17 April 2009
After work, I supposed to meet my cg mates for dinner for Daryl's bday celebration but I didnt went in the end cos I received a call from Ben.

Ben: JO!! Where are you?!
Me: Just end work loh. Why?
Ben: Bran and I want to celebrate your bday first. We go Sahara.
Me: What?! Now?!
Ben: You cant say no. It's a must to go. I dont care.
Me: Ehhh..
Ben: Okay! BYE BYE!! Cya later.
Me: Okay. Okay. Bye.

So after hanging up, I went back home to bath and change and meet them at Sahara. Jack came too. To my surprise, RQ, JJ, Vic, Ben Ee, one more guy (I forgot his name. Oops =X ) came. Well.. We drink and shisha there like crazy. RQ, JJ, Vic, Ee and "unknown" left first. Ben, Bran, Jack and I continued drinking like mad and we also went to the nearby Mac to grab some burgers to eat. Cos Bren and I were having empty stomach before we even starting on our drinks.

Well. Im happy that somehow somewhat someone celebrated my bday. But I wasnt really happy at the end of the day. Cos that faggot Benjamin Yeo got drunk!! Cant you believe it?! DRUNK!! DRUNK LEH!!! How can this be?! He can drink like a camel and he dont get drunk easily but yet last night... Last night.. I drank more than him and yet I wasnt drunk. For the f****** first time, I can only say this is my first time seeing Ben so drunk. I dont know for what sake. I seriously have no idea what has gone up to his brains. Come on!! I swear I will never ever allow anyone to get drunk on my bday celebration again. Okay. Last night, Jack and Bran were high too but the most they are 50%-60% tipsy. But Ben was like 80% dying lah!!! WTH!! Merlion-ing like free loh!!

We hailed a cab. Bran, Ben and I got onto the same cab and Jack's on another. On our way home, I was damn pissed in the cab abt him, blathering non-stop abt.... Sigh.. If you're so painful being in love then forget abt it lah.. Thank you for rattling so much. I just dont understand what's wrong with you. When you used to tell so much and sayang me when I was down. Use it on yourself to make yourself once again to be able to stand up on your feet. I dont like to see the weak Ben Yeo. Well. I seriously bear the whole entire ride cos probably Ben is really in his lowest point of time. I sent him to his house and slept over at his place to take care of him and clean up his shoes. When I was in his room and he told me- "Jo, do you know how much I love Fiona? I love her very much. Very." And I repiled him unknowingly, "Just be glad that at least you cherish her. So what even if you get the status for the sake of it, the main point is- Have you really cherish her all these times? That is the best thing you can ever own."

Well. After recalling that I said to him, he allowed me to understand something at the end of the day. And I finally realised my real mistake in the past. I never really use to cherish what I used to have/own before. I lose what I lost. Is okay. Is just another part of learning in life, you make mistake and you will grow from it. At least, I can say- Im keeping my real live movie abt my life nicely in my memories. Sweet. Thks Fr Th Mmrs. =)