Mmm.. let me see. it been few days that I havent post anything on my blog. haha.. me really cant sleep, so decided to post something loh. hm. went out with my parents today. yup. argh.. they kept quarreling.. sigh.. just because of small little things.. lol. then my dad would let my mum win first then slowly he will explain to her nicely. hee. sweet heh? haha. All i want to see is my family to be happy everyday, understanding toward each other, loving, caring and most of all is i want my childhood to be cool and great. I went to look at some of my old photos today. Especially those picture i had with my mum, i never really smile when i take photo with her and i only have a few of pictures with her. and i dont know why. if things can go back again, i would really like everything to change esp my issues with my mum. i dont want any bad memories and scars to be left all inside my mind and heart. Sometime i just dont understand why does parents never think of how their kids feel... (sigh.another long story.) when i was young, i thought when i grow up everything will be alright. i thought the pain and bad memories will disappear as i grow up but i was wrong. sometime is just getting worse. try not to think of it.. but instead it remind me even more things. sigh. i want to get rid of all these pain. i dont want to go on like that. i been trying to forgive my mum but it seem so difficult to forgive her. why izit so difficult to forgive a person? sigh. right now my heart is so pain and yet i dont know how to deal with it.