Haha.. Guess what? I dont know what to post again.. Argh.. Nevermind. Maybe I think you guys wanna know how am I doing. Firstly I dont know whether Im fine anot.. But I guess I am. Sometime I really feel very tired of the things going on at my house. My Parental Objection of coming to church is not my first time.. But this time round, I got alot of hurt & pain going on (esp with my mum). I find it so difficult to forgive a person. Probably due to my personality. Im a Mel-Phleg. Lolx.. But Im in the process of forgiving my mum but the more I forgive her, it does make me hate myself even more(WHY?). Too much hatred inside me?? Maybe. Sometime when my anger hit the boiling point.. I try not to let my anger get out of me because... If not... blah blah (dont have to go further detail, right?). And when the more I dont let it out, then I will start to feel a very strong numbness toward pain.. But you guys dont worry. Coz when I do my piercing, Im not in the bad mood or anything. I just wanted to pierce there.. Haha. If bad memories & heartache compare to all the punching wall & piercings, which one is more painful? I will say bad memories & heartache. It get so long to get heal. Only this is the part, I will feel and find my pain there etc.. Anyway Im going to end here.