A Day full of WORDS!!

Im so childish.
I havent grown up.
Im so crazy.
Im happy.
Im so sad.
I get disappointed easily.
I have high expectation.
I break promises as their promises to me are ugly to me too.
Im not the way I should be today.

I love money
I love arts.
I love designs.
I love caps.
I love jackets.
I love theatre drama.
I love music.
I love tattoos.
I love piercings.
I want to live a luxury life.
I want to mend things for whoever I hurt.
I want to mend my relationship with my family.
I want to mend my relationship with my God.
I want to be blind sometime so that I could listen for once.
I want to be dumb so that I wont argue for once.
I want to be a robot at times so that I will do what's being told.
I want to be famous and rich.
I want to learn german.
I want to go germany.
I want to feed the german street kids.
I want to be a business woman.
I want to be humble.
I want to travel around the world.
I want my own house.
I want to own tons of houses in other countries.
I want to have a room of mine.
I love myself for spending time alone with myself.
I love myself for spending time with my loved ones.
I love myself when I can manage to sleep.
I love myself for finding out who am I.
I love myself for being a good planner at times.
Im a fan of Adolf Hitler.
I used to be a fan of Jay Chou. (wah lau. this is random).
I used to be a fan of Eminem.
I listen to Marilyn Manson's songs.
I want to find a time to spend time with arts.
I want to find a time to do stop motion animation.
I want to find a time to come out with my script and storyboard for my stop motion.
I want to find myself so that I can get to know myself better.
I want my future to be happening now.
I want to be a designer.
I want to be one of the coolest people on earth.
I want to hit into the marketplace.
I want to write random songs.
I want to play drums.
I want to do disc jockey.
I miss skateboarding.
I miss you.
I miss you.
I miss you.
I miss you.
I miss you, you, you and you.
I miss spending time with just Xiaoli alone.
I want to have a 4 room HDB flat.
I want to have a fish tank with fishes in there.
I want to have a F&B cum clothing line shop.
I would like to have Ben & Jerry right now.
I would like Alistair to be back in Singapore.
I would like to go to London to further studies.
I would like to have a diploma cert at NAFA in Design & Media (Advertising).
I would like to have a BA (Hons) cert at NAFA in Visual Communication with Business.

I have tons of pride in me.
I hate myself for not speaking the truth.
I hate myself for keeping things too much.
I hate my failures.
I hate myself for losing my beliefs.
I hate myself for losing to myself.
I hate myself for not being forgiving to my parents.
I hate myself for not being the nicest people around.
I hate myself for not being hardworking enough.
I hate myself when my season of insomnia is in the process...
I hate myself for hurting my parents.
I hate myself for hurting my friends with no reason.
I hate myself for avoiding everyone around me.
I hate to be in debts. (Lol. But Im always not in debt except "one" now.)
I hate to owe my tithes. (Im sorry, God. I didnt have faith to tithe. That's why I stopped tithing.)
I hate to live in a 3 room HDB flat.
I used to smoke and Im back with it again. (damn it!)
I feel like taking dope but Im not. (A moron choice, if I do.)
**** those who dont like studying.
**** those who dont like be successful in life.
**** those who dont like be rich.
**** those who dont plan their future.
**** those who indirectly dragging people down with them to be a failure.
**** those who dont think for others.
Eat this ******* shit for being a bastard.
Eat this ******* shit for being a bitch.

Lol. Im so tired right now. But Im kinda happy that I seem to have more positive than negatives. Oh wells.... Yeah. Silly is the word to be described on me for the day.