YEAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Im going to Cambodia in NOVEMBER with my company!!!!!!!!!!

For voluntary work!!!

I LOVE IT!!!

You're born in my creation.

I've created you in my mind.

Making you almost perfect in every way.

You should be around 16 years old right now.

Practically you grew up with me.

I'm sorry that I didn't take notice of time and date that you're born.

What I only remember is... You spend most of your time with me.

I guess you're the only best friend I ever have.

No one seem to understand but you will.

I know when no one is here for me, you will never fail to be with me (when I start to mold the image of you in my head).

Hallucination is not the word to use.

Creativity will be the perfect word to use.

I wish... I could write a short story.... Just all about you.

I love you.

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine
You look so beautiful tonight
Reminds me how you laid us down
And gently smiled before you destroyed my life

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
(let me rest in pieces)
Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
(let me rest in pieces)
Pieces



Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
You got much closer than I thought you did
I'm in your reach
You held me in your hands

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
(let me rest in pieces)
Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
(let me rest in pieces)


Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
and let me rest in pieces

would you find it in your heart
to make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
(and let me rest in peices)
would you find it in your heart
and let me rest in pieces

would you find it in your heart
would you let me rest in pieces

would you find it in your heart
would you let me rest in pieces

would you find it in your heart
would you let me rest in pieces

I'm so glad that I'm still breathing; Alive and using my computer. I just happened to browse through the newpaper today at a provision shop. And I found out the cover page of the headline..... Ehh... Some diving thingy headline. Well.. The guy who just passed away was one of my childhood friend. We used to catch fighting spider with his elder brother. Hahaha. But now I have a phobia toward spiders because of him.... I shall cut it short. One day, he was so random and threw the spider that towards my direction and it ended up in my mouth. And...... I got a very bad sore throat from there onwards... That's why I begin to have a phobia of spiders.

Well.. What I really wanna say is that life is really unpredictable. You can just leave this place and say goodbye to everyone. Today I may be fine... But who knows.. I may die tomorrow or right now. Our lives are numbered. Everything is in God's hands. Don't kept thinking life is meaningless. Life is full of joy and painful at times. When you begin to overcome your difficulties, that is when you will feel that you're stronger and better than before. =) Cheers!

Supposedly to be working and getting busier but I ended up spending my friday night and whole saturday relaxing..

11 Sep 09

Met up with Cheryl and friendsssssss...... FOR FISHING!!! Like a fun!! I caught the largest among all of my friends!! Teehee!! Like a happy!! Aye! I lazy to describe everything right now.

12 Sep 09

Slept 3 hours and met up with Mei Hui. We went to Café del Mar to drink and tannnnn?? Yup. My skin are screaming in pain.

Wanna sleep now!!

My SE phone is about to D.I.E. soon...

Well.. I'm a little heartache.

But now I'm having headache on what phone to get.

-.-"

Cheryl want me to get Blackberry but I'm thinking of iphone...

Cos I want to get a good camera phone, ipod touch and email for all at one shot..

The only thing about BB is about its camera... SUCKS!!

=(

IF NOT................

DONT TAKE A BLOODY PHONE LAH!!!

KU-KU!!! DULAN!!

I guess the chat on monday night was pretty okay.. Had some.. A little "argument", "defending" and "protective" shield. But I guess it was not a wasted trip after all.. I admitted that I'm kinda angry and upset but apparently over all, I had no feelings about it but Cheryl on the other side, she was trying to encourage me. I feel so confused at times. Maybe giving another chance to change is not a bad idea after all..

I'm so tired right now. And I'm glad that I'm loving Cheryl very much. Night, Sweetheart. =)

Hooray! Manual driving guided by my dad was FUN!! I got the hook on it but aint having enough confidence in the steps. Like.... Ehh... Start the engines, step on the clutch, switch to Gear 1, Hand brakes release, balance on the clutch and accelerator and off........ I GO!!!!!!!!!!!

Aye! Jojo is tired!!

Meeting Xiaoli and Ben tomorrow evening at AMK Drivethru..

• My snow leopard is GOOD!!
• My new camera bag is PRETTY!
• I took some photo of Orchard Central for AL's mum. I'm getting the hook on photography. I'm loving myself.
• I spent some time with Cheryl, Nat and Narayan- SHISHA-ING!!! H.A.P.P.Y.!
• Doing some video editing.. Proud of myself. ( Like a lame uh me -.- )
• I bought a multi-card reader!
• I bought a 8GB CF card!
• My Crocs sandals is out of stock! =(
• I came out with a draft storyboard; Happy Birthday Video to Cheryl for her upcoming birthday in Dec. (Hopefully I have the time to video and edit it.)
• I'm saving money!
• I'm eating lesser somehow... To be healthy for the sake of my........ NEVERMIND!
• I'm trying to sleep earlier during weekdays to have a balance lifestyle.
• My relationship with my parents are getting better. Kissing them and hugging them again! =) (What a breakthrough!)
• AL is coming back in two weeks times.. Missing him. =)
• Going to hit to AL's house later to pass the OC photo to his mum.
• Enjoying life!!
• Getting BUSY BUSIER BUSIEST again! =(
• Trying to get my heart right for things again.
• I'm growing up! =)
• Recently got few designing thingy for me to do in the office! (EXTREMELY HAPPY!)
• Working part time job for 3- 4 days during F1 period!
• Trying to cut down but FAILED! =(
• Going to practice driving with my daddy in awhile time for tomorrow's driving lesson. =)
• My mind is rewinding... Those.... Memories... That I want to forget it all for once.
• Wanna go for a long break...
• I'm missing Shawn Shawn. His birthday was 4 days ago! (AL forget to wish him!! Oei!! Velly lude uh!)

Umbrella By Vanillla Sky

WOAH!! I really enjoyed myself today. I was first to reach the restaurant. THE REST WAS LATE COS THEY ALL GOT CAUGHT IN THE RAIN! Hahaha. Oops. Well.... Today is a off day! Teachers' Day outing was fun!! We had Yum Cha for lunch at Chinatown. The tim sum is so nice!!!!!!!! Yeah! After lunch.... It's KTV TIME!!!!!! Mr Kenny and Mr Jeremy are so funny!!!!!!!! Mr Kenny chose Jay Chou- Huo Yuan Jia song and they anyhow rap cos it was kinda way too fast then when come to the part of HUO HUO HUO, they sing with passion!!! FAINTED LOH!!!

TOMORROW WILL BE THE DAY OF GETTING BACK TO WORK!!!!!!!

MY SNOW LEOPARD IS NOT HERE YET!! SO SAD!!!!! =(

Sometimes I just don't get it!

MOST of my time, I don't need you!

Once a while I need and want you because I miss you!

Sometimes I do want to tell you how much you meant to me!

Most of the time, I just want to tell you that you're just way too much!

Most of the time, I hate to go through this process because it is painful!

Most of the time, I wish I shouldn't have know you..

So that my life would be better off without you!

But yet again..

If I wouldn't know you, I wouldn't been this far!

Yes, I can finally see the real truth about this world!

The world is just full of selfish people!

Sometimes you should grab a coffee/tea, sit down and think about how not to be selfish!

Most of the time, you're such a pain in the ass!

Most of the time, you just make me feel like I've been a fool for you!

So much like a fool that I need to go through this bloody pain!

So silly of me investing such a pathetic person like you!

I'm so upset! Can't you tell?!

Oops! I bet you won't cos Joann is long forgotten in your bloody list!

I'm only on your list when..... You need and want me!

Thanks for using me.. Cos I can feel that you're fully using me!

I feel so....... A.P.P.R.E.I.C.A.T.E.D.!!

All these times... I don't know why I have and need to compromise you.

I want to leave you but yet at the same time I can't do it!

I don't know why am I so softhearted.

My heart seem to (always) have a small gap to allow someone to come back..

But I'm so tired..

Tired of being a silly fool!

Tired of getting hurt!

Tired of having mercy on you!

Tired of swallowing the truth about you!

Tired of having you in my life and on my list!

JUST FORGET IT!

You're bringing too much pain to me!

I beg you... Or should I pray that you won't contact me as much/long/often as possible.

The best is you retreat..

I don't want to do the hard way.. The painful way..

Because I still want to have the sweet memories of us being together.

Too bad that I have to blow up on you and at you.

It's my bad, my fault. I apologise. "I'm so sorry, truly sorry."

You = "Friends"

(I'm way too lazy to type 'All of you', 'Them', 'You guys' or anything to do with more than 1 person.)

ARGHHHHHH!! I'm feeling terrible after having a coffee... Like a.. Wanna puke!!!!! Grrrr!!

Just a while ago... I finished a movie called..... FINAL DESTINATION 4!!!!!! I think is movie is quite good!! And THE PROPOSAL is GOOOoOOoOooD too!! I've been watching too much movie lately!! OH MY TIAN!!! What is wrong with me?! But recently... GOT TONS OF GOOD MOVIES!!! Just a few more to go... PLEASE, JO!! I've haven't been into movies for quite awhile.

I'm feeling so angry somehow somewhat.. But I have no idea why. Or maybe I do but cos... STOP! STOP!! I'm just trying too hard! I'm way too hard on myself. Please I need calmness to be in my life again. Please don't do this to me anymore! I need a break! I can feel that I'm tearing myself a part.