Sunday, September 06, 2009

  • My snow leopard is GOOD!!
  • My new camera bag is PRETTY!
  • I took some photo of Orchard Central for AL's mum. I'm getting the hook on photography. I'm loving myself.
  • I spent some time with Cheryl, Nat and Narayan- SHISHA-ING!!! H.A.P.P.Y.!
  • Doing some video editing.. Proud of myself. ( Like a lame uh me -.- )
  • I bought a multi-card reader!
  • I bought a 8GB CF card!
  • My Crocs sandals is out of stock! =(
  • I came out with a draft storyboard; Happy Birthday Video to Cheryl for her upcoming birthday in Dec. (Hopefully I have the time to video and edit it.)
  • I'm saving money!
  • I'm eating lesser somehow... To be healthy for the sake of my........ NEVERMIND!
  • I'm trying to sleep earlier during weekdays to have a balance lifestyle.
  • My relationship with my parents are getting better. Kissing them and hugging them again! =) (What a breakthrough!)
  • AL is coming back in two weeks times.. Missing him. =)
  • Going to hit to AL's house later to pass the OC photo to his mum.
  • Enjoying life!!
  • Getting BUSY BUSIER BUSIEST again! =(
  • Trying to get my heart right for things again.
  • I'm growing up! =)
  • Recently got few designing thingy for me to do in the office! (EXTREMELY HAPPY!)
  • Working part time job for 3- 4 days during F1 period!
  • Trying to cut down but FAILED! =(
  • Going to practice driving with my daddy in awhile time for tomorrow's driving lesson. =)
  • My mind is rewinding... Those.... Memories... That I want to forget it all for once.
  • Wanna go for a long break...
  • I'm missing Shawn Shawn. His birthday was 4 days ago! (AL forget to wish him!! Oei!! Velly lude uh!)
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Tuesday, September 01, 2009

Umbrella By Vanillla Sky

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WOAH!! I really enjoyed myself today. I was first to reach the restaurant. THE REST WAS LATE COS THEY ALL GOT CAUGHT IN THE RAIN! Hahaha. Oops. Well.... Today is a off day! Teachers' Day outing was fun!! We had Yum Cha for lunch at Chinatown. The tim sum is so nice!!!!!!!! Yeah! After lunch.... It's KTV TIME!!!!!! Mr Kenny and Mr Jeremy are so funny!!!!!!!! Mr Kenny chose Jay Chou- Huo Yuan Jia song and they anyhow rap cos it was kinda way too fast then when come to the part of HUO HUO HUO, they sing with passion!!! FAINTED LOH!!!

TOMORROW WILL BE THE DAY OF GETTING BACK TO WORK!!!!!!!

MY SNOW LEOPARD IS NOT HERE YET!! SO SAD!!!!! =(
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Sometimes I just don't get it!
MOST of my time, I don't need you!
Once a while I need and want you because I miss you!
Sometimes I do want to tell you how much you meant to me!
Most of the time, I just want to tell you that you're just way too much!
Most of the time, I hate to go through this process because it is painful!
Most of the time, I wish I shouldn't have know you..
So that my life would be better off without you!
But yet again..
If I wouldn't know you, I wouldn't been this far!

Yes, I can finally see the real truth about this world!
The world is just full of selfish people!
Sometimes you should grab a coffee/tea, sit down and think about how not to be selfish!
Most of the time, you're such a pain in the ass!
Most of the time, you just make me feel like I've been a fool for you!
So much like a fool that I need to go through this bloody pain!
So silly of me investing such a pathetic person like you!
I'm so upset! Can't you tell?!
Oops! I bet you won't cos Joann is long forgotten in your bloody list!
I'm only on your list when..... You need and want me!
Thanks for using me.. Cos I can feel that you're fully using me!
I feel so....... A.P.P.R.E.I.C.A.T.E.D.!!

All these times... I don't know why I have and need to compromise you.
I want to leave you but yet at the same time I can't do it!
I don't know why am I so softhearted.
My heart seem to (always) have a small gap to allow someone to come back..
But I'm so tired..
Tired of being a silly fool!
Tired of getting hurt!
Tired of having mercy on you!
Tired of swallowing the truth about you!
Tired of having you in my life and on my list!

JUST FORGET IT!
You're bringing too much pain to me!
I beg you... Or should I pray that you won't contact me as much/long/often as possible.
The best is you retreat..
I don't want to do the hard way.. The painful way..
Because I still want to have the sweet memories of us being together.

Too bad that I have to blow up on you and at you.
It's my bad, my fault. I apologise. "I'm so sorry, truly sorry."

You = "Friends"
(I'm way too lazy to type 'All of you', 'Them', 'You guys' or anything to do with more than 1 person.)
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ARGHHHHHH!! I'm feeling terrible after having a coffee... Like a.. Wanna puke!!!!! Grrrr!!

Just a while ago... I finished a movie called..... FINAL DESTINATION 4!!!!!! I think is movie is quite good!! And THE PROPOSAL is GOOOoOOoOooD too!! I've been watching too much movie lately!! OH MY TIAN!!! What is wrong with me?! But recently... GOT TONS OF GOOD MOVIES!!! Just a few more to go... PLEASE, JO!! I've haven't been into movies for quite awhile.

I'm feeling so angry somehow somewhat.. But I have no idea why. Or maybe I do but cos... STOP! STOP!! I'm just trying too hard! I'm way too hard on myself. Please I need calmness to be in my life again. Please don't do this to me anymore! I need a break! I can feel that I'm tearing myself a part.
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Sunday, August 30, 2009

Can't Take My Eyes Off You - Lady Antebellum


I know that the bridges that I've burned along the way
Have left me with these walls and these scars that won't go away
And opening up has always been the hardest thing
Until you came

So lay here beside me, just hold me and don't let go
This feeling I'm feeling is something I've never known
And I just can't take my eyes off you
And I just can't take my eyes off you

I love when you tell me that I'm pretty when I just wake up
And I love how you tease me when I'm moody, but it's never too much.
I'm falling fast, but the truth is I'm not scared at all
You climbed my wall

So lay here beside me, just hold me and don't let go
This feeling I'm feeling is something I've never known

And I just can't take my eyes off you
And I just can't take my eyes off you, off you, off you

So lay here beside me, just hold me and don't let go
Oh, this feeling I'm feeling is something I've never known
And I just can't take my eyes off you
And I just can't take my eyes off you
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I.... CANT.... WAIT... TO... GET...
MY... MAC OS X....
SNOW... LEOPARD....!!
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Yesterday I went to ATM to withdraw money.... Guess what? There is no more $50 note.... AND...... Here I go with all the 56 pieces of $10. Actually is 66 pieces but I changed 10 pieces with my bro for 2 $50 notes. I CANT FOLD MY WALLET WITH THESE BUNCH OF NOTES IN IT!!!!!!! Well.... Of cos withdraw so much not for own spending.. Is to pay my bro for the installment of my laptop!!



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Saturday, August 29, 2009

Mobile iNote - Portable Handwriting Capture Device
with handwriting recognition software "MyScript Noteds Lite"

Alley, can we buy this instead? Forget about the digital notepad... But... This is only for windows user. =( Aye.. Can anyone do one for mac user.. PLEASE!!!!!!!


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Friday, August 28, 2009

The busy week is over... Now down to 50% to go for my personal business!! Oh wells.... Alley is coming back soon! Going to do the clear up of our project. =) Few days ago, my H.O.D. just delivered her BABY! So cute! All baby can do is...DRINK MILK, SLEEP, POO and WEE WEE!! So fun!! I wanna BITE BABIES!!!!!!!!! Kidding!!

This week wasn't the busiest week and my life have been sweet to me.. Cheryl, Narayan and friends been dragging me out late night to LEPAK!! Is kinda damn tiring cos after work, you still have to push yourself to stay awake to spend time together. Well.. It's tiring but it's worth spending the time together! We just love to build relationship; Watch movie, eat good & delicious food, hopping onto one another's car and get the "coolest" ride on the road etc... LOVE IT MAN!!

Well... I guess I'm letting go of those friends (one by one) who never even "bother" to find time and spend with their so called.... "Good friend". Sometimes I feel that I just hate them more than I love them. If I can sacrifice to sleep lesser to spend more time with my current group who want to spend time with one another and so... Why can't all my "good friends" do that too? I ain't wanna give my precious time to those friends who doesn't even bother to sacrifice. No wonder..... Everyone is taking everyone for granted. So annoying!

Everyone is about themselves. Like there is no sharing, no giving etc... Everyone just wanna be on the 'RECEIVER' side... Like a what only!!! Aye. What is point of doing so much on a person who only wanna be a 'receiver'.. If is so difficult to please you then I shall forget it! I just had enough of all these nonsense!! Why can't this world be a better place? If you want to be selfish, I will be. I will play fair when I needed to. This group that I'm hanging out with... They may not be perfect but I can see that they are always making the effort to spend time with each other whenever they can. I heard from Cheryl that they have been doing all these for a few years already. Ain't they sweet? Right now.. Checking my memory... I think they are the best group that I ever met up and hang out with. On top of that, I been wishing for a larger group to hang out with!! YEAH! Finally I got ONE!! Can complete with Celeste's group already!! Oops. =X Wells... I'm just so glad that I have Cheryl and my new group of friends!

I just don't want and wish to please people anymore.. It's kinda difficult to be on the bad role but I have to learn how to. I will slowly make this amendment to be part of my life. It's just getting on my nerves when 75% of people around me is making use of me. Just because I'm a "YES" kinda lady..? It does not mean to give you that permission that I can be pushed around. DULAN LAH!!

I'm so tired right now... Off to bed to rest first. Just in case.. Tonight Cheryl and friends will give me a call to pick me up at 2am to go for a ride! Woah!! So cheong hei! But loving my life.. Even if I have to have eye bags or high blood pressure (choy!), I will still accept it!!
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Saturday, August 22, 2009

Hahaha. Chatting with Weiling right now...

Halfway thru, I went "merlion-ing"!! Oops. Cos...... The procedure of me eating my medicine is WRONG!! Here we go...

6 plus pm: I had a early dinner (forgot to bring my medicine).
10pm: I got back home.
10.15pm: I had a piece of biscuit and rest awhile.
11.45pm: Grab my medicine.
12.42pm: I felt (was rather thought was) hungry.
12.44pm: Chat with Weiling on msn.
12.47pm: Brb with Weiling and I went to cook maggie mee.
1.03am: I finished it and wash my bowl.
1.04am: Back to chatting with Weiling on msn.
1.09am: Brb with Weiling and went to the toilet to VOMIT!!
1.14am: I OK ALREADY!

Hmmmm.. -.- SO LAME!! My stomach cant take medicine if there isn't any (enough) food beforehand but I kept forgetting this at times. LOL!
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Monday, August 17, 2009

Here's a song that I want to shout out loud to those "actor/tresses"!!


Broken Man lyrics

I want to scream, until no sound comes out and you've learned your lesson
I want to swallow these pills to get to sleep
So I don't have to make a bad impression

I need to start to be myself
Cause I'm sick of everybody else

I won't let you bring me down
It's here and now I'm breaking out
I will learn to love again
But I will stand a broken man

I wanna run, but only far enough to make you miss me
I wanna take back all the shit that I have done
But I guess you were better off without me

I need to start to be myself
Cause I'm sick of everybody else

I won't let you bring me down
It's here and now, I'm breaking out
I will learn to love again
But I will stand a broken man

I took one big step and I looked away
And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late
I think I'm everything you hate

I took one big step and I looked away
And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late
I think I'm everything you hate

I took one big step and I looked away
And then I thought of all the things that I wanted to say
I'm always too late
You never got your story straight
I'm always up late
I think I'm everything you hate

I won't let you bring me down
It's here and now, I'm breaking out
I will learn to love again
But I will stand a broken man

(I took one big step and I looked away, and I thought of all the things that I wanted to say)
I won't let you bring me down
(I'm always too late, you never got your story straight, I'm always up late, I think I'm everything you hate)
It's here and now I'm breaking out
(I took one big step and I looked away, and I thought of all the things that I wanted to say)
I will learn to love again
(I'm always too late, you never got your story straight)
But I will stand a broken man
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I wish.. I wish...
I WISH TO....
GET RID OF THOSE PEOPLE
IN MY LIFE!!
I want to get older.... FASTER!!
So that my life can be more stabilised.


No longer wanna think of these people. No longer wanna spend time and effort on people who are pretenders. No longer wanna bother these people who I've spent time on and invested love in them. I need to break free and break even on what I can, get and wish for. I guess I just wanna protect myself. No longer wish to get hurt by family, friends and people around me. I cant even bear to see people getting hurt anymore... I guess is time to let go of those people who tried too/very hard to invest love and time in me. To stop all these pain... I guess is to cut off anything from these people that "TRY" too hard. Thanks for all these love and time. I really appreciated it but to think again... I guess no one really appreciated anything from anyone. So... Just forget it! Life is like that... So "real" that you have to accept the reality! HOLY CRAPS! Everything, everyone is...... SO REAL!! So REAL that you can see their TRUE COLOURS!! Every man will always be about himself. Everyone is selfish! Forget it, Jo! That is why people always says, "No one can be trusted especially on this earth."

Anyway thank you for all creating such good "script" in some part of my life because of you.. Now my mind totally can see your true rainbow colours about how you portrayed it. I guess you're a fabulous actress! Congrats! I guess you've secretly won the "BEST OSCAR AWARD" of the year! *clap*clap* TOTALLY LOVIN' IT! Cheers to my fair lady! And that's not all, the rest of you that are in my life had also won the "Best Supporting Actor/tress too! A big HOORAY to you guys, and girls. Muack muacks!
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Woah. Finally today is my resting day. I've been busy with so much work!

Last week was a crazy week!! City College's 2 days- Carnival was very successful! Very fun! I posted video on facebook. FUNNY!! WOOHOO!!! Yesterday, I went to escape theme park with Cheryl, Narayan and her friends. So fun!! We sat pirate ship till Cheryl and I got motion sickness!! So scary! I can sit anything but pirate ship!!! Lol.

Im loving Cheryl very much. =) I'm so glad to have her. She knew that I would be very busy last friday which was the first day of carnival and she cooked fried rice for me and delivered to my office!! WOAH!! I'm totally touched, loving her and her fried rice. I dont really have favourite food but I lovesssssssssss FRIED RICE alot!! Hahaha. The ingredients was like..... TONSS!! Hahaha. I eat till damn song but I couldnt managed to finish it cos I drank a lot of water before that. But I really appreciated her love for me. =) Teehee!! I need to find time for myself!!!
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Tuesday, August 11, 2009

I cant help my mind to stop thinking of....

Work
Holidays
Meeting up with Cheryl (though I had fun with her and company over the weekends)
Continue the project with AL
Saving money
Spending money on camera and equipments

ARGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

And today........ I saw a quote on someone's t-shirt when I was getting my breakfast. "Worry is a misuse of imagination." Oh well... I guess Im just being paranoid... Cos my colleague is going to have her maternity leave in about 1 week time........... I maybe going to be busy, extremely busy... I need to stretch my capacity now!!!!!!

Poor Debra... She's still sick... Had been spending days with her bed!!!! Hahaha. Oh well.. Sayang lah. We go out soon k? Drink water, my lady. And I really mean plenty of it.

And yes, I have my appointment with Sy too.
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Happy are those who dream dreams and are ready to pay the price to make them come true.
-Leon J. Suenes
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Friday, August 07, 2009

Sometimes I just wanna study.
Im just feeling upset.
I wanna take a deep deep breathe for my lungs to function!
Hoping life can be sweeter with what I want to study.
Wish to further study to improve my knowledge of designing.
Wanna go out of this small town to a smaller place to have a space of my own.
Loving life but hardly making the big steps to go against my people.

Oh wells....
I need to do my design for EC and my business but Im so weary to do anything now.
I just need to sit down and have 'heart to heart' talk to someone.
I've been in a 'Non-stop' working movement.
Calculating like mad for some money matters..
Today, I held a pencil, paper and measuring tape...
Drawing structure for measurement.
Measuring dimension after dimension...
Loving it cos I'm good at it but wanna have a short break.... Ain't having it.

Anyway I'm missing you.
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Sunday, August 02, 2009

DAMN IT! My parents back on their words again!!!!! Cheryl and I already booked the bloody air tickets and accommodation to Bangkok and you know what they said when I want to get my passport from them? They said, "NO!!" NABEI!!! What they want from me?

I NEED A BREAK! A BLOODY SHIT BREAK!! I NEED TO BREAK AWAY FROM YOU GUYS!!
I JUST DONT WANT TO FACE YOU GUYS FOR 4 FULL BLOODY DAYS LAH!!! GRRRRRRRR!

I explained every single thing to them nicely abt why I want to have a break etc... But they dont get what I mean. Especially my idiotic dad! Thanks for everything, DAD! I serious have the urge to end my life!! Cos I cant breathe anymore. Im suffocating!! 1st: Tried destroying my dream. 2nd: Want to chain me up?! 3rd: ???? What's next??


I WANT TO THREATEN EVERYTHING, EVERYONE IN MY LIFE NOW!!!
(Beware of Joann)
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Saturday, August 01, 2009

I finally say it... Everything out to my dad!!!!!!!

I've just released all my grudges and unhappiness of my family out to him. I spoke some logical sense to him and he replied me, "Whatever you're saying right now are rubbish!" But I know what's going on in his mind. His mind is packed with my words. Actually I love them very much, in fact- to the fullest but I no longer showing it cos Im angry with them. And of cos when you're angry with adults, you will be very unreasonable and disrespectful, right?

Well... We just made a promise and hope that we can keep the promise forever (even though I don't believe there is such thing called forever in this world). Hopefully from today onward if we keep up with our promise, I will slowly let go of the pain that they created for me and also hope that their angriness toward me for not respecting them will be fading away too. I'm feeling much better right now... I guess. =)
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Wednesday, July 29, 2009

Will you accept a salary that offer you- S$1200?


HELLO!! Now is recession, not recess time loh!!!
Is the time to take and accept!! Not to spend!!!!!!!
What's wrong with the young people nowadays?
Very low meh? SAVE LAH!
DONT SPEND SO MUCH!!

Aiya. Just start from small. Be humble a little. It wont kill you.

Anyway anyone want to have a full time job at $1200?
Job cope: Paper work? Admin lah!!!!!
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OH MY GOD!!!!!! Im so so annoyed by someone yesterday!!

She was my secondary school senior's sister!!

Few years back, she got to know me on friendster and she added me, so I accepted her request. She pestered me for months and months to be her friend and meet her in real person. And yes, we made that appointment but she made me waited for an hour plus and I kept calling her but she didnt pick up her phone for like a million timessssssssss.. So I damn dulan and went off without letting her know. She called me and apologised with blah blah reasons!! Oh well.. That's it!!!

Few years after...... I accidentally added her!!!!!!! FAILURE ME!! I IDIOT!! AND Ooo Mmm Geee!! She's pestering me again. She damn self pitying siol. She said everyone dislikes her etc... At first, I was very nice and asking her why and ever go and find out the real reason. She replied me - "No one is perfect." Grrrrr!!!! I finally picked up the courage and say it in her face! "It is because you have LOW EQ! Dont be so insecure. No one like self pitying people." She total never reply me already. WOAH! Shiok!! I never felt a single bit of badness after telling her the truth!!

And yesterday... She kept asking me to add her in facebook when we already have each other in our list. Then I like........... REPEAT 10 MILLIONSSS TIMEEEESSSSSS!!!!!!!!! She still say, "Add me."

I.G.N.T.S.!!!!!!


#^&*(%$ DULAN LAH!!
NOW I BLOCKED HER & DELETE HER ON MY MSN!!
IM GOING DELETE HER IN FACEBOOK NOW!!!!!!!
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Tuesday, July 28, 2009

HI EVERYONE!!!

I got a new handphone no. 91156086. You still can get me on my 1st one. I will be using both till I decided to stop one. So please take note of the number!!!!! Thank you!!
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Monday, July 27, 2009

I slept for the longest time! About 12 hours! Due to.... Outing with Cheryl and friends. Oh well.. But I kept waking up in the middle of the night to.... Ai! I kanna food poisoning!!! Woke up at 9am, thinking to go for a jog but my mum wouldn't allow cos I'm not feeling well. So I just stayed home to watch 3 movie!!

1) Ice Age 3 - I think not as good as 1 & 2.
2) Up - This is the best 3D animation movie! So touching. I kept tearing.. Worth to watch!
3) Deuce Bigalow: European Gigolo - FUNNY!!!

Going for dinner soon. CIAO!
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I love what my friend, Wei Ling post on this on her blog.

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Sunday, July 26, 2009

Sometimes...

I just feel Cheryl is the best person to brighten up your day especially when you're down. The best place to go is Alistair's house especially when you want to de-stress, stay focus, love life etc. Plus I also can get to learn new stuffs from AL which make me feel good in life and about life. Ben is the best at 'heart to heart' chit chat kinda guy when you've been bottling up too much things in life.

I just feel that life has been good to me. I may or may not appreciate everything in life but at least I'm grateful that I'm still alive- breathing, exploring the world. I cannot control every single thing in life but I can change myself- My belief, my strengths, my weakness, my heart and my mind. We're bound to make mistakes, careless mistakes, screw up our lives, ruin friendship, ruin relationship with loved ones etc..

But I just wanna say.. Even I've already come to a point of feeling that having a friend in life doesn't make any different cos I believe that one man alone can live by himself. Just having one another is just helping you to lighten your burdens, sorrows and which is quite nice to get some weigh off from your shoulders. For sure, I can't say that friends are not important to me but it's just no longer first in priority, not even family or anyone right now. Something for sure- About 99.99%, I wouldn't want to lose Cheryl for sure cos I think she's the best among all my friends. I'm not saying that the rest are not good but for Cheryl, she have come to a point that she wont leave me out for the good things that she's holding onto herself. She may seem to give wrong impression to others most of the time but when you get to know her, your perspective will definitely change for the better. I don't remember I have to compromise her so much to make her happy. I feel 10 times better when I'm with her than hanging out than anyone else. Naturally she is happy by herself, she feel for people and that is the most important thing that I see in friends. She is sensitive enough and capable to make people feel comfortable about her.

I thought I no longer will love any of my friends as I used to before but I guess she's the only one in my mind that I really want to invest my time and love. I don't think there will be another "second Cheryl" cos sometime one is more than enough. I love you, Cheryl. =)
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WOOHOO!! I've finally done with my drafting for my project calendar! I've been hoping to see AL online but I have no idea where have he melted to lah!!!!!! $!@#$%^&*( Cos I want to send him the draft thru msn/skype!!!!! DULAN LAH!! WHERE ARE YOU?! But Im happy that another of my work load is completed!! Anyway I already dropped your mum the draft. Hope that she'll receive soon.

I haven't get to sleep yet. Oh wells.... COS CHERYL, NARAYAN AND NARAYAN'S FRIENDS BROUGHT ME OUT FOR CAR RIDING LAST NIGHT!!!!! It was so fun and eye opening!! It's kinda cool to have a group of friends like that. Loving it!!!! Lol. We went tons of places. And I guess Im feeling alot better. On top of all these, I met up with Nat and Ben too! Saturday was kinda fully scheduled for me! Cheers!

IM ADDICTED TO THERE FOR TOMORROW'S SONG!!!!!!
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Friday, July 24, 2009

THERE IS DEADLINE THIS WEEK END:
MY PROJECT CALENDAR
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Tuesday, July 21, 2009

I'm just wondering........... Have I been....... Hard on myself? Way too hard to myself. Are my expectation too high? I've dropped it to the lowest.. Toward myself and others. I just have big dreams and that is what I left in me. May be very unreality to others but I believe that I can make it even if the world don't believe in me. So what even if I fail and went berserk one day. I'm happy to say that I've dreamt of what I want and compared to others who didn't dream what they want and can dream of.

Well.. Is okay. Everything is gonna be just fine. I'm just questioning myself.
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Came back home... Just feeling wanting to relax. I dont want to think about work cos I have tons of them again, feeling a little lousy today. I didn't had any scoldings or whatever at work. I'm bottling everything again; feeling like as if it is cracking soon. I don't really like saying this most of time... "I can't stand people misunderstand me." I'm not perfect. I may not be getting your instructions right but please do understand me- My mind just can't put all your instructors into this linkage. I'm truly sorry. Instructions maybe so detailed that even a dumbo can understand but well.. At times, I really just cant. My mind just couldn't link it all up. I'm trying to fix that. Please be patient with me. I just need more time to deal with it.
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Monday, July 20, 2009

I woke up in the late morning. I guess I had a good rest last night. I worked for 12 hours yesterday. I managed to clear tons of work on hands. I still have few more to go. Im glad that I feel lighten up now. =) I went out to jog and practiced my shot put throw at Toa Payoh Stadium. Im so so so happy to grab the metal ball again. But so sad that my furthest throw was 5.3m. My best record in secondary school was 6.8m. =(

I actually had a mini dream and is to play at SEA Games. BUT THEY DONT EVEN HAVE SHOT PUT IN SEA GAMES LAH!! Damn sian. Olympic Games have shot put..... But.... The best record is....... 20m plus. OH MY GOD!! How to challenge that lady lah?!! I think Singapore's best record is 12m plus. Im only half way there. =( I love sports day!! That is the day that I feel the best of the best of myself.

WOOHOO!! Im watching Rachael Ray Show now!! I love her!!
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Sunday, July 19, 2009

OH MY GOD!!!!!!!! Look at this video!!
It's called the Pygmy jerboa.



Ehh.. Hamster face with a pair of Kangaroo legs?! Soooooo CUTE!!
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Friday, July 17, 2009

Few minutes ago........

There is a guy added me on facebook who basically have no common sense. Because he asked me for my name for 3 times and when my name have already appeared right in front of his eyes....... LIKE 4 TIMES!!!

1) Before adding me....
He can see my name!

2) Before sending me a personal msg....
He can definitely see my name!

3) Before writing on my profile wall...
He can ****ing see my name!

4) Before replying my comment about his invitation...
HE CAN ****ING FAGGOT SEE MY NAME!!!


AND WHAT NOW?!!!!!!!
HE IS STILL ASKING
FOR MY NAME!!!

DULAN LAH!!!


Ehhh.. Excuse me, Sir.
Are you blind or something?
Or you used to play too much CS (Counter Strike)
till you have no CS (Common Sense)?
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Tuesday, July 14, 2009

I'm almost getting my project done for the real drafting. I'm loving my job- my business. I guess I just learned a lot of things for these passed few month especially in CHEC. EC is really a training ground. Sometime things isn't easy to go through. Yeah. And sometimes I kinda sacrificed a lot of not sleeping early but I guess I charged a lot energy during my weekends too.

Well. I'm glad that I'm Joann. I'm happy that things are difficult for me in my life. I'm happy to not to have some people or too many friends in life cos I guess it will just get me so distracted and confused of what I really want. I'm happy that I'm single and have a carefree lifestyle; it just get me so stable and focus of what I really wanna do. I no longer can imagine my life involving- taking care of friends, family, loved ones or whatever craps. I need to take care of myself. I used to "sacrifice" so much and forgotten to love myself and now it led me to bitterness. I need to get rid of my bitterness by loving myself, spending time alone and find what I really love. Don't get me wrong, I still love my friends, family etc but just that I feel that they need to step up to their level to take care of themselves. Everyone can live alone by themselves. You don't really need anyone, you can do just fine all by yourself. Having one another is making and helping things to get easier.

Yes, I can't deny that I'll come to a point of loneliness but I'm doing just fine. Why am I like that? I want to be able to love myself before I can love others. Cos for me, loving others is easy. Thus, it has been in me all along and it won't disappear. Big problem for me is that I can't love myself. Once I get this right, I will love others once again. I'm secured about myself (of cos not 100%), that why I don't need anyone right now to add colour my life. Alley and I have been out to town, working and we been seeing everyone involving into boy/ girl relationship and he turned to me and said, "We're really missing out heh?" Oh well. Maybe, maybe not. I have no ideas. I've seen too much failure relationships and it get me 99.99% of NO interest into all these nonsense.

Ask yourself few questions about boy/ girl relationship.
- Do you have the commitment?
- Do you really know the true meaning of commitment?
- Can you stay faithful in these lustful & sinful world?
- Why do you want/ need to get another one?
- Can you predict the future when you have your one?
- Can you be financially doing well?

Oh well. Whatever to anything and any craps! I guess I can't fit in any shit of the list above cos I can't give my 100% to anything. Why? Cos I don't believe in not hurting anyone, so to prevent all these hurtings, I won't love anyone. Loving someone is = to hurting someone. I'm gonna end here.

Anyway I'm happy that I found a phone today and I returned it to the owner. I believe returning it to the owner than having it myself. I can't imagine myself not returning it. Cos I want my lost items* to be returned to me too.

When you're in love, love will become illogical- You will and can do anything for love.
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Monday, July 13, 2009

Lol. Im at Alley's guest room right now. We just came back from supper!! Im hitting bed soon. lol. And he is leaving in abt less than 24 hours. =( Damn sian! I also wanna further my studies. Im really feeling so stucked in Singapore. In Singapore: No qualification = No futher studies. So what lah! I am slow in learning all these academic studies cannot uh?! @#$%^&*( DULAN LAH!! I want to get out of Singapore asap. PLEASE SAVE ME!

Oh wells.... Im glad that Im feeling a lot better than before about everything in life, only know that Im tired. Hahaha. AL thinks that I can never be tired. He is trying to tell me that I've been lying about my tireness all these times. Ha. Yea yea. So how now how? Not physically tired lah, is MENTALLY tired!! Hello!! I aint a robot hor! I wanna go holidays! Finally parents agreed to allow me to go holis but need to jio alot of people along then can go. Aiyo. So ma fan!!

ARGHHHHHHH!!!!!! MY FTT!!!!!!! TOO BUSY FOR FTT!! Faggot driving license!! Oops! LET ME PASS!!! Next week, I will go take my trial mode again!!!!! I want to buy studio apartment! I want DSLR camera! No, I want a digital note pad!! I want to buy tons of designing stuffs! I need to master dreamweaver and flash!! So that I can do my website for my company. Oh my goodness!! Am I dying soon? Heaven to be on earth, please!!!!!!!!! I need a peaceful mind to deal with what I need to complete!!

OKAY! OFF TO BED!! K.O.!
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Sunday, July 12, 2009

I wish I wish... ARGHHH!!! Nevermind!! I need something to numb myself for awhile. Im just way too exhausted. My mind, my thoughts and my ideas are all over the place. I cant wait to save tons of money to buy DSLR Sony Camera. I need it for my business. Im going nuts!!

I headed down to church yesterday. I just wanted to hear a little bit of the word of God. I left early to meet Alley to deal with our business. Yes, our clients finally made up their mind of what they want. Hooray!! Now my job is to do a real draft out to let my clients have the feel of what is it like. Oh my. I cant wait. I want to go to F1 but Im still thinking should I spend that amount to watch a not. Nevermind. I still time to think about it.

Anyone wanna go drinking with Jojo? No pub, no club. Just grab a beer at 7-11 and lepak one corner pls!!!!! Lol. Oh well.... My business partner is going back to Aussie in 2 days times. =( Sigh. Come back soon. Im really tired. I shall go to bed now. Bye.
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Saturday, July 11, 2009

Hahhaa. Let's talk about my life for a moment. Lol.

Yeah yeah. I've been busy with my full time job & my business project. Alley and I are extremely tired. Ehh.. We are seriously tired. He have his school work to deal with and I have my full time job to deal with too. I worked in the day and in the night when I get home- I cant rest, I need to continue my designing. Oh my tian!! It is not easy to have 2 jobs. Work hard, guys!!

I'm glad that at least we were so busy, we still find time to chill a little. We went to watch movie- Transformers 2, Drag me to Hell and Transformers 2 again (of cos, different days). Lol. Oh well.. Alley and I talked about it before- No matter how busy we are, we need to find time to relax or de-stress ourselves. It is because this is very important especially doing designing and stuffs. You need to have stable mind to be able to think and flow with the creativity world. Next time, our company- We will buy PS3 (probably PS10 will be out by then) or some games to chill. Cos main thing is that I personally I dont wish to see one of my employee - Suddenly cant take it anymore and start throwing my computers or mess up my studio out of nowhere. Lol. It can be quite scary. I can understand why so many artists went ku-ku in their lives. This is all because they dont allow themselves to relax or de-stress.

Yes. I dont really believe in this thing which is called stress! Cos stress is actually like you created it by yourself? Is either you're feeling tired or just need a break from work/school. So probably should try telling yourself- NOT TO SAY TOO MUCH STRESS OUT FROM YOUR MOUTH!! Lol.


ARGGHHH!! ANGRY!!
I've been giving in a lot to what you want to say. Im seriously disliking it. Im just bearing with you. Count yourself lucky! Cos I've tried very hard to respect you.
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Guess what guys? I found out that Im so so so lazy to post up TBG photos or anything with my life or whatsoever.

Yeah! I seriously been busy, tired and...... Ehhh.. But managed to find time to hang out with Alistair. Of cos we need to grab hold of every opportunity to spend time and work. He dont come back from Aussie like... as if it is like... Everyday? So yeah. We just finished watching Transformers!! We watched it twice!! Lol. I accidentally fell asleep at the last part when optimus prime was abt to revive. Oops!! Too tired la. That's why.

And yes, I always wanted to say this...... And finally I grab a photo to compare both Debra and Alistair.... THEY LOOK SO ALIKE, RIGHT?! Lol.













*Ahem* Alley, I guess I've just found your long lost sister. Pls thank me for that. Hahaha.

Sorry for posting such random topic!!
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Saturday, July 04, 2009

Oh my goodness. Im ultimately & extremely exhausted. I've been working for long hours; work at EC and doing my project for my business with Ally. Oh my tian! I cant hold my eyes lid any longer but I still wanna do a post. I missed blogging and I missed about all my updates, complaining, whining etc.. I have tons of photos to upload abt TBG and my projects for my company. Aiyo. But I cant find a longer time to spend with my blog. Poor bloggy. I miss you.

Ally and I are half way through for our project. We need to do a draft on monday!! Luckily due date is at the end of Sept. =) Yeah. We kinda still have that time. He will be back again by Sept and most probably I will go F1 with him too. Yeah. Kinda doing our business again and trying to get exposure to such event cos we have a goal to hit!!

Oh well. I will update more about my business when it comes along. Alright?

I've been spending my time fully especially this week. Yeah. And few days back, I accidentally bumped into someone and........ Sigh... She was so disappointed of what I did. Her face expression... OH MY TIAN!! I want to commit suicide lah. I can never remove it in my mind. It kept running through my head and I decided to stop lah. Im not perfect but I tried my very best not to pick it up again. CHEERS!

Im seriously going to say this. Is no big deal but oh well... Im seriously missing r.n., just probably no courage to go. But yet again, Im not freeing up myself to go too, been stucked with work for passed few weeks when I was missing r.n.. I've always wanting to drop by but it just so happen that office is locking up the place soon, no one is there, no one pick up the phone etc.. Aiya. Just shut up to me lah.
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