After Flea Market, Ben, Celeste, Shi Xiong(new fren) and I had our dinner at KFC. I almost puke!! Freaking oily!! Nevermind. Is all because I love BEN YEO then pei him eat de loh. If I die, please help me take revenge. Thank you. Kidding. After dinner, Celeste and Shi Xiong went their ways and Ben and I went to a corner to slack. Guess who did we see? AMELIA SOH!! Hahahaha. EMO GIRL!! She kept saying DOPE!! Damn ANNOYING sia!! Whatever lah. Somewhat I catch up with her.

Ben and I had a long chat. He told me alot of da dao li. Not really da dao li but is all about what he went through etc and he got me shaken up from a deep sleep. Oh man. He taught me how to love myself and I just realised that all these times I never really do anything for myself. I really need to love myself now. Is not about being selfish but... Loving myself = Loving others. If I want to love others, I got to love myself first. If I dont love myself, I can never love others. He told me to come up with a plan of "100's list" for myself. This list is abt what I like, I love, I want, I desire, I dream and I pursue of. Always keep is full, if I fulfiled one then add in another one. It can never be enough in life. Is not abt me pursuing 5Cs which is I dont need it but is all about loving and understanding what I desire of. I want to be very rich. Why? Not so that I can be filthy rich and just spend money on myself. Im rich, I will be successful and when Im successful, I can help the poors. If Im not successful, how am I going to help the poors? How can I be successful? Answer is I got to love myself.

Let us talk about Micheal Dell here. The Dell Computer guy. Why is he so successful? Because he love himself. Do you know that his teacher named him "stupid" just because he cant do well in his studies. He love himself so much that he want to prove to his teacher that he is not stupid. And see? What is he now? He is now a CEO and the founder of Dell, Inc. If he dont love himself, why would he do such a thing to prove others. Right? You guys got to love yourself too. That is why, Im changing my mindset to love myself now.