woah.. my birthday has juz passed. And the day before my birthday, I was super down. Juz some things had happened at home and I stayed up the whole day and think. But somehow I fell asleep at 5am and woke up at 6am to go to school. Though now I kinda tired, but couldnt get on to bed. And yes, this year my parents finally celebrated my birthday for me but I dont feel happy and make me think alot of things that are in the past. I wanna be strong, but somehow there's alot of missing pieces of a broken heart that I wanna find and to fix it back but I cant find it. I grew up so much.. But yet, so many things are still keeping me in the dark and recently I got to know some of it. And now I really understand why my mum left so many scars in my heart and my memories during my childhood days. I think I really completely forgive her in my heart. I dont blame her for alot of things now.