Last friday, didnt go school. Fell sick after quarreling with my parents about church etc. Juz got terrible headache, flu and cough. Sigh. I went to see a doctor and Cheryl accompanied me. Whee!!! Haha. Wah. I really like the cough syrup sia. Coz can make me go and sleep when I cant . Lolx. If not, I kept thinking alot of things in my mind. I managed to go for Sunday Service today. Haha. Which make me happy enough. Went for altar call today, my pastor want to pray for those who are in depression etc.. And raise up my hand. Wah. And this what I really needed. I kept crying and crying during altar call, and when pastor prayed I really feel something left me. And after that went into praise etc.. At first, feel so kinda difficult to praise but I was telling myself that I must praise no matter what. So when is finished, I really feel better. But inside my heart is still hollow and empty. And I asked myself that am I back to square one again? And so I went to ask my pastor on msn and she said, "No you're not. God may have cut of things in your life, but now its up to you to keep your freedom." And of coz, she explain to me more etc.. Mm.. Wow. Ok, now I get it. But I feel that is so difficult for me not to think abt it. Is like I dont want to think abt it and yet it juz keep popping out in my mind. Mm. I shall juz ignore it again and again. Muz be that dumb and idiotic satan again!!! you juz GO BACK TO HELL LA!!!!!