Sometimes...

I just feel Cheryl is the best person to brighten up your day especially when you're down. The best place to go is Alistair's house especially when you want to de-stress, stay focus, love life etc. Plus I also can get to learn new stuffs from AL which make me feel good in life and about life. Ben is the best at 'heart to heart' chit chat kinda guy when you've been bottling up too much things in life.

I just feel that life has been good to me. I may or may not appreciate everything in life but at least I'm grateful that I'm still alive- breathing, exploring the world. I cannot control every single thing in life but I can change myself- My belief, my strengths, my weakness, my heart and my mind. We're bound to make mistakes, careless mistakes, screw up our lives, ruin friendship, ruin relationship with loved ones etc..

But I just wanna say.. Even I've already come to a point of feeling that having a friend in life doesn't make any different cos I believe that one man alone can live by himself. Just having one another is just helping you to lighten your burdens, sorrows and which is quite nice to get some weigh off from your shoulders. For sure, I can't say that friends are not important to me but it's just no longer first in priority, not even family or anyone right now. Something for sure- About 99.99%, I wouldn't want to lose Cheryl for sure cos I think she's the best among all my friends. I'm not saying that the rest are not good but for Cheryl, she have come to a point that she wont leave me out for the good things that she's holding onto herself. She may seem to give wrong impression to others most of the time but when you get to know her, your perspective will definitely change for the better. I don't remember I have to compromise her so much to make her happy. I feel 10 times better when I'm with her than hanging out than anyone else. Naturally she is happy by herself, she feel for people and that is the most important thing that I see in friends. She is sensitive enough and capable to make people feel comfortable about her.

I thought I no longer will love any of my friends as I used to before but I guess she's the only one in my mind that I really want to invest my time and love. I don't think there will be another "second Cheryl" cos sometime one is more than enough. I love you, Cheryl. =)