...My Happy Family's Portrait... (by me)

Yummy. this is good..

Look!!! Who I caught while she's eating?? Munching all the way..








My only picture with my cousin, Celeste. Lol. Rock on!!!








Haha. And now I caught my little cousin, Nigel.. Haha. Actually he posed for me loh. Haha. Got another pic more funny sia. He's like under stress that kind. He can be model liao.






*ScReAaaMMmm* My Cousin, Godbrother and Childhood "friend". 3-in-1 sia. lolx. Norman rocks!!!








Aha. My brother!!! He's so corny la. Dont play play heh.. Of coz la, he got quite a lame sister at home loh. I mean I can walk hor. Haha. No la. I dont want to self-praise arh.. shy sia. lol. But he really got alot of strength la.

My horse. I drew it yesterday. Haha. 

Yu Sen (Vegetarian)

It "Lau Yu Sen" time!!!
My favourite time of the year.






"Lau arh"..!!!









The higher you lau, the more you will prosper!!!

I missed church service today. Sigh. Juz because of my family Reunion Dinner. How would I wish that forever I will never miss church service in my life. I want to get back to my ministry etc.. I love what God wants me to do.But I dont know why I feel so emo now.I just got the sour sour feeling. Feeling that I want to accomplish something for God but dont know when will it happen. Not I dont have faith in God, just feel that I dont faith in others. I dont want to drag it any longer, Im no longer young. And I want to do it as a team and not alone. At times, I feel so tired, just running with God but what I really want to see is unity and all of my cellmates and I are running together with God. I dont want to run with my own strength anymore, it so tiring. And Im not following my church vision and that needed me to change and God, help me with that.

Haha. Chinese New Year are coming. Oh man.. I dont know why I dont feel excited about it especially this year. Weird heh?? Hey. Dont ever think of letting me giving you my Angbaos seen that Im not excitied about it. Or maybe I think too much?? lolx. Aiya. I think it suppose to be happy and excited about collecting Angbaos and get to SEE all my cousins which some of them, I juz get to see them once a year. Haha.. I juz cant wait to see them, juz wondering how much have they changed. Heehee.. Like their look, dressing, and hairstyle!!!! Haha.. My hairstyle is forever cool and dao... Oh ya. Do you all really think I go rebond my hair before?? Coz everyone is saying that. Haha. But is natural, I also dont wish to rebond my hair. Firstly, it will spoil my hair roots. And where's your hair begin. Lol. corny. Secondly, my hair so short to do rebonding. And thirdly, waste money. Lol. Oops =X!! So is natural and forever it will be. ha. Self-praising now sia. I love my fringe, my back hair, my both side hair and basically my whole head!!! Though now it getting out of shape. lolx. I havent cut my hair for coming 2 months. Woohoo. ehh. I havent broke my own record yet. My record is 2 months never cut my hair but this time round I want to wait till the mid next month. Then I will break my own record. lol. Im very dumb, right??! Like that also want to count. Bo liao what.. Lol. Every secs, mins, hours, days, months and years, I want to record it. Woohoo. So fun sia!!


Ok. Now I got some words with my cellmates.

To: My dearest cellmates,

Dearest Mad Muscular Wonder Woman (Weiling),
Thks for encouraging me just now. Haha. Im so happy right now compare to my mood today. Hee. Really. Thks alot for that. I really appreciate it. =) Hee. Let us be united and let us work it out!!!! Whee!! And you're doing great and I see that you're growing alot. Ha. And now Im so jealous of you. =X No la. Juz kidding.

Dearest Yi Yuan,
Is good that we are getting along with each other better now especially this year compared to last year. And let work out the love for each other, yea?? Good on you, pal! Just keep going on and be on the right track with God, yea?! Haha. Rock on!

Dearest Aik,
Of cuz, both of us got to work out tons and tons of things. And Im trying to show you love(dont know whether you notice it anot) but yet at times you.... Ok. I dont want to say it here. But you see something?? I just want to get better relationship with my cellmates especially the 3 of you. And most important now is unity. And I dont know whether do I ever tell you stuffs and then I hurt you anot. But probably you might not know sometime you do hurt me that kind of stuffs. And Im not blaming you. Just that we need to work out this area. So why not, try to stop each other whenever hurting words are coming out from our mouths. Kk? Juz tell me, and Im fine with that and I will take extra note about that.

So guyz, let us be united and always loving each other. And let us bring revival soon into our school, PHS! Woohoo!!!

4litres of red wine. and it cost $100 plus. woohoo. so expensive sia. My dad brought back some wine for me and my brother today. Haha. Quite nice la.

And there I go, drinking it now.

Wah... Oh man.. I missed all those funny funny names that Alistair called me. Eg- Queky Jo, JoJo (in a funny tone), Quek quek.. Mmm... Hope that he really doing fine over there.. And juz wish that time can fly faster.. Sigh.. I really miss him. Haha. Rock on, pal!

Ehh.. Recently I think something is bothering me sia.. Hm. Actually it been some time le.. But didnt really tell people about this. I feel kinda sad loh. But Im not very very sad la. Is just disappointed in myself. Dont know what wrong with me. I feel so frustrated right now..!!! *Urgh*Urgh*

The 1st pic we took at the airport. And this are the people who sent Alistair off.. Of coz, his families also got come lah.. but never join us to take photos.

From the left to the right:

Top row: Toh Sheng, Marcus, Jun Xian, Alistair, Denis, Nazri.

Mid row: Zac. (coz partly I dont know where to put him at so I decided to put him as the mid row. lolx.)

Bottom row: Joann(me), Grace, Angeline, Candy.

This suppose to be funshot la.. But turn out so not fun loh. Alamak. Wasted. Only Marcus did something.

Grace, Alistair, Toh Sheng, JoJo(me).

And this is the last shot that we took.

And Alistair got to go.. and his mum is like hurrying us... "Chapak!!! Chapak!!!"(it mean to be quick in malay but is it spelled like that anyway??) Lolx.

Oh man. My friend, Alistair left Singapore last night. Sob.. Sob.. I just kinda feel that I temporarily lose a close friend that I usually go shopping with, ji siao-ing each other, playing a fool, and chatting on the phone etc... Haha. I really missed those days. We went through the thick and thin together especially at OBS. Eehh.. But too bad, we are not from the same group. Yours is Armstrong and mine is Marco Polo. Haha. And we used to quarrel alot but sometime less than 1 min, we will be ok. Is like as if we never even quarreled. Lolx. Yesterday I passed my tamagotchi to him to take care. Hahaha. Lol. Oh man. I really miss him sia.. Alistair, can you come back now?? lolx. Kidding. Hope that you're going to be fine over there and study hard, yea?? And you already promised me that you're not going to change much as in character & attitude. Ha. That good. Aiya. Just try to come back during June, if you really cant then make it on December then. Is alright. Cos I can understand that is kinda expensive to buy a air ticket, yea?? But we will still keep in contact, yea??

I got testimony to share. Hahaha.. Remember my junior?? That one who fasted with me. Guess what?? So do you still remember that my few previous post that I told you all "something something", right??? Guess what is that?? Is actually the G12 conference thingy. And I heard that it cost about few hundred bucks. I believe some of you know that I been going through some financial problem. And I was telling myself that how on earth am I going to find that hundreds bucks!!! But inside my heart also said that I have only one good choice and is just to pray. And now my prayer is answered and I dont have to pay for few hundred bucks but instead I only need to pay S$?? Ehhh.. Haha. Come and ask me then. Whee.. At first I thought I really cant make it for that conference but Im wrong. Mmm.. Maybe you might not know what is G12 conference but nevermind. Uh!! I think my church, the leaders will know more about that. So it started like that, last year, during September(i think) many of the r.n. leaders started saving up for the conference and Im only one who cant save up. Coz I got no money etc and even if save but I might only save till less than S$70. And basically I was being a bit faithless but I kept telling God that I want to go no matter what. And I was hoping that someone can pay for me. So I went to pray, pray and pray!!!! And when school reopen, somehow my junior asked whether Im going for G12 conference anot. Then I tell her, I dont know whether I can make it anot cos I dont really have alot of money to pay for that. And then she said she maybe can help me to get cheaper price for that ticket but she also said dont put too much hope also. But I didnt care and go home and PRAY!!!!! And then, she also decided to fast with me. So happy and touched sia. So she helped me and encouraged me alot.. Yeah!!! And now I can go for G12 conference.. Im so happy.

Yeah!!! And also praise God for answering my prayer!!! Whee. I love you, daddy. *muacks* on Your cheek. lolx.

the smiley me...




and i got my eyeliner on.

wah. Last night, I was not feeling very well after I taken my dinner. First I got very bad headache. So I went to pray and it was gone after that. And later the pain come back again, and it became worse. And I kept rebuking it and Im fine again. Then suddenly I feel like vomitting then I go and vomit at the basin(is totally a bad idea). I really vomitted all my dinner out sia.. Then after that I feel like fainting sia coz I feel so weak after that. But after all the vomitting, I felt better. Thank God!

My class happened to walk pass this group of old aunties got minor metal problem ones. So sorry I didnt take alot of old aunties's pics. And that why you dont get to see a group of aunties but instead only just 2. Oh man. How would I wish I can go do miracles on the spot.




Then this ah-ma is so cute. She smiled at me and shake my hand. And then, she suddenly asked me for food loh. Then I juz blank out in my mind and dont know how to reply her in her dialect loh.And I went to get one of the nurses to help me with that. lolx.

Woohoo!!! The lift which will bring them back to their wards. Look there!!! Kok Heng is on his way pushing that uncle into the lift. And it only can take 3 wheelchairs(including the uncles hor) in one lift.

And this make everything slowed down. And basically we cant move till the lift is here. And so we waited.... And waited..... And waited....

AND THEN.......

Woah!!! See??! So many people!!! TRAFFIC JAMMED!!!!! PLEASE GET THE TRAFFIC POLICE TO TAKE OVER!!!!

Heehee. JoJo is gently pushing this old uncle back to his ward at 2nd level.

This two girls are from my class, Vicki & Jacinta. They are doing a great job!!!







This uncle is sooo cuteee... I love him sia!!!! He smiled and talked to us in english. And which most of us(students) can understand what he's talking about. And he is the only cheerful one. =)

Wah. Today few of the Sec 4 classes went to St Theresa's home to perform some skit/song/magic tricks etc... Hahaha. It was fun and great! I think I enjoy going to all those old folk's home. I just dont know why. Feel that we, the young kids should cheer them up a bit. As you know old people are more tend to be lonely etc.. And I really love old people but I got a serious problem is I dont know how to communicate with them in their dialect (e.g. Hokkien, Teochew, Cantonese etc..) Lolx. Sigh. And Im so angry with some of my classmates, they just been complaining about is hot la, old people smell stinks etc... Sigh. I mean one day, you will also grow old etc.. And you also dont wish people they say you loh. Sigh. Nevermind. But after the performance, my class got a chance to push the old folks's wheelchair back to their wards. Hahaha. Some of them are so cute, smiley ones, sad one, and a "missing" case one.. Lol. That's a little joke. Come and ask me loh, then you will know. Hee. So I will post photos and the rest you see, yea?? And at the end, after all my classmates still got a bit of ren xin coz I see them at least trying to concern, communicate and also even help them to get stuffs.

Oh my dear M.M.W.W, why are you biting your fingernail??? Where is your superhero's image?? Lolx. Kidding la.. I was the one who called her to post like that loh. Haha.

Cool, right?? But is very ex arh.. About £298.99 loh.

298.99 GBP
United Kingdom Pounds
=
859.168
SGDSingapore Dollars

To: My Dearest Junior, Cheryl.
When are you stop going to sleep like a log?? Oops. sorry. Im not trying to humiliate you over here. But may I ask you a question? Are you still trying to "run away" from your problems?? My dear girl arh, dont do that anymore cos you need to face it. Dont worry. Nothing is impossible for God and just give everything to God. Amen? Yea. No worries. And there's always me to be the pair of your listening ears. Hee.. Ya. So no more worries, yea?? "Siti" JoJo is here for you. Anyway you need me to sweep the floor for you or fast with you to get your heart right?Haha. But I still dont know why how come you can sleep for very longgggggggggg sia... Can break guinness world record liao. haha. kidding. So remember what I said hor. Cya around in school. And anyway I still got one more question to ask you. Ehhh..Do you still put my contact on your phone list as Siti JoJo or is just Siti Joann?? Please dont, ok?? lolx. so weird loh.
From: Your Dearest Senior, Mo Jo JoJo. (aiyo. I got too many nicks liao.)

Mmm.. You know what??! I experienced something last night from God while Im in my dreams. Haha. This happpen to me last night. Lolx. I just couldnt stop thinking about it now. Hee. Is like I was dreaming about revival broke out in geylang area. Woohoo. Isnt that great???! Lolx. Where is it??! Haha. Okie, I tell you guyz. Is just outside the MacDonald which there's one big patch of green grass there. Remember??(esp to the r.n. members) And we even set up a shelter thingy there. Then so while we were praying and etc.. And most of us are manifesting and some even got slained... At first, I got slain and then when I woke up(from the slain thingy, not from my sleep). And I decided to walk back to church to get some stuffs but another big problem is I was shaking(manifesting) too much till I have to crawl back to church. Hahaha.. So funny, right? Just imagine that? And then I suddenly woke up from my dream in the middle of 3am and then I happened to manifest on my bed. Lolx. double laughter sia.. =D Whee. I want to have that dream tonight again. Lol.

Haha.. Yesterday during my P.E. Lesson, my teacher took our height etc.. And then guess what?? Im 170cm now. Whee..!!! Finally!!! But my dream height is 174cm. Haha. I just love being tall la. Haha. If I can be 180cm, then it will be sooooo greaatttt...!!!!! Muahahaha... And I really miss God sooo muchhhh... Especially when I listen to the Heart of Worship song(thks, Abby. I got it from your blog). Yea!!! No one can take this love away from me. No matter what it is, this love is already planted sooo deep inside my heart that no one can dig it out. Can you imagine that? To all my sibling-in-christ, of cuz I know most of us, really love God. Amen? But how much do you love God?? I dont know about your love for Christ. But for me, is just that I really want to live and die for Him. I dont care how people look at me anymore. I dont want to hide my real self for Christ. And today, I finally got that courage to lift up my hands to God during my school chapel service. Yes! I do feel scare of how people look at me. But I want to make this choice and I want to let everyone in my school to know that Im a christian. Of cuz, some of my schoolmates did see me lift up my hands, and then some of them is like, "What is she doing?? and blah blah.." And after that, when I get out the chapel, most of the sec 5 looked at me in a very different way. Seriously I really dont want to care anymore about what people think. Even though, my school chapel's doctrine is different from my church's. But I still think that the pastors there is still preaching about God's words. Of cuz, there's something that I wont think I will agree with them but my christian life shouldnt be just in church and everywhere I go but also in my school chapel(and I really admit that Im scare to let non-christians see how I worship my God. But that's not the case. God, just take away all my fears and the wrong thinking. Thank you, Lord.) And today I saw a vision during my cell while my cellmates and I were praying together. I saw this tunnel and I was walking and walking and getting closer and closer to a big mansion and I stopped there for awhile. So then I decided to take one more step to the door. And suddenly something just sucked me and I just got further and further back. And it was so far away till is like.... oh man. is like craziest. And I just felt afraid and feel that Im like getting further and further away from God and I immediately tell God that I dont want to get further away from You but instead I want to get closer to You. And I was brought back to where I was, which is at the mansion doorstep. And isnt that amazing? And this vision really make me miss God doubly now. Woah! Once again, thank you, Lord! JoJo love you always and forever.

Wah. You know what guyz?? I just got 2 more ulcers last saturday and now it got WORSE!!! And you know why??? At first, when I got it I didnt really care because it was not as bad as the previous one. Then yesterday it hurt alot, and I got no choice but to put salt. Coz my watermelon powder frost run out. And today, my ulcer got even worse. Wah.. I wanna cry liao la.. *Grrr* Probably I cant use salt the next time. Sigh. So guyz, please listen to me and just drink plenty of water especially now chinese new year is coming. =)

Oh man. I was suppose to be at my junior's house. Cos she wanted to cook for me but in the end, she cant make it and got to cancel the appointment with me. Because her cell leader need to talk to her. Haha. [To: Cheryl - No worries, Im not sad or disappointed. I just feel that cant wait to eat your delicious cooking. lol.] Mmm.. Im feeling very tired again but didnt want to take afternoon nap, if not I cant sleep tonight. Whee. I cant wait for my cell tomorrow. Dont know why also. Probably just cant wait to meet God in the classroom. Hee. I need Him more than anything other things in my life. Ha. Yea. Mmm. I just realised Im going on 16 this year. *Urghh* Oh no. And next year is 17!!!!!!!! *Grrrr* And next year, most probably my parents will "dump" me and my brother in Singapore for 2 yrs. Coz my dad is going oversea and work. Taiwan, Indian and Thailand?? Err.. One of this countries. Oh, by the way, my dad worked for the SAF as a Technician. Ehh.. He's in charged of weapons(if Im not wrong.) He decided to work oversea because he wants me and my brother to be indenpendence and also partly of he will get sightly higher pay. But my mum might not want to go with my dad. Oh my poor daddy. He will be lonely over there. Hm. And my dad only will want to give us $300 per month. wah. I dont know how to survive now sia. Which is also including topping up my ez-link card, pay my phone bill and 3 meals(per day). Haha. The most I think Im going to eat instant noodles and can foods(more cheaper mah).

Hm..Today is the week 3, day 1 of school. Feeling so vexed by my friends' problem at times. Whenever my friends have problems etc, they always said God is not there for them, He didnt not love them and they also start to murmur and blame God etc.. (e.g. And some stopped reading their bible and pray.) I feel so hurt whenever christians said that. Sometime I explain or maybe at times I does scold them abit to wake them up. Hm. God love us so much and yet most of us cant see. He never even leave us. I love Him so much.. Guyz, please stop saying God. I do believe God is hurt whenever you said all these. Just like when people say you, you will get hurt too, right? Really. God love you to the core and He created you for a purpose. Dont choose to leave God. Love God with all your heart, soul and mind. Just put Him first in everything you do. Dont try to be a christian, just be a christian. And seriously, be a 24/7 on fire christian and not a lukewarm christian. Remember this-> there's nothing impossible for God. God love YOU always and forever!!!!

Yeah! Guess what?? Yesterday night, I went out with my parents. They want me to keep them company. So I agreed. I did enjoyed myself last night. We went to Changi beach, East Coast Park and Marina South(the bowling area). Haha. My dad was saying some lame jokes, then my mum is those add some stuffs to make it very exaggerate to the jokes. Lolx. Is kinda dumb. But I havent been so happy and laugh with my parents for very long. And that the way, I like my family to be like that. But too bad, my brother didnt follow us. Haha. I was holding my parents' hands and I was swinging their hands like nuts and so high. Then my dad also thinks Im siao. Haha. I was in between my parents plus holding their hands. Can picture that?? lolx. I would I wish to take a picture with my parents last night and post it here and show it to you guyz. Hee.. Then my parents and I were taking our turn to be in the middle then we will start swinging our hands very high. haha. so funny.

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I went to ask my pastor juz now abt izit ok to miss God etc.. Then she said yes, it ok and you just hungry for God. haha. Ok. I thought there's a problem with me. Seriously? At first I thought Im nuts. lol. Actually Im not, is just that Im hungry. And I need to be more hungry everyday. As Im writing this Im missing God etc.. God is so important is my life. Im one of God's crazy lover. Lol. Really really. Coz sometime when I know I never spend enough time with God, then my heart will have that kind of sour sour feeling. Haha. No wonder my junior also want to have that kind of feeling. Lol. Ok. Have anyone experience this feeling before or you're now already have this kind of feeling?? Yea! I want to share with you, can?? lol. or maybe you havent, you want to ask me more?? I will still share with you. Hee.

Mm.. I think you guyz missed someone before, right? And you know that is that kind of feeling, right? Ya. I do have it too.. Especially this year, Im always got that kind of feeling of missing God. Is kinda sound funny. As in like you know that God is always right beside you whenever you call Him etc.. And this feeling is like you are so deep in love with someone and you're missing him or her inside your heart when they are away or you dont get to see them. Wanting to grab hold of him or her and spend time with them. And that it is... That's my feeling for God everyday. And God is just in my mind all over. Mm. And so I went to tell my junior about it and she said is so cool and she want that feeling for God too. Haha. Ok. Mm. What about you guyz? Do you have that feeling too??

Haha. Guess what day is today? Is Friday 13th. Lolx. Actually no one notice it today. But I was laughing away when I was writing the date on my english worksheet. Haha. Whenever I hear Friday 13th, I always laugh at it. Cos most people will think the most unlucky things will happen on this "special day". Haha. Ok. Enough of that. Haiya. I'm so extremely tired today. Dont know why, just been sleeping very late recently. Dont know why I cant get to bed at night. And usually after school Im so exhausted and want to sleep. But I dont know why Im so stress about my coming 'N' Level. I want to get 3As, then can go to sec 5 for 'O' Level. But Im scare that I cant tahan the pressure when Im sec 5. Cos got so many subjects!!! Sob sob. So nervous about my 'N' Level now. Coz one of my teachers said that just imagine you take all the march, june and september holiday break etc.. Is only like you got 5 to almost 6 months to study. *Urgh* 5-6 months only??!!! Wanna cry liao la. Im so scare. Oh man.

Mmm. Was looking through some stuffs just now. And this is the first cross that I received from Su when I was sec 2. Haha. I really like the cross. And dont know why till now I dont bear to wear it. Lolx.


And this is when I was sec 3, Pastor C.J. gave her cross to me. And wrote something for me before she went to toronto. Mm.. I read and I cried loh. Haha. Quite rare, right? Feel so touched. And this cross, is her first cross when she first getting on fire for God. Haha. I dont even want dare to wear it because I scare I make it dirty or even spoil it. I know how to take care la. Is just that is her first cross loh.. And I dont bear to wear it.

okok. Now Im going to talk a bit of craps over here. Haha. I saw one of my seniors yesterday in the bus. I remember she and her friends always called me, H.M. Texas. Lol. I missed those day at times. But trying not to put in my mind. Coz this nickname somehow doesnt come out so good. Haha. 'H' stand for Handsome, 'M' stand for Monitoress and plus Texas in is Handsome Monitoress Texas. Haha. Kinda a long story to explain all over here. You want to know? Probably I may tell you. Lolx.

Haha. Guess which one is my junior who I always talk about? Mm.. Nono. She's not on the left but on the right. Ok. I think she dont really look cute for this pic. But really in live, she's really look cute. haha. lol. Anyway that one on the left is her sister. She's also very cute loh. haha. By the way, I just went to ask my junior to take the 5 love language thingy. Haha. The result is-Acts of Service, Gifts, Quality Time, Words of Affirmation and Physical Touch. Wow.. Now I know her 5 love language, then I can be more careful with it. Coz I dont want to hurt her. Mm.. She really look every mature in that pic hor? Do you agree with me? Anyway I got her pic from her friendster account. Oops. =X

haha. Today is the 2nd week, day 1 of term 1. Mm.. Seriously the days in school are alright. I been making a lot of friends but always forget their names. Oh no. Usually I recognize them by faces. But when you see them from far away then you want to say hi, right? Then is like a bit impossible to do that. Coz is like you wont want to shout oei, oei.. then it will be rude, right? Ya. So I think I really need to have a good memory. If not, next time when I have my own cell then I cant even remember all my disciple's name then chia lat liao. Sigh. Lolx. My memory has been getting worse as I grow up, but I still can remember alot of things in the past and not really remember recently things that had happened to me. Mm.. I think there's a problem with my memory. Mm.. I need to get new "memory card" to replace it. Haha. Mm.. Where to get it?? Does anyone know where to get it? lolx. I think I better pray for a new one or maybe pray for it to be expandable. Haha. Best heh. Prayer just rocks to the core sia. Mm.. Wah. I feel so touched sia.. Remember that junior which is close to me?? Guess what? She said she want to cook something good for me to eat. =) Yipee. Wah. I feel so touched and loved. Yeah! But she said either this week or probably when she's more free then she can cook for me. Haha. So cool. Im so fortunate. Are you jealous or envy me that I got such a nice junior? But seriously no one actually want or have cook anything for me in my life (lol. pls dont count those parties, or my mum's and even those you can buy it outside.) Haha.. I havent been eating much good foods. And my junior know about it and that why she want to cook for me. Is she trying to "bao da" me izit?? lolx. Haha. *sigh* I think so far I only eat something which you guyz think is good and is KFC. Then the rest is more on instant noodles and bread. lolx. If I carry on eating instant noodles, I think soon you all will see me with a wig walking around. Then when wind blow, and you will see the wig fly off and you will see my "beautiful" hair. Lolx. Kidding. Mm, I think also a bit good la. Let me suffer a bit and just let me feel the taste of being poor for awhile. Coz I think sometimes my generation is too fortunate already. And at times I already consider myself kinda poor but there's even more people out there that are even worse than me. Ha! And now one more thing has been happening to me and my family, and that is there's a problem with my house's electricity then always blackout arh. Haha. Is like living in kampong but is those like 4-5 stars kampong style. Got gas, electricity etc etc... But always got problems with it. Haha. Mm. If you want to rate it as a hotel then it will be the half a start hotel. lolx. Mm.. It ok. Im fine with everything at home now. Of cuz, my parents still not happy with me going out to church on sunday etc.. But they cant stop me. Im always praising, thanking God for everything that He's giving me now. I never regret knowing Him, He brought me up to here and He will bring me to end of it. I just keep trusting, following, loving Him etc.. At times, I still wonder why is this all happening to me etc.. But I believe God is growing me. Is like a baby learning how to walk, then when a baby fall, he/she will try to stand up again to continue to the next step. And that is where I am at now. Just kinda need a bit more time to finish it. No matter what I will still continue walking, coz I know God is here with me always and forever. =)

Haha. Im sure Sea-Ha-Ha-Ha Hum will remember this little map we had while trying to get our way to SCCC. Haha. I really missed those days while we were at the LTC 2005 Intake 1. Haha. Let us look forward to LTC 2006 Intake 2 then.. Hohoho.

My 5 Love Languages

Hello guyz!! Especially to the r.n. members. Im sure you guyz want to know your 5 love languages, right? I was surfing the net and guess what I found. A website that you can take a test about your 5 love languages. So I did my test just now at this webby -> http://selectsmart.com/FREE/select.php?client=lovelanguages. So you guyz go and take your's too and post it on your blog. Yea? And I post my 5 love languages below here and you can take a look. So what's your love languages? (And please do answer all the questions seriously with your heart.)

And it says:

Your Results:
Your prediction for your #1 result: (which is mine)
Words of Affirmation--You need to hear praise. Does that match your actual #1 result below?
Your Results The list below is modified by your input. Note: The selector author alone determined the questions and scoring of these results.

#1
Words of Affirmation--You need to hear praise to know you are loved and you may also prefer to express your affection verbally. Negative comments cut right to the bone. You want to hear that you're loved and how much and why.

#2
Acts of Service--You prefer to show your love through favors and chores and doing things for others. You feel put-upon and unappreciated when your efforts are taken for granted.

#3
Gifts--You are moved by presents and physical tokens of affection. It's the fact that someone is thinking about you enough to give you something that moves you. The objects are of secondary importance to the relationship and sentiment with which they were intended.

#4
Quality Time--This can be expressed either through those intimate tete-a-tete discussions or via doing things together. It's possible to get a low score in this category because you have a strong preference for one form of Quality Time over another.

#5
Touch--You want to give and/or receive affection physically. This may or may not center around sex.

The result of my Personality Tests

Just went to take a Personality test on the net. And Black is my colour. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.

Then also 2 personality tests from my workshop.

First test says that Im a both Left & Right brain.

Left Brain

• Right half of your body
• Logic
• Language
• Step by step
• Analysia
• Details
• Words
• Numbers
• Sequence
• Linearity.

Right Brain

• Left half of your body
• Creativity
• Imagination
• Simultaneous
• Synthesis
• Big Picture
• Rhythm
• Spatial Awareness
• Dimension.

Second test says that Im a Kinesthetic Learners -> Act, Listen, Look

• Take my time
• Have a feel it first; often accused of being slow
• Have "itchy hands"
• Prefer big gestures
• Touch people and stand too close
• Physically oriented
• Memorize by walking, seeing
• See one thing at a time ("show me")
• Learning: learn through manipulating and actually doing
• Recall: remember overall impression of what was experienced.

And lastly my Christianity Personality Tests says that Im a MelPhleg. But I dont know whether is this my final answer for my personality. I kept redo-ing it because the answers always come out more than 2 personality. I think I retake for 5 times and then I decided to get the closest one. lolx. So confused. Dont know which is the real me.

Some of the greatest scholars the world has ever known have been MelPhlegs. They are not nearly as prone to hostility as the two previous melancholies and usually get along well with others. These are gifted introverts combine the analytical perfectionism of the melancholy with the organized efficiency of the phlegmatic. They are usually good-natured humanitarians who prefer a quiet, solitary environment for study and research to the endless rounds of activities sought by the more extroverted temperaments. MelPhlegs are usually excellent spellers and good mathematicians. These gifted people have greatly benefited humanity. Most of the world's significant inventions and medical discoveries have been made by MelPhleg. Despite his abilities, the MelPhleg, like the rest of us, has his own potential weakness. Unless controlled by God, he easily becomes discouraged and develops a very negative thinking pattern. But once he realizes it is a sin to develop the spirit of criticism and learns to rejoice, his entire outlook on life can be transformed. Ordinarily a quiet person, he is capable of inner angers and hostility caused by his tendency to be vengeful. MelPhleg are usually vulnerable to fear, anxiety, and negative self-image. It has always amazed me that the people with the greatest talents and capabilities are often victimized by genunie feelings of poor self-worth. Their strong tendency to be conscientious allows them to let others pressure them into making commitments that drain their energy and creavtivity. When filled with God's Spirit, these people are loved and admired by their family because their personal self-discipline and dedication are exemplary in the home. But humanitarian concerns can cause them to neglect their family. Unless they learn to pace themselves and enjoy diversions that help them relax, they often become early mortality statistics. The most likely candidate for MelPhleg in the Bible is the beloved Apostle John. He obivously had a very sensitive nature, for as a youth he laid his head on Jesus' breast at the Lord's Supper. On one occasion he became so angry at some people that he asked the Lord Jesus to call fire from heaven down on them. Yet at the crucifixion he was the lone disciple who devotedly stood at the cross. John was the one to whom the dying Jesus entrusted his mother. Later the disciple became a great church leader and left us five books in the New Testament, two of which (the Gospel of John and the Book of Revelation) particularly glorify Jesus Christ.

Mmm.. Wah. Havent post anything on my blog for 2 days liao.. I just back came from school. Why so late?? Orh. Coz yesterday and today, I got 2 days workshop to attend. It's a longgg day. lol. But I think the workshop does really helps. And I think is gonna help me in my studies etc. Im so motivated now. woohoo. haha. I think is gonna to be good for my 'N' level revision studies. I was so scared of my 'N' level before that. But now Im slightly feeling better. Yeah! Im now down with bad flu and cough. All the "chendol" coming out from my nose.. lolx. But before my flu and cough, I got super big patch of ulcer in my throat. One BIG patch there loh!! Not those like the normal ones you have it. *OUCH*OUCH* Super pain sia. Is like when I breathe in, it already hurt alot. Then yesterday, in the middle of 2am, I went to split saliva then is all blood. So can you imagine how bad izit??! Sigh. Ha. At least, Im feeling better now. Yeah! Must be the prayer that my close junior prayed for me. whee. Mm. I also prayed for her coz she also fall sick. She got headache and also keep vomiting and now she's feeling better. hee. Mm. I wonder whether is she the one that God showed me when I prayed for a best friend. But I cant remember the looks when God showed me last year. But I remember the background, is at my church and also she wears a pink cap. Mm. Maybe I still need to wait till she appear in my church. Then probably my junior is not the one that God showed me. . Lol. But what I remember is she looked sweet & cute. ha. Which my junior also got that looks too. lol. wow. So confused now. Hee. Mm. I havent been eating during my recess except yesterday lunch time. Ha. Coz Im saving money mah. I still need to pay my church camp fee. Trying to pay it as soon as possible, I dont want to drag it any longer. It getting too long and I really feel so bad about it. *Urghhh.* I just havent pay back the full amount, which is $30 to go. Then I still need to return one of my friend's money too. Wah. I dont want to talk about her. She make me left a scar in my heart about money. Sigh. I wanna cry sia. Because of that, I have changed about treating someone with my own willingness rather it become a motive then next time..... urghh.. I think I should just stop there.. Dont want to talk more about it.

Yeah! Today was so great! Cos finally school reopen and it also my Godma's 46th birthday. (oops. =X. Heehee. Forgive me for saying your age out. but you do look very young to me loh. so it ok. lolx.) Haha. Some of you all dont know who is my Godma, right? She is Norman's mummy. Mmm. So it went like that we went to bishan area and get a birthday cake for her today(which is what we can afford.) And after that we need to take a bus to Nor's place and then when we were on the way home, we were planning about how we going to give my Godma a surprise. So during the bus journey, suddenly I received a message from my Godma and she was asking me whether is Norman with me. Then we decided not to reply her message. Oops. I think we made her worried. lolx. And now we got to drop off. After that we need to cross a road and guess who we saw??!! Is my GODMA!!! Arghhh... Oh no!!! So we got no choice, but to be like little mouse and hide ourselves. And guess what??! And this moment, she turned her head around and she saw US!!!!!!!!!!! Double *ArGGGhhhhhH*!!!!! Oh man! Is like everything we had planned in the bus etc has kinda gone down to drain. sob. sob. Heehee. And so we went to back to celebrate my Godma's birthday and this is my every first time celebrating with her. And the most important thing is she smiled. wheee! Im so happy.

Haha. Ok. Juz finish my Godma's celebration post thingy. Let talk about my school today. Mmm. I went around making new friends going by shaking hands and say HNY and Merry X'mas coz X'mas got 12 days mah.. haha. Then mostly the younger ones is like who is this crazy girl over here? But guess what? I dont care. Im here to love you all and make friends with you all. But sigh.. Couldnt manage to get their contacts today. Ha. Nevermind. Probably tommorrow then. Mm.. I got something that I want to say... But I dont want to say it now. Lol. =) Okok. You tempted to know izit??!! Mm.. Ok. Hint hint you all first. Ok. I got this junior, she's kinda very close to me.. And she was asking me abt "something" then I said I also want to go that "something" and I have been praying etc but... Then she said ok, nevermind. I will fast and pray with you together and then "something something again". olx. =P. I know she can go for that"something" but she wanna fast and pray together with me. Im so touched. She's a christian from some other church and she really changed alot after she follow me. Coz she wasnt on fire for God and etc. Im happy that I kinda good influence her. Lolx. Ok. Enough of the hinting. Dont want to let you all know first. Hee. But I did enjoyed myself in school today. Heehee.

For 2006:

I think I got tons of stuffs to do and also glorfiy my God.
Heehee..

Things that I want to do with my Cell Mates.
1) Want to win lot and lot of souls.
2) Want to bring revival to my school.
3) Campus Invasion.
4) Prayer Walk. (once every 1-2 month. i think.)

Haha. I think there's alot of things that I want to do with my cell mates but nothing much is on my mind now.

Thing that I want and I need to do.
1) Put God first & rely on Him more.
2) Read bible, pray in tongues, worship Him and glorify Him like never before. AMEN!!! Whee!!
2) Study extra extra hard and need to concentrate extra extra more during lessons in school.
3) Build relationship with my family.
4) Try to stay at home more. (so that my parents wont complain that Im spending alot of my time in church etc..)
5) Win souls like craziest.
6) I want to practise my drums more. (e.g. all the theory & practical etc..) Dont want to waste my time doing nothing about it. Have been always thinking to take lessons from Yamaha for very long.. but couldnt afford it. sigh. need to pray till it happen!!!
7) Save money!!! Coz if my parents need money I can help a bit.

Mmm.. Again. I cant recall of what I want to share. But I still do remember I did wrote down on a piece of paper about what I want to do, need to do, visions that God gave me and etc.. Want to know more then come and ask me. lol. =P

oh man. Im havent eat for the whole day. I wanna faint liao. Oops =X. Kidding. Im so hungry. And there's no foods at home and now my parents are in bed sleeping. Don want to disturb them. Lol. sob sob. Sigh.

Mad Muscular Wonder Woman

To my Dearest M.M.W.W,
Hope you like it.
And this my 1st posting in 2006.
*clap*clap*clap* woohoo!



- Jojo love you forever!!! -