ArgHHHhhhhhhhhhhHHH!!!!!!!! EXAMS IS AROUND THE CORNER!!!!!!!!! Im so nErvOusSss and STRESSSSSSSSSssss............ Sob Sob... Im scare too.. OH man... Im gonna cry!!!!!! And probably I will not update my blog so often already... Im really really very very scare, nervous and stress... Coz I gonna need to study like crRRrazyyyyyy......... Im going nuts about it...

woah.. my birthday has juz passed. And the day before my birthday, I was super down. Juz some things had happened at home and I stayed up the whole day and think. But somehow I fell asleep at 5am and woke up at 6am to go to school. Though now I kinda tired, but couldnt get on to bed. And yes, this year my parents finally celebrated my birthday for me but I dont feel happy and make me think alot of things that are in the past. I wanna be strong, but somehow there's alot of missing pieces of a broken heart that I wanna find and to fix it back but I cant find it. I grew up so much.. But yet, so many things are still keeping me in the dark and recently I got to know some of it. And now I really understand why my mum left so many scars in my heart and my memories during my childhood days. I think I really completely forgive her in my heart. I dont blame her for alot of things now.

Ha. These are the presents that I have received from my cellmates and cell leader. I really wanna thank you guys for all the love and the effort that you all put in. Especially Chenxi and Weiling, you girls did a great job for the video clip. I really love it. And one of the presents in there is from my dad. Guess which one. Lol. And anyway that green t-shirt you guyz gave, is the first colour I got in my cupboard now. I always wanted to buy green t-shirt but ended up buying some other colours. lol.


See?!! The green t-shirt is in there. Lol. Mmm.. Got alot of clothings in there, right??? Ha. But some of the clothings doesnt belong to mine and some are my collections. lol. Let me count.. 12 doesnt belong to mine, 14 are my collections, 23 are mine(including school uniform, P.E. attire etc..) and some of them I dont really wear it already. Im thinking to give it to the charity.

my birthday cake. see?? now my dad also called me JoJo. so weird loh.








Sigh. Somehow Im not very happy today. I almost cried when I cut the cake but I told myself to be strong. Not coz I feel touched loh. But just somehow I feel something is missing inside my heart. And finally after 9 yrs, my family celebrated it for me again. But.....

These are the gifts that I received today(and one of them is from my dad.) And I really wanna thank all my cellmates and cell leader here. I love you guyz for what you have done and all the effort you guyz put in. Ha. Chenxi and Weiling, I super love the video clip that you girls did. Awesome! Ha. And guyz made my day. Anyway the green t-shirt is my very first colour that I have. Coz what I have at home are Black, White, Red, Maroon, Brown, Orange, Navy Blue, Blue, Grey. lolx.




See??! Never bluff you right?? Lol. Mm.. Anyway some clothings are not mine. And some clothings are my collections. I know is kinda dumb, but I like.. Lol. But after all, I think I got alot of clothings in my cupboard. lol

JoJo won 1st in shot put in 2006. woohoo. sorry arh.. too bored le..












And all these are my Primary school to Secondary School trophies. I think I still got few more but I cant seem to find it. Probably my mum threw it away. oops. =X lol.

*ScrEaMmm*
My mummy bought me this book.
Im super happy loh. Ha.









Me and Brenda (gan-mummy). lolx The super duper active girl that who love to tell lame jokes. Buey tahan her sia. Oops =X Kidding. Chilled out!!









This is me and ah-yuan(Yi Yuan). lolx. I missed the outing. Do you, ah-yuan?? haha.

Mm.. I went to polyclinic this morning for my 1st appointment. Wow. It's a very tiring thing to wait for so long. The doctors there are super duper slow. I waited for 1 hr and 30 mins. And it was the different doctor that I see 2 week ago. This doctor got real big attitude problem, coz when she ask me questions and then she like not happy with me loh. I told her the painkiller that the previous doctor gave me is not effective then she said, "Of cuz la.. painkiller is juz nothing. And the problem is you, is juz a muscle-ache thing and which will make you feel pain." (-_-) I feel whacking her up man. Oops. =X Then my mum asked her whether can my daughter(me) go for X-ray then she said, "Can, but nothing is going to scan any problem out(in chinese) Coz is juz a muscle-ache and come back and see me in 2 week times." I was like, "What? Another 2 week?! That's long, man." Then after that I went out of the room, still trying to put a smile on my face and then my mum started to complain to me abt that doctor's attitude and then my mum also feel like slapping her on the face and she told me that, if you got a chance to be doctor, dont be that kind of doctor. Coz nobody will like it. Ha. Then I agreed with her. And after that, I went to the X-ray room to do some X-ray. Ha. It so cool. And this is my first time doing X-ray scanning. And then the nurse is so friendly and then she also brighten my day. And she called me to come back on this coming monday to see the result, then I told her but the doctor called me to come back in 2 week time then she said no need, just come back on monday, it easier and faster. Hee. I felt so happy after leaving that X-ray room. lolx.

Hey yo.. Wow. So long havent been posting my blog. Hahaha. Coz recently I seldom use the computer coz my brother and dad are using for their work. Haha.. You know what?? Mm.. Today my school celebrate Good Friday etc.. And they also encourage all the christians to go to chapel and get together and have Holy Communion. So me, Weiling, Yiyuan and Chenxi as r.n. members went to the chapel to have a look etc.. Mmm.. Is was quite good but is quite a long thingy. And I teared. Haha. Coz it really remind me of Jesus paid so much to die for our sins 2000 yrs ago. And all the tortures thingy He went through touches my heart again and I teared. I love JESUS forever. And I cant wait for Good Friday now. Woohoo. Coz God bought some of my churchmates' and me to heaven in spirit. Yeah! And I wonder what's going to be like for this year.


look at this.. this a huge moth. it was at my classroon outside last tuesday.

Today I didnt go to school, coz of my backbone and now is doubly killing me again. *Argh* sob sob. I think it must be the shot put and high jump or probably I worked out too much of my strength. But anyway I never join high jump, is just I go there and practise for fun. Oh man. Then today, this morning I woke up and when I stepped down from my bed and I can't stand straight properly. I went to tell my dad about it and he called me not to go to school. And now Im sitting in front of my computer, I still got to sit a way that my back is not hurting me. *Grr* Fed up. Sit on floor, on the chair and even sleeping in bed also got problem now. Sigh. Hopefully my back will recover soon. Next week, Im going back to polyclinic to have another appointment with the doctor. I already see two doctors and the two doctors said the same thing and given me the same medicine. Which is one of them is painkiller and it DOESNT HELP LAH... Alamak. Sian. Cant tahan it anymore. If not, I will want to go to hospital and do X-ray. Dont care anymore!! If not is going to take even longer to get heal.

Woohoo!! Today is sport heat again. haha. Once again I won shot put for the year of 2006!!!!! Whee!!! So proud of myself. lol. haha. But..... This year, I... I.... I.... didnt break my last year record. sob sob.. wahh.. This year is 7.39M and last year was 8.02M. How can this be??? oh man.. haha. But Im kinda still happy. lalala.. hee.. wah.. This year is the most funniest shot put competition I ever had. lol. Coz before we start throwing our ball then got one teacher demonstrated for us. Then he.... Alamak. So funny. Not trying to make fun of him here.. Im not that bad. I wont name names here. Firstly he is so fierce, then when he trying to demo that time, he kept calling people to step back more, so that he wont throw at us. Ok. Then i can understand that. So after that we, the participants start to throw then he kept standing at the inside field area that we are throwing at. Then is like super freaky arh.. Coz you also scare that you might hit him or something, right? Then ok arh, no much people throw till so far. Lucky man. Then when is my turn, then my heart started to pump so fast coz I really scared that I might hit him if he really going to be at the same place at the field area. Then that was my very first throw (luckily is juz the free trial throw. so not really counted as first throw yet. pai seh ) is really not so far, coz of that fear which is inside me.. Aiya. Wasted it, man. Maybe my first trial will be also "super duper" far. Muahahaha.. lolx. Haha. When my name was called to throw for my first throw and I went for it, and then I told the teacher to move abit more away then he said, "You dont have to worry. Just throw!!" And I was like oh man!! And then I threw the ball and it landed on the ground and is the distance is.......7.06M!!!! And that teacher said, "Hm. Good." And the ball was quite NEAR him loh.. Lucky him. Hahaha.. Then my second throw, that teacher still stand at the same spot again. OH NO!!! ALAMAK!!! And I said, "TEACHER, can you excuse me for awhile? Could you juz stand further abit more!" And he said, "Im moving la!! I will call you to throw when you are suppose to!"(coz my first throw kinda make him think twice so he move himself away.) Oops. =X haha..!! Finally. Haha. And then he juz move abit hor!!!!!!! haha... ok. I threw it and then guess what??!! Is 7.38M!!!!! Haha. Then he still said the same sentence again. Which is the "Hm. Good." hee. so cute arh.. Then now he also sooo bad loh... I felt so hurt for the rest of the participants coz he said, "For those who never surpass her(which is me) distance then I will not take your record down." Arghh.. Why did he said that??!! Then I start to feel that all the participants are kinda not happy with me sia.. Sigh.. Finally is the last throw of the day but then..... I didnt do quite well for the third throw(coz I never surpass my own record) then he dont wanna record it down. sian.. -_-". Hahaha..

Anyway I continuously won shot put since I was primary 4, 5, 6, secondary 2,3,4. Muahahaha.. (I went into nation before when I was pri 4 but I was out soon coz got so many more are even bigger size and much stronger than me at that time. oh man. ha.) Anyway I didnt win during for my sec 1 is coz of my teacher la.. Coz he never give my class the sign up form to participate. Grrr... Lalalala.. Forget abt it!! ha. I going back to my primary school one of the days to tell my group house teacher. Hahaha. Coz I was once the group house captain when I was primary 6. Haha. I regretted for not doing my best as a leader when I was pri 6. But I did made my teachers proud. Hahah..

Mmm.. This month is April already. Wow.. Times really flies. My birthday is also coming. But this year, Im kinda starting to love my birthday more (probably must be God who trying to change my mindset abt it. Thks, God! ) but still got abit of things that I still cant forget in the past. Sometime I will choose to forget my birthday no matter what coz I dont wanna remember the past years birthday that I had before which hurted me sooo muchhh.... I dont want to say too much details over there about why I hate my birthday. Is so kinda tiring when I talk about it and I also dont know why I will also feel that way. Is like got so much pain and hurt inside me that I cant forget. I tried at times but still cant. Hopefully this year, my birthday gonna be great and awesome. I want a good one this year, so that it can replace all the 10 years of bad birthday that I had. 10 years out of 15 years of my life of bithday that I never been happy. Still waiting for good one. And I know probably some people out there are happy and some may be sad when they come to their birthday. I dont know about you guyz. But you wanna share with me?? or just tell God. Haha. But last year, I did experience some thing that you guyz may not experience in life. But that's quite freaking but I did kinda enjoyed myself. Probably God wanna test me that time. hee. =)

haha. that 's my dad. he's just trying to be "devil". lol. abit childish sia. Oops. =X