I just found that my daddy's dream was to a Pilot leh. Damn cool, right? But why he didnt manage to fulfil his dream because of his education. He only got a 'N' Level cert. He couldnt make it to be a Pilot and he went to take all the licenses that he can. For example: All cars, motorbike, tank (he used be in SAF), Fox lift (lol. I dont know how to spell) and boat. Lol. My dad's a pro, right? Lol.
I also had a dream for my dad. Last sat, I told my dad that...
ME: Dad, I will grow up and be rich and buy you a yacht to go out to the sea and fish big creatures back.
DAD: Silly. All I want you to do is get a degree and earn money to survive in Singapore.
ME: Ok. I will. But I got my dream for you to fulfil for me too. I will do my best and get a boat license and drive you around around the sea.
DAD: *Smile* and hold my hand firmly.
Oh well. Im happy that I love him but still cant find back the real love for him. Im searching.. I LOVE YOU, DAD. I know you love me too. Thank you.
Tuesday, July 29, 2008
Monday, July 28, 2008
Heehee. A love gift from PAMELA SIA MEI YI. Lol. I kept "pestering" her to buy me a cookie monster soft toy from kiddy palace but she couldnt cos she's also saving up for her church building fund but she still damn nice to me. She made 4 bookmarks for me!! And all of them are COOKIE MONSTER!!!! NOW I GOT COOKIE MONSTERS!! Hahahaha.. But I still want my soft toy!!! Hee. Ya. Im still a KID!! Laugh at me loh!!! Who cares?!! Bleah!! =P
Friday, July 25, 2008
I come so far le.. I used to hate my family so much but no longer hate them now. Well. I really dont know why too. But I guess I really desire to see my family coming to know Christ. If I dont change, what make them think that they should change. Right? "Ren he kuang ta men bu shi Christians." But seriously I no longer holding onto the grudges that they had marked me in my memories. I dont know. I dont really remember whether do I struggled alot when I have to let go of the pains. I guess I didnt. Maybe because of my Pastor. She's the BEST EXAMPLE. She went thru, done it and showed us (churchmates n I) what is love like for a family. She's my IDOL!! I LOVE HER SIOL!
After thinking so much about the past, I realised how much I really love my family. Everyone is not perfect. I do judge ppl. See, Im imperfect too. I dont want to put so much expectation in them cos if they dont hit my expectation... Im going to be bitter again. And I have to go back to square one. Is not that I dont remember what they did in my life but I guess I chose to forget. I dont know how I did it but I just did it.
What really make me happy now is how they can appreciate me and love and that will fill up my love tank for them. I guess growing up for them was tough too but they pulled thru. I have God and what make me cant do the same thing but better and greater. I should be happier of what I have now and cherish them. I know I havent been loving them the way I should. Somehow I feel that I have my responsibility to make them feel loved but what I still cant take is... I dont really like/love to kiss them on their cheeks or smth. I no longer feel comfortable doing it. I dont know whether is it because of that silly incident that buried in my memories forever. But nothing is forever. I love them but I cant even feel it at times. I have no idea where am I. But what I really really love them deep down in my heart. I will search back my love for them.
After thinking so much about the past, I realised how much I really love my family. Everyone is not perfect. I do judge ppl. See, Im imperfect too. I dont want to put so much expectation in them cos if they dont hit my expectation... Im going to be bitter again. And I have to go back to square one. Is not that I dont remember what they did in my life but I guess I chose to forget. I dont know how I did it but I just did it.
What really make me happy now is how they can appreciate me and love and that will fill up my love tank for them. I guess growing up for them was tough too but they pulled thru. I have God and what make me cant do the same thing but better and greater. I should be happier of what I have now and cherish them. I know I havent been loving them the way I should. Somehow I feel that I have my responsibility to make them feel loved but what I still cant take is... I dont really like/love to kiss them on their cheeks or smth. I no longer feel comfortable doing it. I dont know whether is it because of that silly incident that buried in my memories forever. But nothing is forever. I love them but I cant even feel it at times. I have no idea where am I. But what I really really love them deep down in my heart. I will search back my love for them.
Thursday, July 17, 2008
Friday, July 04, 2008
Hahahahahhahahahaha......
I GOT ONE BIG NEWS TO SHARE!!!!!!!!!
Im sure you guys will love it!!!
Last wednesday night, I went to collect my salary cheque from my manager. And when I opened up my cheque...... Guess what I see???!!!
MY EYES AND MOUTH OPENED VERY WIDE!!!
Because last week, I prayed to God that I want $500 for my salary. Last month, I worked and I calculated that I will only received $452.62 for my salary. But I told God that I want $500 and I really had faith for it. And then I really received $502.62! The extra $50 was a "bonus" thingy. Usually part timer wont received that much amount of "bonus". So when I received it, I was really shocked. Woohoo!!! Damn damn happy!! I love my GOD!!!
I GOT ONE BIG NEWS TO SHARE!!!!!!!!!
Im sure you guys will love it!!!
Last wednesday night, I went to collect my salary cheque from my manager. And when I opened up my cheque...... Guess what I see???!!!
MY EYES AND MOUTH OPENED VERY WIDE!!!
Because last week, I prayed to God that I want $500 for my salary. Last month, I worked and I calculated that I will only received $452.62 for my salary. But I told God that I want $500 and I really had faith for it. And then I really received $502.62! The extra $50 was a "bonus" thingy. Usually part timer wont received that much amount of "bonus". So when I received it, I was really shocked. Woohoo!!! Damn damn happy!! I love my GOD!!!
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