought my bro and I there to see them. I dragged myself there and I probably got the blackest face I ever had for the year. My dad passed me the joss sticks to force me to pray, I was like.... WTH!! I didnt pray at all and when I got the joss stick, I just..... Nevermind. My dad kept demanding me to kneel down at their tombstone (is that what u called?) to talk my grandparents that Im here to see them etc.
Conversation
Dad: I want you to kneel down now to pray to them.
Me: No.
Dad: Oei! I said you better do it.
Me: What for?
Dad: They are your grandparents.
Me: So?
Dad: Pray now.
Me: *put my hands together and sing BLAH BLAH BLAH all the way...*
Dad: Oei. You dont blah blah blah.. You talk.
Me: What for? I dont want.
Dad: Then you kneel down.
Me: NO! I said NO!!
Dad: Do it now!
Me: NO!
Walked away and go home myself.
I can never respect them. Never. I never like CNY cos every year I have to drag myself to pay respect to them. I will avoid whenever I can. I hate them. Another worse thing is I still have to entertain my dad's side's family. Damn annoying. They are those no money no talk kinda people. Yea. Oh well. Over the years, they did changed alot on the money side but I still dont like them. Especially come to CNY!! It is a waste of time celebrating with them. They are celebrating for the sake of it. Angbao? WTH!! I hate it! (Dont ask me to give to you. I want to save that bunch of money up.) Nevermind abt this. Go back to my grandparents.
I never seen my dad's father cos he died during in his 40s. But that is not the main point, all I know abt him was he never took care of his family. He is damn lazy!! If he worked for 1 day, he will need to take a 3 days off from work. He was a taxi-driver. You think abt it lah, if you're a taxi driver in olden days is a blessing lah. Cos in those days, Caucasians are the one who could affort to take taxi and plus most Caucasians give tips and my grandpa should have tons of it but he never spend it on his family but himself. All he cares was himself. SELFISH! The best part is he owned a coffeeshop and he dumped it my grandma to look after. I dont understand why lah. He can really brewed the coffee very well but he is not helping my grandma to tend his coffeeshop. Plus I remembered that my dad told me that whenever he was in the good mood, he would make a trip down to brew the coffee and the queue of people buying from him, will never fail on him. So can you imagine how long is the queue? If he is smart enough, I bet he could set up a shop like Ah-Kun Kaya Toast. Why is he so lazy?
My grandma? She died when I was 9. I dont even want to talk abt her most of my times. I never like her. I think she probably can win an Oscar trophy, the best actress award. She played the role of "angel wannabe". She always the one who was at the back scene creating troubles for everyone especially my mum. She didnt like my mum. You know why? Aiya. It's a damn long story but over all is abt my mum wanting to change my dad's siblings' attitude for greeting people. My dad's siblings sucks at that, so my mum set an example to show everyone but my grandma picked a fight with her just because of that. I really think I do have a childish grandma. She's the one who caused my mum to be in depression. When I was born, my grandma always picked a fight with my mum abt some nonsenses and causes my dad wanted to divorce with my mum (cause my faggot grandma kept pestering my dad to divorce my mum) and from that onward, my mum blamed me for everything in life. She thinks that Im the root of every pain that she was going thru. She was so depressed till my aunty (my mum's side) was worried that my mum might want to hurt me and so I was sent to my aunt's place to be taken care till I was 2+ years old.
When I was 3, I went back to my original home to stay. I thought that my mum will be over and done with her depression but it didnt end there. I was always verbally and physically abused. I can never forget what my mum did in my life. Sometime till today my childhood memories are haunting me. Yes, I have forgiven my mum for what she have done in my life but the scars that she left can never be erased. But is ok. Im fine. No longer holding the grudges but I can never forgive what my grandma did to her. Because if not, there was one scene in my life that it may cause me to be paralysed or be died by now.
20 Jan 2009
Yeah. Reported to school at 8:20am cos Mr Kenny wanted me to be in school to help him to set up his class at 9am. Mr Kenny gave me instructions on setting up his class; he got me to arrange tables, chairs and the board game that he prepared for his class. After Im done with the arrangement, he got me to sit in his class and I played with his students. It was fun!! His class ended at 11:15am.
I went for lunch break with jiejie. At 2pm.... WOAH!! My first arts class!!! It was awesome!! I was trying very hard to stay awake cos I only had 2 hrs of rest the night before. Lol. Oh well. Im Christinananana's classmate for arts now. hahah. I was kinda not used to drawing but Im trying, Im trying my very best to get addicted to it. Im putting my soul and heart in arts. I want to set my foundation right. No error for that, pls, Jo. Im very happy with what I have and I will be working at CHEC on 2 Feb 2009.
After arts class, I headed down to my pub job at 6pm. Hahaha. I finally told my manager and senior manager that Im quitting. WOO!! Im saving my ass from those...... "horse come man"(hidden meaning). For whatever it is... Im over and done with it. I told my senior manager, my reason for my leaving is cos of them then he damn dulan abt it. Hahaha. He felt sad that Im leaving and he gave me a hug. He said he love my smile and I love his concern too. =) Hahaha. *faint* He is the best!! He wants me to come back often to visit him. Yeah. I will do that. My last day will be this sunday.
21 Jan 2009
I went to cut my hair!!! Finally!! 8 months of not cutting my bloody hair!! It was super duper thick!! Now I feel so light and at last my scalp could breathe. Lol. After my haircut, I head down to somerset to walk like crazy and make me think abt things in life of what I had went thru.
Work start at 6pm. I supposely to finish work at 11pm but I ended up have to extend it till 2am cos someone took mc last min and I have to cover up the shift. 30mins to closing and I just screwed up cos I was so tired till I couldnt pay attention and so I printed the wrong bill to the customer and he pay the printed bill at $74++ but his original bill was $116.40. I ended up have to cover up the rest. Sian. But Im ok. Lesson learnt; I will not repeat it again. Hahahha. Im happy again. No heartache. Cos I know what's the reason behind everything.
And I received a MMS from ZHANG XIAOLI!!! She cut her hair too!!! She cut it short. It's shoulder length. It's nice and it suited her. But I still think her long hair make her look sexy. Mmm... Maybe real life, it will look different from MMS. Ok. I cant wait to see XL now. =) And.... One last thing.... She shut down her blog. Sob. =( I love her posting abt her life. Is ok. I still have her posting in her heart.
22 Jan 2009
I didnt have to work today. I wanted to meet Ben but he isnt free cos he got tons of projects and exams to deal with. So I went to town alone and I kept walking and walking non-stop. I cant stop thinking abt my future and my plans for my eating lifestyle. I want my eating lifestyle to be damn ang moh. I want to eat pasta, pizza, salad, drink coffee (the main point is go to cafe to have a seat and relax and probably picking up my pencil to draw), eat fruits like mad (so to kick my habit from drinking carbonated drinks), Im going to exercise; planning to do tons of shuttle run. I want to train my leg muscle. Why? Hahaha. Ehhh.. So that I have a pair of legs that are in good shape to have tattoos on. Oops. =X Lalalalalala.. I enjoyed being alone thinking; I realised it makes me feel more relaxing and freely I can think and dream abt my future. Im loving it!
Sunday, January 18, 2009
16 Jan 2009
What a CHALET!! I didnt sleep the whole night. We are nosiest of the nosiest siol. We blasted the music like nobody business. We drank like crazy but I didnt drink alot cos not in the mood to drink. The guys are damn annoying sia. They kept blasting the nation anthem song damn loud just to give everyone a morning call. CRAZY LAH!! Luckily Im not in bed, if not..... ALL WILL GET IT FROM ME!!
17 Jan 2009
Alistair Koh, Ben, Fiona, Kirk, Brandon, Regina, Angeline, Dorothy and I went for breakfast. After breakfast, 4 of us- Ben, Fiona, Dorothy and I went back home to rest. Damn tiring. I got back home at 2pm plus. Woke up at 3.50pm to meet Fiona and Ben for last min shopping for XL's bday present. We walked like crazy. Hahaha. We brought XL- 2 ladies boxers and VANS shoes. Hahaha. We got all the sizes wrong!! BEN LAH!!! Boxers still can fit lah. Then the VANS shoes, I sweared I feel like killing Ben.
Our Coversation
Me: Hey. How uh? What size?
Ben: 6.
Me: How you know?
Ben: Want to bet anot? Confirmed.
Me: Size 6? Her feet so big meh?
Size 6 shoes arrived...
Me: WOAH!! So big loh. I think one size smaller lah.
Ben: Eh....
Fiona: If not, we get 5.5 loh.
Ben: Ok.
Me: Hmm. Ok then.
See lah!! One size smaller is better, right? Save all the trouble!! I HATE YOU, BEN!!!
Reached XL's place at 7.20pm
Hahaha. I really enjoyed myself and I was so crappy till all of them want me to go outside to eat leh. =( So sad. Hahaha. Then I super hyper active when I see Zhang po-po. Damn funny. Everyone want to kill me for "disturbing" Zhang po-po. I didnt hor, k? I always feel damn excited when I see old people.
Ben and I discovered something abt XL.
I love her truck lot.
Fiona's emo hairstyle!!! SUIT HER!!
What a CHALET!! I didnt sleep the whole night. We are nosiest of the nosiest siol. We blasted the music like nobody business. We drank like crazy but I didnt drink alot cos not in the mood to drink. The guys are damn annoying sia. They kept blasting the nation anthem song damn loud just to give everyone a morning call. CRAZY LAH!! Luckily Im not in bed, if not..... ALL WILL GET IT FROM ME!!
17 Jan 2009
Alistair Koh, Ben, Fiona, Kirk, Brandon, Regina, Angeline, Dorothy and I went for breakfast. After breakfast, 4 of us- Ben, Fiona, Dorothy and I went back home to rest. Damn tiring. I got back home at 2pm plus. Woke up at 3.50pm to meet Fiona and Ben for last min shopping for XL's bday present. We walked like crazy. Hahaha. We brought XL- 2 ladies boxers and VANS shoes. Hahaha. We got all the sizes wrong!! BEN LAH!!! Boxers still can fit lah. Then the VANS shoes, I sweared I feel like killing Ben.
Our Coversation
Me: Hey. How uh? What size?
Ben: 6.
Me: How you know?
Ben: Want to bet anot? Confirmed.
Me: Size 6? Her feet so big meh?
Size 6 shoes arrived...
Me: WOAH!! So big loh. I think one size smaller lah.
Ben: Eh....
Fiona: If not, we get 5.5 loh.
Ben: Ok.
Me: Hmm. Ok then.
See lah!! One size smaller is better, right? Save all the trouble!! I HATE YOU, BEN!!!
Reached XL's place at 7.20pm
Hahaha. She damn hyper!! We had steamboat!! I love the quality time that we spent together. XL, Melon, Ben, Fiona, Xiaoqi (XL's elder sis), XQ's bf, Yuru, Meow (Yuru's bf but later part then he come in), Zhang po-po (XL's grandma) and I were all at the table. NICE HWEEELING~!!
Hahaha. I really enjoyed myself and I was so crappy till all of them want me to go outside to eat leh. =( So sad. Hahaha. Then I super hyper active when I see Zhang po-po. Damn funny. Everyone want to kill me for "disturbing" Zhang po-po. I didnt hor, k? I always feel damn excited when I see old people.
Ben and I discovered something abt XL.
XL looked damn hot with her cap on!! WOAH!! SEXY!!
I love her hair siol..
I love her truck lot.
A birthday kiss for her. =)
Fiona's emo hairstyle!!! SUIT HER!!
Thursday, January 15, 2009
12 Jan 2009
YES!! I went back to school in the early morning to have meeting with the teachers to help out at Orientation (13th and 14th Jan) for the new students. Tons of things to do....
At 2pm- I got back my O level results! I FAILED!! Trust me! I didnt lie!! Everyone dont believe me when I told them abt my result but is ok and I guess everyone believe me right now. Am I sad? Disappointed? Angry? Fed up? And blah blah.. Answer is NOPE!! I guess in a way, I expected it. I dont know. I dont know how to explain why am I not feeling what normally people will feel.
I guess it was my dreams and my plans that had made me feel secured. Im not living for academic in my life. Im always abt my dreams; I know what I want, I can see myself doing what I want, I can excel in what I want. To me- Just as long my dreams lives, my heart and mind will be always pursuing it.
What are my plans?
I will be working a full time job for 1- 2yrs time. Within these 2 yrs, I will build up my dreams- Bartending and pick up how to draw professionally. I will be doing arts from scratch. Im good at photoshop (not perfect) and I love to sit my seat for hours and hours just to edit things with photoshop. I love to design poster, especially advertising kind. Why? Cos Im always attracted to cool posters on the street, I will be having a good look at it and that make me want to do it too and even better than what have captured my eyes. Then why do I have to pick drawing? Because I cant be possibly hang myself onto photoshop plainly and wanting to be a good designer; I have to learn how to draw perfectly. So no matter how much I dont like abt drawings at times cos I sucks at it, I will do it cos I dont want to destroy my dreams in my hands.
Im so "stressed up" cos I havent got myself a school to attend yet cos the schools I found, dont seem to be appealing to me. Sigh.... And there is one school that I found was good but they are starting this 17 Jan 2009 and I cant make it. =(
13 Jan 2009
I went back to school to run Orientation. I LOVE IT TO THE CORE!!
I was chosen to be student leader for Group 2 and I have 8 members. When I first met them and gather them together was like........ HELL!!! Hahaha. They are like the most unfriendliness, grumpy and looked like they dont bother abt anything in life and guess what?! I WAS WRONG ABT THEM!! They ended up the coolest group, I ever had in my life!! I cant believe that they were so fabulous, active, talkative, sporty, loveable, and take-caring group. WOAH! I enjoyed myself to the core!
We earned tons of EC money (aka CHEC money. Example like monopoly kinda notes) thru games. We were the first team to arrive and we earned tons of money thru games. The games was so fun!! We were so high loh!! At the end of day, we need to use the EC money to buy some materials (like clothings and accessories) for our project runway (last challenge for the next day). At first, we bought 2 clothings and we were like, "OH NO!!! HOW?!" No choice and we just lived with it but then teachers was wanting to clear all the materials and they came up with auctions!! We left tons of money and we bought almost everything!!! Hahaha. I wished I could video everything down to show you guys. It's really funny!!
After all the auctions, we were dismissed. Only all the students leaders remained and helped to clear up everything. =)
Cleared up everything already, all students were slacking in the staff room. I volunteered to buy dinner for some teachers etc.. Hahaha. When I was on my trip going down to the ground floor, I saw my Principal, Mr Kenny Low. He said he wanted to talked me and I guess he know my results was bad and he asked me abt my plans etc and just basically trying to get to know me well. I told him that I have to head to market first to buy foods for teachers then he was like,"I will accompany you." WOAH!! Nice, right? Lol. I told him that I want to be a designer in the future and my plans etc now is to be going to learning how draw well and guess what? He offered me to study arts(new subject) in CHEC and it's going to be FOC!! Can you believe it? It not abt the getting free stuffs but I just cant believe it because the "doors" out there were all closed but it just so sudden that this "door" just open for me. I didnt give any answer to my Principal immediately cos in a way, I already planned everything so perfectly and I dont want to keep changing it and at same time, my Principal is giving time to think abt it.
I boughts tons of different foods for different teachers and when I was done with buying foods. We continued our conversations again and he told tons of things abt me that he had observed when I was buying the foods. I was so amazed and I just received tons of praises etc and he offered me another thing and which is he wants to train me up as a somewhat ---- ----- -------- when he have events for me to do, he will throw me in. Im not telling what's that. =P I will leave it blank for now.
After that, only left Pelyn, Asmine, Nat and I in the staff room and we head off to tiong bahru plaza for dinner and go home. What a longgggg day. TIRED!!
14 Jan 2009
Headed down to school very early to set things up for our last challenge. CHEC PROJECT RUNWAY!! Hahha. My group came and we were told to design our clothings in 30mins and Im so proud of my group, they all took part of it. Everyone was thinking and helping. We had fun!!!
Our 2 models run the runway and when tally up the score altogether and....... WE WON OVERALL CHALLENGE!!! We got $80 voucher to Swensen. SO HAPPY!!
We had our lunch at 12:30pm. After lunch, I went to look for Mr Kenny and told him that I will be interested to take up the arts lesson and he said ok and he been observing me the whole day again and told me that I have great leadership and he want to hire me as his........ Ok. Im not sharing again. I just dont want the whole world to know abt it yet. WOAH! Im willing to quit my jobs immediately when he confirm with me again!! Im so happy!! =)
After I left school, I went out with Alistair and spend time with him. We went to tons of places within city areas of cos. We had dinner at TCC and we hate calculating our bills. It was damn chaotic lah, we were stucked there for 30mins!!! NONSENSE!
15 Jan 2009
Suppose to got to Alis's place in the morning but I didnt. Cos I got to be a good mummy's girl for one day. I will be going to his place and then after that head to Kirk's bday chalet party.
YES!! I went back to school in the early morning to have meeting with the teachers to help out at Orientation (13th and 14th Jan) for the new students. Tons of things to do....
At 2pm- I got back my O level results! I FAILED!! Trust me! I didnt lie!! Everyone dont believe me when I told them abt my result but is ok and I guess everyone believe me right now. Am I sad? Disappointed? Angry? Fed up? And blah blah.. Answer is NOPE!! I guess in a way, I expected it. I dont know. I dont know how to explain why am I not feeling what normally people will feel.
I guess it was my dreams and my plans that had made me feel secured. Im not living for academic in my life. Im always abt my dreams; I know what I want, I can see myself doing what I want, I can excel in what I want. To me- Just as long my dreams lives, my heart and mind will be always pursuing it.
What are my plans?
I will be working a full time job for 1- 2yrs time. Within these 2 yrs, I will build up my dreams- Bartending and pick up how to draw professionally. I will be doing arts from scratch. Im good at photoshop (not perfect) and I love to sit my seat for hours and hours just to edit things with photoshop. I love to design poster, especially advertising kind. Why? Cos Im always attracted to cool posters on the street, I will be having a good look at it and that make me want to do it too and even better than what have captured my eyes. Then why do I have to pick drawing? Because I cant be possibly hang myself onto photoshop plainly and wanting to be a good designer; I have to learn how to draw perfectly. So no matter how much I dont like abt drawings at times cos I sucks at it, I will do it cos I dont want to destroy my dreams in my hands.
Im so "stressed up" cos I havent got myself a school to attend yet cos the schools I found, dont seem to be appealing to me. Sigh.... And there is one school that I found was good but they are starting this 17 Jan 2009 and I cant make it. =(
13 Jan 2009
I went back to school to run Orientation. I LOVE IT TO THE CORE!!
I was chosen to be student leader for Group 2 and I have 8 members. When I first met them and gather them together was like........ HELL!!! Hahaha. They are like the most unfriendliness, grumpy and looked like they dont bother abt anything in life and guess what?! I WAS WRONG ABT THEM!! They ended up the coolest group, I ever had in my life!! I cant believe that they were so fabulous, active, talkative, sporty, loveable, and take-caring group. WOAH! I enjoyed myself to the core!
We earned tons of EC money (aka CHEC money. Example like monopoly kinda notes) thru games. We were the first team to arrive and we earned tons of money thru games. The games was so fun!! We were so high loh!! At the end of day, we need to use the EC money to buy some materials (like clothings and accessories) for our project runway (last challenge for the next day). At first, we bought 2 clothings and we were like, "OH NO!!! HOW?!" No choice and we just lived with it but then teachers was wanting to clear all the materials and they came up with auctions!! We left tons of money and we bought almost everything!!! Hahaha. I wished I could video everything down to show you guys. It's really funny!!
After all the auctions, we were dismissed. Only all the students leaders remained and helped to clear up everything. =)
Cleared up everything already, all students were slacking in the staff room. I volunteered to buy dinner for some teachers etc.. Hahaha. When I was on my trip going down to the ground floor, I saw my Principal, Mr Kenny Low. He said he wanted to talked me and I guess he know my results was bad and he asked me abt my plans etc and just basically trying to get to know me well. I told him that I have to head to market first to buy foods for teachers then he was like,"I will accompany you." WOAH!! Nice, right? Lol. I told him that I want to be a designer in the future and my plans etc now is to be going to learning how draw well and guess what? He offered me to study arts(new subject) in CHEC and it's going to be FOC!! Can you believe it? It not abt the getting free stuffs but I just cant believe it because the "doors" out there were all closed but it just so sudden that this "door" just open for me. I didnt give any answer to my Principal immediately cos in a way, I already planned everything so perfectly and I dont want to keep changing it and at same time, my Principal is giving time to think abt it.
I boughts tons of different foods for different teachers and when I was done with buying foods. We continued our conversations again and he told tons of things abt me that he had observed when I was buying the foods. I was so amazed and I just received tons of praises etc and he offered me another thing and which is he wants to train me up as a somewhat ---- ----- -------- when he have events for me to do, he will throw me in. Im not telling what's that. =P I will leave it blank for now.
After that, only left Pelyn, Asmine, Nat and I in the staff room and we head off to tiong bahru plaza for dinner and go home. What a longgggg day. TIRED!!
14 Jan 2009
Headed down to school very early to set things up for our last challenge. CHEC PROJECT RUNWAY!! Hahha. My group came and we were told to design our clothings in 30mins and Im so proud of my group, they all took part of it. Everyone was thinking and helping. We had fun!!!
Our 2 models run the runway and when tally up the score altogether and....... WE WON OVERALL CHALLENGE!!! We got $80 voucher to Swensen. SO HAPPY!!
We had our lunch at 12:30pm. After lunch, I went to look for Mr Kenny and told him that I will be interested to take up the arts lesson and he said ok and he been observing me the whole day again and told me that I have great leadership and he want to hire me as his........ Ok. Im not sharing again. I just dont want the whole world to know abt it yet. WOAH! Im willing to quit my jobs immediately when he confirm with me again!! Im so happy!! =)
After I left school, I went out with Alistair and spend time with him. We went to tons of places within city areas of cos. We had dinner at TCC and we hate calculating our bills. It was damn chaotic lah, we were stucked there for 30mins!!! NONSENSE!
15 Jan 2009
Suppose to got to Alis's place in the morning but I didnt. Cos I got to be a good mummy's girl for one day. I will be going to his place and then after that head to Kirk's bday chalet party.
Monday, January 12, 2009
09 Jan 2009
I bought a Volcom bottle opener and Boxers for Su, Re and myself (No pics for our boxers)!!
Su's CAT!! She dozed off at my thigh. Cute.
I guess she's a heavy sleeper. She kept turning and tossing around.
I went back home and took power nap and wake up at 11pm and watch prison break till 5am!!! WOAH!! BEST SHOW ON EARTH!!!
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Side track!!
A "last last" day at Subway. I thought my new subway buddy to make the bread. Cheers.
10 Jan 2009
I had a wonderful day. I havent been spending much time with my connect group mates. Saturday's service was cancelled and I have 9 days off till next week.
I bought a Volcom bottle opener and Boxers for Su, Re and myself (No pics for our boxers)!!
Su's CAT!! She dozed off at my thigh. Cute.
I guess she's a heavy sleeper. She kept turning and tossing around.
This is the part which I loved it the most. She's damn cute lah. I think she dreamt of something that suddenly just woke up and nibble my finger and fell back to sleep. I love kitten but when they grow up, they are no longer fun cos they dont play with you anymore. =(
Su's brother's shrimps tank!!! WOAH!!! Amazing!!!
After I left Su's place, I met with Mei Hui and we went clubbing. BORED sia!! I just went there to drink only.
11 Jan 2009
SLEEP!!!!!! WAKE UP AND SLEEP AGAIN!!!!!!! WAKE UP AT 3PM AND WENT SHOPPING WITH MY BROTHER!! We went to buy shoes!! He bought PUMA and I got myself NIKE AIRFORCE!! And now I got the same pair of shoes that Sherry ("jiejie") have. HAPPY! =) I got it at the price of 79 bucks!! CHEAP DEAL!!!
I went back home and took power nap and wake up at 11pm and watch prison break till 5am!!! WOAH!! BEST SHOW ON EARTH!!!
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Side track!!
This is probably the longest hair you can find in Singapore now. WOAH!! Like mother, like daughter.
Wednesday, January 07, 2009
I just cant forget the feeling of hugging you last saturday, on the 3 Jan 2009. It was the longest time since we last hugged. It seem like we always hugged tons of people but except when we come to each other face to face, we just paused there most of our time and dont know how to react.
That day, I just felt different for that moment and I literally dont feel like letting you go. We both were hugging so tight and you said this to me, "Are you back for good? Dont let go, k?" Oh my gosh. It was so.... heartrending for me to hear that, I just felt that I really let you down all these times. I really love you very much and sometime I just felt that I could die for you; the feeling is like I dont mind sacrificing for you if someone wants your life. I dont know how to put my words in sentences abt how much I love you. No one can feel how I feel like how much you can feel for me. You just simply get what I mean when I, myself dont even know how to express my feelings in words. Yea. I know I been a disappointment for a thousand times and you're the one who I always know that you never give up a single hope on me. You always have this strong hope in your heart that I will change. I know Im taking very long to make a move in my spiritual life, I really dont know what I want my spiritual life to be. I love Him but I just screwed it all up. Im just ultimately upset with the things that I blamed Him for; I cursed and sweared at Him (and that little f***er from below (f*** him!!)).
I just dont know what is wrong with me for now. Anyone who is reading this right now- Pls dont even ask me why and what's wrong cos I might feel very annoyed.
Over all, I just want to let you know that I really love you. I really do. No matter what I will become in future, I cant never lose this love that I have for you. I never lose these 5 years of love that I have been helding onto. I love you, Pastor CJ. =)
That day, I just felt different for that moment and I literally dont feel like letting you go. We both were hugging so tight and you said this to me, "Are you back for good? Dont let go, k?" Oh my gosh. It was so.... heartrending for me to hear that, I just felt that I really let you down all these times. I really love you very much and sometime I just felt that I could die for you; the feeling is like I dont mind sacrificing for you if someone wants your life. I dont know how to put my words in sentences abt how much I love you. No one can feel how I feel like how much you can feel for me. You just simply get what I mean when I, myself dont even know how to express my feelings in words. Yea. I know I been a disappointment for a thousand times and you're the one who I always know that you never give up a single hope on me. You always have this strong hope in your heart that I will change. I know Im taking very long to make a move in my spiritual life, I really dont know what I want my spiritual life to be. I love Him but I just screwed it all up. Im just ultimately upset with the things that I blamed Him for; I cursed and sweared at Him (and that little f***er from below (f*** him!!)).
I just dont know what is wrong with me for now. Anyone who is reading this right now- Pls dont even ask me why and what's wrong cos I might feel very annoyed.
Over all, I just want to let you know that I really love you. I really do. No matter what I will become in future, I cant never lose this love that I have for you. I never lose these 5 years of love that I have been helding onto. I love you, Pastor CJ. =)
TONS OF THINGS TO BLAH BLAH!!
So we ended up going to Shodoku (did I spelled it wrongly?) I paid for her food at Shodoku and she paid for ice-cream and coffee. YEAH!! We just spent an awesome time together. Im so happy and Im loving her. =)
I took these pics while waiting for Celeste. I just dont know how to express these two photos in words but I just felt for their love. =) COOOOOOLLL!!!
PHOTOS
2 Jan 2009
So I left her place at 12.30pm and I walked home. I went to bath and K.O. in my bed.
I woke up at 10.45am to make another surprise trip to surprise her cos she...... Aiya. Very complicated for this celebration. Ok. Let me start with...
-> I didnt have the plan to surprise her at her doorstep cos this one was suppose to be next year. What the.... I know I know. You guys want to ask me why I think so far, right?! My mind and my plans!!! =P My plan was to meet her up after her work and we go for dinner at "somewhere" and surprise her with....... (I will go with this plan next year.)
She called me at 10:15pm to tell me (that why I went out at 10:30pm from my place, I was like.... Jogging all the way to take bus 238 at Lorong 8 and when I got down the bus, I continued jogging too. So worried that the cake shop will be CLOSED.) that her best friend wants to celebrate with her too. Then I was..... "OK!! You go on and celebrate with your best friend." She felt very bad. Cos I was the one who booked her first and me being very nice.... was to let her best fren to celebrate with her. I wasnt jealous or angry lah but I really want them to spend time with each other too. Then she asked me whether want to move it to lunch instead of dinner then I said, "I DONT WANT LAH cos I GOT WORK TMR LAH TILL 1PM!" I basically pretended that I got work and to be angry abt it and she kept apologizing to me. Hahaha.
But in my heart, I was like.... I will surprise you at your office tmr and so that we can have lunch!!!
THE "NEXT" DAY
Covered her eyesight and with the manly voice of mine that I come out with... "Guess who am I?"
Miss Yvonne: Aiyo. Who is this person? I dont want to guess.
So she accompanied me to the school nearby market to have lunch. Ya. I had chicken chop and she had a hot milo cos she needed to as she's having a bad gastric. =( SIAN!! After that, we had a deal to meet up for lunch the next day at 1pm.
I left school to meet up with Alistair at Clarke Quay cos he needed to take some photos for his dad's company. Im so proud to have a fren like him. Hahaha. Then The-Re was kinda happened to join us too. Hahaha. No la. Cos we wanted to go for a job interview at Clarke Quay, so we met up together. She met Alis and Alis met her. So happy that my both good frens met up with each other. So we got to know each other's interests and it's kinda fitted with one another's. =) Cool siol!! When the twilight lights began, The-Re have to leave cos she need to meet up with a fren of her and we kinda promised to meet her after we're done with our photography. After Alis was done with his photography. We met up at TCC with The-Re's fren, Cassandra. Hahaha. We chatted like crazy and Re and I did totally some crappy and crazy stuffs that I think we kinda "shocked" Alis.
After our coffee session at TCC, Alis and I left to have our dinner at BAH KU TEH!! Wheee!! NICE!!! Dinner's done, we moved on to do photography again.
HEAD HOME!!
3 Jan 2009
Woke up for work at Subway till 1pm.
Met up with Miss Yvonne for lunch. YUMMY FOOD!!
I went back home and get changed and went down to church at 4pm for service and spent some good time with churchmates. =)
I hugged MANY PEOPLE AGAIN!!! hahaha. LOVES HUGGIES!!
4 Jan 2009
After work, I headed back home to bathe and getting prepared to meet my dearest godma for dinner. Im just so happy that I finally can see her again. I had a great time with her. It was really good. I just love it and I gave her a hug and wanting to kiss her cheek but she turned her head so fast and she gave me a kiss on my lips!! OH MY TIAN~~!!! SHOCKED LAH!! Cos I havent kiss her for many many many years.
5 Jan 2009
Woke up for work at Subway!!!!!!!!!! My "LAST DAY" of work at Subway, took a last photo of myself in Subway Uniform. Actually mine suppose to be small apron but then my lady boss happened to "passed" her apron to me for me to use for a few days. SO FORTUNATE!! Happy!!
I was so happy today till tons of things happened today till I........... G.N.T.S. I just have to say this: "A few of you guys especially YOU... Just watched out. Seriously. Dont let me snap cos I wont be giving you guys face. I may be smiley and cheerful all these times cos I want to be and if you guys really want to test my patience, I could only tell you that it will be the end of everything. I respected you guys cos I want to and I see you guys as my seniors but you guys have been treating me like a clown and dog for you guys to "vex" anger on; I know you guys are like that, that is why, I been letting things passed me by and tolerate all these nonsense that you guys gave me. Im just simply trying to accumulate everything, so that when I snap, I want the whole world to know what kinda shit that you guys been implanting all these times in others especially those who left the place."
CRAPPY PEOPLE ON EARTH. At times, I wished I could destroy them.
7 Jan 2009
We had abt 2hrs of chat and we left. And thanks for the mini argument, Sweetie. =/ So I see them off at Melon's car's parking lot and I had a "light" hug with Melon and had a "heavy" hug with Xiaoli!! Hahaha. KOLA BEAR HUGGIES AGAIN and kiss me on my lips. Sweet. But I sweared it's the best hug I could ever have in my life. Hahaha. When she was hang on me, she behaved like a baby for that moment and used some baby language and made me put her down in Melon's car seat. Hahaha. *FAINT* Loving her.
Last word to add....
30 Dec 2008
As usual, I worked at 7am in the morning at subway and finished work at 1pm.
I met up with my financial consultant for some stuffs. I headed down to church to slack for awhile and headed home to bathe and...... Head down to my pub cafe to work till 11pm.
31 Dec 2008 & 1 Jan 2009
I didnt have to work at subway and planned to go out with lovely cousin, Celeste!! Our Initial plan was to take all the mrt rides and it's gonna take more than 5hrs plus. Hahaha. SIAO, RIGHT?! Cos my ez link card is expirying the day itself mah. Hahah. But while waiting for Celeste at tpy interchange, I decided to change my mind abt the rides. Cos to think abt it, I actually done that before. HAHAHAH!!! Silly me!! I did it all alone before. It was a COOOLLLL experience!!!
So we ended up going to Shodoku (did I spelled it wrongly?) I paid for her food at Shodoku and she paid for ice-cream and coffee. YEAH!! We just spent an awesome time together. Im so happy and Im loving her. =)
I took these pics while waiting for Celeste. I just dont know how to express these two photos in words but I just felt for their love. =) COOOOOOLLL!!!
After that, we went separated ways. She went to meet up with her frens and I have to set off to work. Ben being the best of the best wanted me to join him and his frens to count down and guess what he did? He got his group of his batch from PHS planned to go to my pub to have count down and so that I wont travel so much after my work. Hahaha. We bloody enjoyed ourselves to the fullest!! Lol.
There were abt 20 people there. Yes. I know most of them and catch up with some of them. They went ahead to drink first cos I dont want them to wait for me. Hahaha. Before I even end my work, most of them went tipsy already!! Lol. So I finished work at 12am!! ARGH!! Cos that day was really busy till I..... G.N.T.S. Lol. Im really angry with some recently things with my colleages but it's over and Im ok!! Im cool with it right now.
Hee. Sonia damn cute lah. When once New Year hits!! She went around hugging strangers like bangladesh people etc.. Hahah. SUPER FUNNY!! I hugged her and spin her around then she was like, "WOAHHhhhhHHHHHHHHhhhh!!! You can carry me!! No one did that to me before!!" Lol. FAINTED!! I hugged tons of people. So happy. It was a fun day ever!! And Sonia's twin sister, Stephanie, was my "girlfriend" for 1hr!! Lol. Cos this ang moh was drunk and asked her for something or what lah.. I cant really remember what was it. Then she was like er... And I went in and said, "She's a lesbian and Im her girlfriend. *hugs*" Lol. We acted super unnatural lah but who cares!! He was drunk and he couldnt tell anyway. Lol.
PHOTOS
We ended our party at 4am and almost everyone left. Only Ben, Stella, RQ, Lucas, Kirk and I remained at our position till first train starts. Hahaha. We chatted like mad!! We went on to 7-11 to get drinks and some warm food to warm ourselves and we all went for our train-ing. =) I got back home at 7am plus plus. Super duper tired!!
I think I slept like 8hrs straight and I have no idea of what I did for that day. I only know I got no work at all.
I went out at 10:30pm to plan to get a cake. It was DAMN LATE but luckily I managed to get one from Breadtalk and BK; Mango cake and Sundae Pie. Why?! You will know this in a while time.
I went out at 10:30pm to plan to get a cake. It was DAMN LATE but luckily I managed to get one from Breadtalk and BK; Mango cake and Sundae Pie. Why?! You will know this in a while time.
2 Jan 2009
12AM MIDNIGHT!!! I surprised Miss Yvonne (my Mentor from CHEC) at her doorstep with these 2 cakes and wished her "HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!". Hahaha. And I played with her doggie, Rocky!! Hahaha. So cute. She was happy and couldnt believe that Im appeared at her doorstep. She said, "1st time got this kind of real surprise! Thought I was imaging things." Hahha. She left me a msg saying that, "You are God sent angel to me, you know? Keep smiling always." I kept asking her why then she dont want to tell me till when we go to heaven leh!!! WOAH!! CAN DIE LAH!! Make me xin yang yang lah. ARGHH!!! F.I.N.E.!!
So I left her place at 12.30pm and I walked home. I went to bath and K.O. in my bed.
I woke up at 10.45am to make another surprise trip to surprise her cos she...... Aiya. Very complicated for this celebration. Ok. Let me start with...
-> I didnt have the plan to surprise her at her doorstep cos this one was suppose to be next year. What the.... I know I know. You guys want to ask me why I think so far, right?! My mind and my plans!!! =P My plan was to meet her up after her work and we go for dinner at "somewhere" and surprise her with....... (I will go with this plan next year.)
She called me at 10:15pm to tell me (that why I went out at 10:30pm from my place, I was like.... Jogging all the way to take bus 238 at Lorong 8 and when I got down the bus, I continued jogging too. So worried that the cake shop will be CLOSED.) that her best friend wants to celebrate with her too. Then I was..... "OK!! You go on and celebrate with your best friend." She felt very bad. Cos I was the one who booked her first and me being very nice.... was to let her best fren to celebrate with her. I wasnt jealous or angry lah but I really want them to spend time with each other too. Then she asked me whether want to move it to lunch instead of dinner then I said, "I DONT WANT LAH cos I GOT WORK TMR LAH TILL 1PM!" I basically pretended that I got work and to be angry abt it and she kept apologizing to me. Hahaha.
But in my heart, I was like.... I will surprise you at your office tmr and so that we can have lunch!!!
THE "NEXT" DAY
Covered her eyesight and with the manly voice of mine that I come out with... "Guess who am I?"
Miss Yvonne: Aiyo. Who is this person? I dont want to guess.
Me: I want you to guess.
Miss Yvonne: Dont want lah. Who is this person so bo liao?!
Me: Woah!! Im the one who is so bo liao till I went to your place last night.
Miss Yvonne: Who is that?!
Me: WAH LAU!!! BIG HINT ALREADY LOH!!
For that moment, I felt like skinning her alive lah!!! DOTS!! But yeah...
Miss Yvonne: Why are you here?
Me: Cos I want to have lunch with you and at the same time give you a mini surprise.
Miss Yvonne: Oh. Girl, very sorry leh. Im actually on fasting today.
Me: OH MY TIAN!! Ok. Now then you tell me lah. How now how?
So she accompanied me to the school nearby market to have lunch. Ya. I had chicken chop and she had a hot milo cos she needed to as she's having a bad gastric. =( SIAN!! After that, we had a deal to meet up for lunch the next day at 1pm.
I left school to meet up with Alistair at Clarke Quay cos he needed to take some photos for his dad's company. Im so proud to have a fren like him. Hahaha. Then The-Re was kinda happened to join us too. Hahaha. No la. Cos we wanted to go for a job interview at Clarke Quay, so we met up together. She met Alis and Alis met her. So happy that my both good frens met up with each other. So we got to know each other's interests and it's kinda fitted with one another's. =) Cool siol!! When the twilight lights began, The-Re have to leave cos she need to meet up with a fren of her and we kinda promised to meet her after we're done with our photography. After Alis was done with his photography. We met up at TCC with The-Re's fren, Cassandra. Hahaha. We chatted like crazy and Re and I did totally some crappy and crazy stuffs that I think we kinda "shocked" Alis.
After our coffee session at TCC, Alis and I left to have our dinner at BAH KU TEH!! Wheee!! NICE!!! Dinner's done, we moved on to do photography again.
HEAD HOME!!
3 Jan 2009
Dropped a msg to my godma at 12am and wished her happy birthday. =)
Woke up for work at Subway till 1pm.
Met up with Miss Yvonne for lunch. YUMMY FOOD!!
I went back home and get changed and went down to church at 4pm for service and spent some good time with churchmates. =)
I hugged MANY PEOPLE AGAIN!!! hahaha. LOVES HUGGIES!!
4 Jan 2009
Woke up for work at Subway till 3pm. I supposed to finish work at 1pm but my damn colleagues to come. He supposed to start work at 1pm then he last min called my manager that he wants to start work at 3pm. Where got such thing?! DULAN LAH!! Then my manager said, "Cannot!! Latest 2pm!!" Then he simply dont bother and he came at 3pm but this time round on the dot. I had enough of him lah!! Whatever time he is schduled at, he will be at least 15mins late. Latest 1hr!!!
Why dont want to get rid of him?! Just simply because we are short handed lah!! DAMN IT!!! He is so lucky that I can covered his shift lah cos usually I need to rush down to another job.
Why dont want to get rid of him?! Just simply because we are short handed lah!! DAMN IT!!! He is so lucky that I can covered his shift lah cos usually I need to rush down to another job.
After work, I headed back home to bathe and getting prepared to meet my dearest godma for dinner. Im just so happy that I finally can see her again. I had a great time with her. It was really good. I just love it and I gave her a hug and wanting to kiss her cheek but she turned her head so fast and she gave me a kiss on my lips!! OH MY TIAN~~!!! SHOCKED LAH!! Cos I havent kiss her for many many many years.
5 Jan 2009
Woke up for work at Subway!!!!!!!!!! My "LAST DAY" of work at Subway, took a last photo of myself in Subway Uniform. Actually mine suppose to be small apron but then my lady boss happened to "passed" her apron to me for me to use for a few days. SO FORTUNATE!! Happy!!
So I headed off to work and knocked off at 1pm. I met up with Ben at 1pm at Subway. Random thing to share: I was serving Daniel Ong and Jamie Teo!! They came to buy subway. HUNK AND BABE SIOL!! Hahha. Ok. Back to Ben, we went to get some stuffs and head to my place to allow me to bathe and get changed. We went to Bras Basah and PS get some stuffs and ran off to bishan to meet Fiona and have dinner. We crapped like ah-siaos!! Hahha. LOVES!
6 Jan 2009
Woke up at 10:30am to get prepared for my pub job. Rested for 5 days!! ENOUGH!! Lol. I was scheduled at 12pm - 7pm but I got extented till 11pm. Lol. Worked for 10 hours. =)
I was so happy today till tons of things happened today till I........... G.N.T.S. I just have to say this: "A few of you guys especially YOU... Just watched out. Seriously. Dont let me snap cos I wont be giving you guys face. I may be smiley and cheerful all these times cos I want to be and if you guys really want to test my patience, I could only tell you that it will be the end of everything. I respected you guys cos I want to and I see you guys as my seniors but you guys have been treating me like a clown and dog for you guys to "vex" anger on; I know you guys are like that, that is why, I been letting things passed me by and tolerate all these nonsense that you guys gave me. Im just simply trying to accumulate everything, so that when I snap, I want the whole world to know what kinda shit that you guys been implanting all these times in others especially those who left the place."
CRAPPY PEOPLE ON EARTH. At times, I wished I could destroy them.
7 Jan 2009
=) Met up with my dearest Xiaoli and Melon just now at 1:45am to have supper. Yep. At my house downstair..... THE PRATA SHOP!! Hahah We had PURI again!!! Hahaha. I missed Xiaoli to the core lah!!! We were kinda playing catching lah. I mean catching up with each other's life. -.- Hahaha.
We had abt 2hrs of chat and we left. And thanks for the mini argument, Sweetie. =/ So I see them off at Melon's car's parking lot and I had a "light" hug with Melon and had a "heavy" hug with Xiaoli!! Hahaha. KOLA BEAR HUGGIES AGAIN and kiss me on my lips. Sweet. But I sweared it's the best hug I could ever have in my life. Hahaha. When she was hang on me, she behaved like a baby for that moment and used some baby language and made me put her down in Melon's car seat. Hahaha. *FAINT* Loving her.
Last word to add....
Miss Yvonne: Do you know what is my this year's birthday wish?
Me: No. I want to know.
Miss Yvonne: Is to see you in dress,
Me: Oh my gosh!! BYE!! *walk faster than ever before*
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