Wow.. I havent post any blog recently. Mm. ok. Yesterday, just went to watch I not stupid too with almost of my whole school. Is was a great movie. So touching, funny and lame... Lol. Haha. I really remind me of alot of things but I shall not say it here. Mmm.. Im doing fine and great recently, just kept feeling that Im very tired. lol. Need to rest then. Mmm.. I think I really getting to love my cellmates more and more now. I dont know why coz it I dont know how to explain. Hm. Me drinking ice milo now at this timing. Doing some hushing work now and was about to want to do my study hours but somehow this is more important to me. Coz may be partly of my 3rd love language which is Gifts. Lol. Haha. I really learnt alot of my going 2 yrs of my christian life. I learnt to stand firm, to have faith, to honour, to love, to be receptive etc.. Wow. It sound like I have been a long walk about my christian life. But I always think that is not enough. I want to be like pastor and sis von. I want to be great and awesome, I want to do greater stuffs than them. Of coz, not to compare etc.. But we as their next generation disciples should be doing greater stuffs than them. And I know that I havent been doing as much as my "used-to" first work for God. Sometime I really feel guilty. Seeing the new christians are doing better than me and is like Im telling myself that, "No, I need to set an example for them to see." And at times, Im really scare to get reject from my non-christians friends again and again or people that I brought decided not to come anymore. And my heart will break into pieces and then I got to glue it back again like nuts. Argh.. Feel that I need to get myself holy and I want to be a leader. And Im leader in the making. lol. My church wristband thingy. lol. Having headache again. Aiya. And now super duper pain backache, getting worse recently. Thinking to go get a doctor but... I really feel that I dont need but I still have to coz it getting worse. My toe and my ankle are giving me problem too.. Aiyo. So many problems sia. Lol. My mind is going to sleep soon and tomorrow will need to "chong" all the things that are needed to be done. Im feeling very stress now. But yes, I believe that I can do it. lol. Me now missing my friend, Alistair. Ha. Though I talked to him on the phone yesterday. Hee. He's doing fine there. Haha. He calling me to be a kinda SkaterGoth. Lol. Coz there are people in Australia are like that too. Haha. But I guess is still not my time yet but of coz skater is all right. Coz that God's will for me. lol. Mmm.. Loving God more and more every single day. Want to hold His hands and want to hug Him too.. Lolx.. Ok. I think I should stop here then.