I have issues. Big issues; Im angry about everything, just plainly frustrated. I seriously got no idea why am I like that. Sigh. Day by day, Im moving on cos I know I have dream.
Here's coming my whining sessions:
I cant sleep when Im tired.
When Im tired, Im damn high.
When Im damn high, I want to sleep.
When I want to sleep, I cant relax.
When I cant relax, my migraine will act up.
When my migraine start to act up, I will whine.
When I start to whine, I'll get crazy abt everything in my life.
When I get crazy abt everything in life, I will be angry with people.
When Im angry with people, I hold onto grudges.
When I held onto the grudges, I will turn nasty.
When I turn nasty, I couldnt understand why am I like that.
When I cant figure out what's wrong with me, I will find time to spend time with myself and grab a coffee to calm myself down.
When I finally got myself calm down, I will start to dream about my future.
When Im possessive about dreaming my future, I will begin to smile through out the day.
When I start smiling, I thank God for who I am, where I am at now and how my future is going to be.
Im perfectly fine in my life- even though I no longer have strong relationship with my "Dad". Im so sorry to say about this. Yes, I still pray at times but I no longer feel and want to be faithful in my relationship with Him for now. Im just too upset with people around me. Man fail man but God doesnt. Well.. Too bad, my relationship with people dont seem to be sweet, so neither I want mine with God too. My purpose in life is not out there to please anyone and guess what? I've been doing that too much in my life. That's why Im so pissed and angry in this season of my life. Well. I bet this anger gonna last for a long time. Sweet. =]
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