I missed church service today. Sigh. Juz because of my family Reunion Dinner. How would I wish that forever I will never miss church service in my life. I want to get back to my ministry etc.. I love what God wants me to do.But I dont know why I feel so emo now.I just got the sour sour feeling. Feeling that I want to accomplish something for God but dont know when will it happen. Not I dont have faith in God, just feel that I dont faith in others. I dont want to drag it any longer, Im no longer young. And I want to do it as a team and not alone. At times, I feel so tired, just running with God but what I really want to see is unity and all of my cellmates and I are running together with God. I dont want to run with my own strength anymore, it so tiring. And Im not following my church vision and that needed me to change and God, help me with that.