These few days have been a tiring moment. Facing my dad for something that I can't take it anymore. My life have always been on a roller coaster ride. Well. I have no idea on how am I feeling. Im just feeling exhausted at times. But well... Im glad that my exhaustion is not causing me on giving up my life or anything. I feel like taking a break and well.. Again I have no idea on how should I move on from here. Im feeling so stuck without my passport.

I seriously love my parents but at the same time, my heart has grown cold for them. I cant melt this ice in my heart. I come to a stage that Im so afraid to be a parent myself. Seeing how am I brought up is so scary. Im always living in poverty (Let's not compared with those african or china kids lah), quarrels, fights, abusive moments, etc.. I may not come from the worst family but... Well... Sigh. Im maybe weak or what so ever. Different families have different situation and level of problems. Is ok. I do really feel like leaving my parents for awhile. Probably just wanting to be alone without family members. 

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And yes, Im very happy on 3 June 09!!!!! Im feeling very excited!! Alistair and I started our business; an advertisement business which both of us shared the same dream. The coolest part is that we have a project due in September. He is also coming back at the end of the month! I shall not say any further but Im bloody happy and now what I know from him is that... Whenever he is pissed, bad mood, mood swings etc.. His words cannot be truly take in cos he admitted that, that is the only moment when he could vexed out all his anger. NABEI!! At me uh? And Im always the one who clean your dirt for you lah! YOU HAPPY NOW UH?! Ok. So all those words that come out from his mouth about him- Dont want to come back Singapore... Dont want these and that.. Blah blah blah. ARE ACTUALLY ALL FAKE!! Ok. Ehh. Excuse me, sir. Would you like to go for some counseling? Hahaha. Is ok. Now I understand and I forgive you, Mr Chia Wei Hao Alistair. Love ya. =)

Let's move on with our plans. Im looking forward for you to come back. =) Cheers!