HOLY CRAPS!! This morning, Irene sms me and told me they are back from New York. The reason they went there because Sunni intended to relocate there. MAD PEOPLE ON EARTH! Speechless but I'm glad that they are back.

Sometimes life is disgusting.. Well.. I'm not talking about my life. Generally I just felt very disgusted with people who don't work hard but want money to come in hand so easily. Yes, we have our lazy moments but I don't think it should be a long period kinda moment. Well.. My generation people are just very spoilt.. Including me. Cos now.. I have the habit of wanting my dad to pick me up after work.. So to save money on transportation.

I guess my generation really "abused" our parents too much. Right now, my parents are making me feeling.. Life is getting tougher as you grow older. The worse part is when you started to earn your own money, they really kinda washed their hands off from you.. To make you learn how to survive. I really appreciated their "plans" but again... Still.. Sometimes... I really wanna give up. There are two things that motivate me to go on are when I see most of my friends are still relying on their parents for a living.. It's just make me stronger in a way. Secondly, I have Jie & AL to motivate me; AL is rich but he don't rely on his parents which most of the rich kids are not like that anymore. The best is Jie have already build a strong foundation that even if she don't have her dad to support her, she still can live and much better than what her dad can provide her. I really admire them very much. So I always tell myself not to rely on my parents so much. Yes, there are many times I need my parents' help but maybe they know that I can pull through.. So they make it tougher for me.

I'm really tired somehow.. But I know I can pull this through and it will make me stronger. I must enjoy this process; suffer now and enjoy it later in life. =)

I guess it been awhile since blogging.. Well.. I think I will move on with the Sunni's issue for now.. Cos I don't want held it for long as I'm thinking to further studies; my dreams. Right now, I have no money and didn't have good results for O Level..... Amazingly ITE just open a new course called "Visual Communications", so I going to apply for that with my N level which I scored not so bad. I emailed ITE on how high is my percentage to get in, they seem like.... Giving me high hope. Cool! And luckily I have portfolio, I guess I should be able to do it. =) I have no choice right now. $1000++ for 2 years school fee, not so bad hor. All thanks to government who funded local school so much money. THANKS!

I've booked a day with her already... I need to talk to my HOD soon about my plans. I'm gonna find a part time job while schooling... Since my parents don't want to support me then I need to get stronger in life. I can survive!! Then... I'm gonna give up on taking driving license. Cos I'm thinking to get motorbike license first!!! WHEEE!!!

"A weird MIA case"

Well... I really have a very weird feeling about Sunni and Irene. They kinda suddenly "disappeared" in my life. I don't know what's going on. It's very strange when both of them, especially Sunni always doting on me and then.... DA-TA! GONE!

Ehhh.. Maybe I may be the one who gave them too much "brightness" in their lives... As in.... You know... Girls are very insecure by nature. I'm not bad mouthing.. Maybe Irene don't like me hanging out with them so often. Not saying Irene dislike me but.. Yaya. I guess everyone know what I'm trying to drive at. Plus Sunni always talk to her about me, like maybe all day long..?? Sigh.. I feel so puzzled right now and whatever I'm saying are just making wild guesses.

Can you imagine almost everyday, every lunch, I go out with them? Sometimes dinner too. The best part is... Sunni somewhat became like my dad, he enjoyed driving me around (exactly like my dad). So whenever he is free, he will come to my office, pick me up and send me back home. They are very nice to me. So nice till.... You feel like as if they are your biological parents loh. Even Irene will ask me whether do I have enough money to eat a not? Look out for me etc.. But now how can they suddenly disappeared in my life?? Not saying I'm using/misusing them, I never once did that. Actually I don't even allow them to pay for my food but they always call me to keep my money because to them, they think they earn more than I do, so is their "responsibilities" to take care of me. Of cos there are days, I'm really broke but they don't even mind paying everything for me. So nice lah!

According to my memory, I never done anything wrong to them. Before me, they also treated one of their employee like that too, love them like as if is their biological son. Buy him Xbox, handphone, bring him out to eat, buy him clothes, etc.. But that employee "betrayed" their trust and break their hearts. Irene cried when she was telling me everything about how much they loved him but the guy, he... Yup! THEN WHAT DID I DO?!!! Sigh.... I seriously don't know what happened to them lah. I guess I really misses them a lot but they are not replying my sms, the last time I called Sunni, his hp is off. I bought gifts for them from Bali and... What should I do with it now?

Another thing... I'm making a guess is.... Sunni is in trouble. I think is not very nice to say this part on blog but again... How can it be?? He is not some crook guy lah. ARGGHHHH!!! ANNOYING!!! Where are both of you?? I already texted you guys... Like if both of you don't like me, can tell me straight, no need to avoid me. Is like.. I can understand, respect both of you and your decision. I will be better off with your reasons than rather both of you leaving me clueless lah. Sigh. =(

Woohoo!!! I came back home this morning at 6am. I had a birthday celebration last night at Changi Beach!! It was CHERYL PHUA'S BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION!!! Well... Of cos, I gave her alot of presents. We drink quite a lot. I think Cheryl was like.... A little high? Lol. I guess everyone too lah. It was fun to mingle around with some people. Enjoyed myself yesterday.

Anyway my blog is like..... Somehow dying lah. Probably as I grow older... I think I don't have the desire to talk more about my life. LOL!

Sometimes I'm just so angry in life that I kept almost everything to myself. Digesting all the pain, angriness, hurts etc.. I felt like I screwed my life up with all these wrong choices. Well... It just drained out so much strength in me and I really feel like... Dying? Well.. I guess it just serve me right who didn't make the right choice from the very beginning of my life.

I didn't treasure time the way I should. I know what I want to do in life but again, I'm always stuck in my situation. It's always about money that make your life "stop" here. If my parents could only afford my education right now.. Things may change. I don't want to live on like this, doing the same old job. My passion is design. I may or may not go far in design in my life but what I know is I do love what I'm suppose to do and good at. I don't need to be filthy rich (even though I know that is one of my dream) but I have this feeling- If I'm in designing line, I already can feel the richness of it. I can't buy my passion, my dreams or even sell them. I already have determined this is my life. Just like everything is already recorded in the book of your destiny. Just like there is a phrase, it says, "Every taste of bitterness comes with a little bit of sweetness."

I feel like sleeping now.... Cos I cried in the late afternoon while having heart to heart session with my HOD. Well... Is nothing much. Just feeling emotional that point of time cos it was hitting my weakness and plus I haven't cry for quite some time already. So I just need to let my tears flow down my cheeks for that moment. LOL! I'm still the same yesterday and today.

I suddenly have the urge to quit my job right now to take a break and move on from there.

Right now, I feel I've suffered for quite a while already... Sigh.. When are my parents releasing me to further my education?

Is the ignorance that hurts. Probably I've let go and probably I didn't. I've come to a point of confusion.. Right now I'm just feeling that I accidentally "re-open" my wound again.. I guess I'm feeling emotional because I can't understand why everyone just have to hurt everyone. Why and where did selfishness come about? I've always try to avoid hurting others because I don't want to further the relationship with him/her. But again, I'm always hurting those who I love the most cos I don't want the love to go on. Well.. Maybe also because I'm really protecting myself from getting hurt again.. This is what I really called selfishness.

Sometimes the solution of leaving someone in your life is to break the person's heart deeply; leaving an ugly side of yourself, it doesn't matter anymore cos your goal is to... Get the person you love the most to forget about you. Is it a painful path.. At the end, you may or may not feel remorseful. Oh well... I just don't want to carry on anymore. It's just too much to say.

Nothing will ever last.. There is no forever.. No relationship can lasts. What you can do is just hope for the best and make every time worth to spend.. When time is up, I guess is time to say goodbye.

I'm still at Bali, leaving in awhile time. I'm done with packing. I really enjoyed myself here with my colleagues. I'm glad without my parents for the passed 4 days. We have been doing devotion, spa, shopping, team building games, play games etc...

I went to Sentosa with Irene, Sunni, Ben Yeo, 2 dogs (Zara & Max). We had a great fun playing with dogs and had a good nice picnic which prepared by Sunni. Yummy! It is a nice and sweet sunday!! Oh well.. After that, Sunni drove us home and I didn't really rest but watch a lot of online movies today.

And I had a bad bad bad movie today which pissed me off. LOL!!! Please don't watch 'Paranormal Activity'!!! It's not even worth a star to watch it!! Shit to 'Oren Peli' who is director & script writer! He is a total shit guy who is out there to cheat people money lah! How can you cheat your "fans/ horror movie lover" like that? Totally break everyone's trust for such craps movie he produced. Can you imagine he came up with a total of 3 parts for the ending and the best part, in the movie, he don't show all of it. Ok. It's kinda understandable but it really bring confusion to others lah. The truth is the whole movie is fake lah. Luckily I didn't pay to watch this movie. This movie have earned over $100 million with a production budget of $15,000. Seriously think about it again, the whole footage don't even need $15K to do it lah. I'm just wondering how did he even spent those money loh.. YA LAH!! Marketing loh!!!!!! Yaya. Maybe he spent the $8K to produce a "fantastic" trailer to make people to fall for his trap. And $8K on his actor/ress. Total $15K!!! SHIT HIM LAH!!

City College Prom 2009!!

Fun day ever!!

Human Bingo!!

Chao for that 5 mins of our lives!!

Accidentally sabotage myself in the human bingo game.

So I have to do a nursery song with actions

which is twinkle twinkle little stars!! =/

(Oh wellsss... But I still won $5 starbucks voucher!)

Getting exciting for a game called "Guess who"? And I got it right!! Winning price: Another $5 starbucks voucher. =)

Photo session time!!

My favourite photo of the night with Angeline.

She will confirm say... OF COS LAH!!

Glenn (Mr Hollywood: Mr Vampire) , Me, Deborah, Tracey!

Jeremiah, Me, Deborah, Tracey!

Me & Jeremiah!! (Handsome boy!)

Diyanah, the Miss Hollywood!

Staff Photo!!

2 HOT LADIES- Gwen & Jermaine from night class.

(Maybe that's why they are hot? Because they are night ladies? Lol)

The ALUMNI!! (My batch people ps me. %@*&#^)

WITH JANET!! (Little cutie with the nice smell on her hair)

Well.. After all the dinner was over, the place turned into a club!!! Oh my tian!! Clubbing night!!

I'm having my 3 days mc. Cos yesterday, my gastric pain relapse on me in the afternoon at 1pm... Pain till.... I have to head to hospital. So my dad drove me to TTSH at 12 midnight plus to see a doctor. I had x-ray to scan my stomach, some injection thingy which I fell asleep on (Lol. Cos I love injection which I simply don't care when the nurse is doing it for me), drank strong medicine to yeast down my pain and drained my blood for some testing. Oh well... After that I went back home at 4am with my lovey dovey mum who waited for me patiently. =) I gave her a kiss and thank her for accompanying me.

And my dad made me damn dulan lah he... WAH!! Let's not talk about it. When I was in pain, he said serve me right. Kuku sia him. I think I really don't want to go into details. Only will make me more.... &T@$(*@#)*#_#( ARGH!!!

Say Goodbye to my 10mm earholes

I took out my 10 mm stud last night at 12 midnight. Letting go of my 10mm earholes wasn't easy and I can't even believe that I just did it. Well.. I guess is just another level of letting go of things that you love at times. Well.. Why am I doing this? Ehh.. I'm not very superstition kinda person but my business partner is.. He is very into fengshui. Of cos, he is not Alistair, he is Sunni! Lol. He is not really my business partner but to make it easier, yes, as for now, he is my mentor, guiding me along on how to earn money and watch how does the economics works in the market place. So he and Irene told me to close it up because if you come into business world, many people looked up to fengshui. They also said the best is keep your facial figure as good as if you were just born. Ear represent fortune, if there are huge holes at your ears, it means.... Money will leak out. So I closed it up because I don't want at the end of the day, if business fail, Sunni may or may not nag at me for not listening to him. Hahhaa. Oh well... So I shall be a good girl and close it up for his sake. Again.. He is my good friend, so I guess closing it up isn't a bad idea after all. =)

Woohoo!! I have a lot of things to post. Well....

Last Monday, Sunni and Irene pick me up from my place to go lepak again. In the evening, Sunni cooked chicken chop with spaghetti and added some special recipe sauce. OH MY TIAN!!! It's HEAVENLY! I never eat such good chicken chop in the my life!!! Lovely! =) After that, he sent me home at 11pm plus and he have to miss his favourite american show. =(

Tuesday & Wednesday, I met up Irene and Sunni again but only lunch lah. Wah lau. It sounded like I don't have to work anymore loh. Fainted!!! Later my boss fire me! =(

Oh well... I was ready on thursday and set off for City College's Leadership Camp 2009 at Sarimbun Scout Camp. It was a 3 days 2 nights camp. It was fun! I really can feel and see that they grew so much and also have good attitude in this camp. This camp is really better than my batch. I think they are the best batch I ever seen. Even I enjoyed it so much. Well.. I guess everyone is spoilt; Need air con room, clean environment, no insects etc.. Well.. To me, I love to live this kinda of environment when come to camping but they are like... "Eeeyer! Why got so many mosquitos?? I came here to feed them loh!! Etc..." Hahaha. Oh well.. I didn't get any bite. Lucky me. Maybe cos mosquito know that I love them and the environment? And so they told their kaki to protect me?? Hahaha. The only thing happened to me was a lizard fell off from the ceiling and landed on my shoulder and jumped away. Well.. It was COOOLL!! =)

My dad came to the campsite to pick me up. For the first time, I feel so so so glad to see him and I decided to hug him. I just love him so much. I'm at home right now alone, resting, spending some time with myself and my lovey dovey parents went out for dating. =) I just love them very much. I really can't imagine life without them.

Well.. Right now.. I think I'm missing Sunni!!! To me, Sunni is like a good friend; A friend who love his friend so much that he will give/do almost everything he can. Where to find such good friend on earth right now? I guess not in my generation anymore. Only the older generation who know what is friendship. Well.. Sigh.. I'm very worried about something, worried that Irene might get insecure, if I keep hanging out with Sunni so often. Or maybe... I'm just thinking too much lah. Well.. I'm getting a little bit uncomfortable when Irene always have to look at me when I talk to Sunni. Nevermind. Let's drop this topic.

Sunni is treating me like his good brother or buddy. Ku ku loh he.. Everytime called me, "Bro!" Anyhow la he. I told him to call me "Sister" but he don't want. Dulan. I like him so much because only he will know how to appreciate my work. He can see me doing in this designing line for my future and he support my dreams so much that he said he want to support my education. (Well.. I'm not putting high hope on his words right now cos if he didn't or not able to do that, my heart may break.) Well.. I don't know whether I want to pursue my education now a not cos I more likely want to go for short courses, buy books and read up and explore everything myself. From there, I will know I can do 100x times better than just going to school to study and get a stupid cert. Of cos, getting a cert in Singapore, is all about getting secured in life. Well.. I really want to get a master degree in Designing too. Too bad. In Singapore, there is no way for you not to complete and pass all the academic subjects... And then you're able to enter to the courses that you want/love. Is not that I can't make it, it will just take me a long time to score well in my academic subjects. I just don't want to waste time going back since I'm doing not so well, so just must well.. Work towards my dreams. =)

This bloody whole week, I've been meeting up with Sunni, except Monday.

Tuesday- He brought me to Marina Bay Golf Course as I mentioned before.

Wednesday- We went to Great World City and I treat him to ramen. He idiot lah! We took bloody 30 mins to think what we want to eat cos... All because he damn fussy... Sigh.. DONT SAY ALREADY LAH!!! Dulan lah! Then after that, we went starbucks to lepak! WOAH!! Shiok!! "Biscuit cake"!! Our favourite!!

Thursday- He came and find me at 3pm plus to my office then we go for teabreak... At Great World City again!! Starbuck-ing again!! I think our favourite place lah. LOVE IT!!!

Friday- We went to eat ayam penyet!!!!!!! Best penyet on earth!! Then we went Takashimaya to grab birthday cards for my company then we go starbucks again!! We will be bringing Irene to try the penyet on this coming monday! WHEE!!

Saturday- Wheeeeee!!!!! Met up with Irene and Sunni to watch 'THIS IS IT'!! The movie is not bad. I think Im falling in love with MJ's song again!! Lol!! Back to Irene, I love hanging out with her. I like her very much lah. Aye! I dont know how to explain. She just got the patient to explain to me slowly whenever I ask her questions. I just love this kinda person.

Sunday (tomorrow)- They want to come and find me after my work to go lepak!! Oh my god!! I feel like somehow I'm becoming their daughter like that lah!! But it is really nice to hang out with them. I'm so happy that I've make 2 new friends that are worth to spend time with.

Wheeee!! Today's lunch, I went out with Sunni. Sadly, Irene went oversea for some business trip this morning. =( I heard from Sunni that Irene travel so much that every 6 month or less, she have to change her passport. WOAH!! I wish I can travel as much as her too!!! Yes, back to Sunni, he drove Irene's car to picked me up from my office and we went to Marina Bay Golf Course's cafe to makan! Lol. He damn idiot lah. He told me to suggest where to go... Then I said Waterloo Street's chicken rice damn good then he said, "Hey you!! Joker lah! Think of chicken rice!" Wah lau! I feel like kanna suan lah! (Side track: His driving damn scary lah! Cos his turning is damn POWERFUL!!! I so scared loh when I was in his car then I complained and he slow down. He so ting hua loh.)

Well.... The golf course there damn nice!!!! The scenery of the golf course is superb! He said he always bring Irene and Irene's maid here to lepak. -.-" Okay! I can imagine their lifestyles. They are ultimate busy on weekdays but when come to weekends... THEY JUST L-E-P-A-K! No work, no nothing! SHIOK SIA!!! He treated me to makan again! I feel so pai seh but blessed at the same time cos Im really broke! While we were eating, he tell me alot funny experience in his life. WAH! I laughed till I almost fainted! Sometimes I really can't tahan him lah cos of his jokes (just like another Stella Ong) but well... Im really happy to know him and Irene. Is so not easy to find good friends nowadays, although our ages are quite a huge gap but is really cool to know them. It just so fun!

Then now Sunni and I wanna do something together. We want to work together for his business designing's side. Well... I'm not charging him now because I just purely want to build my portfolio first. So his business plan, he have this proposal that he want to propose to his directors about his plan etc.. Then if successful, he want to hire me to do design and marketing for him. Then he want to buy a office space for just me and him to talk cock, sing song, plau mahjong. Hahaha. No la. Do work, my design work. He just want me to stay focus and that why he want to get me a good office space to do my work. If his proposal is approved!! I will be damn happy!! Cos Im gonna change job!! Hahaha. Not saying my current job sucks lah. Is just too little for me to be able to save up for my studies. YEAH!! MY STUDIES!!! I cant wait!!!! =)

Okay. Yup. I want to go out with Irene & Sunni again!! It's just so enjoyable!! LOVE IT!!

ALAMAK!! I have tons of things to post but I really really forget... Or rather I have no idea on where to start. Well... What I really know is that I'm feeling.... Tons of mixed feelings.

1) Angry

2) Upset

3) Disappointed

4) Full of determination

5) Happy

6) Lucky

Aiya!! There are plenty of emotions running inside me. WAH!! I think the bloody weather is really giving my nose a bloody difficult time!! My nostril inside have been bleeding and dried inside and then I have to clear it every dont know how many minutes la. Annoying. @#%^&*((*&^

Today is a good day cos.. I went out with Irene & Sunni!! They are one of the coolest people that I ever met and befriend with. I'm extremely happy to meet them cos they really give me a lot of opportunity to work with them. Today, we went holland village!! (They laughed out loud at me loh... Cos is my first time there. -.- ) Well.... They paid every single thing for me. My drinks, my food etc.. Like a cool!! Cos I never have much friends do that for me. =) *Yawn* I'm too lazy to post everything about today. I just really enjoyed myself today with them!!

Anyway Alistair, I want to discuss something with you. If you happen to read this, give me a call. Sorry to trouble you. Thanks! =)

And thank you, jie-jie for doing so much for me recently. You really helped me a lot in my finance.

Last service at Kallang was sweet...

I'm glad that I was there for the last one.

Next week, it's going be near at marymount mrt.

These quizzes are aaaaadddiicccttiivvvveee...

1) What does being a friend really mean to you?

You value your friendships: 75%

You love your friends very much - so much so that it's actually quite a worry. You may not be able to cope very well when you do lose somebody's friendship. You are a very sensitive and fragile person, and are therefore likely to get upset easily. You care for your friends and are willing to do anything that they ask you to do. Sometimes this can make your friends think that you are a bit of a nuisance. Nevertheless, people do really love you because your highest priority is your friends.

Yayaya. I will tell those idiotic friends to go HONG GAN lah!! Nabei!! Dont waste everybody's time here!!

2)Your Marriage (Quiz says don't take it seriously.)

How will you choose your Mr Right?

You will make the most of being able to shop around for Mr Right. You love your freedom and will have a lot of fun learning about what sort of man you like. When you do find the guy for you, nobody will be able to keep you away from the church. (Well... 50:50 I guess..)

Who will be your future Mr Right?

Your real-life hero will be manly. He'll be dependable, even financially. He will protect you and always respect your feelings. He'll probably be quite a bit older than you. (Cool. But not too old... Please...)

When will you get married?

As soon as you fall in love, you'll want to grab your man and hang on to him. You will probably marry very young, so it would be wise of you to think carefully before committing. (PUI!! I don't wish to marry young! The dumbest thing that I can do now. Career FIRST!!)

What sort of wife will you be?

You are a bit tricky. You might pretend to be a sensitive and caring wife in his eyes, but you'll be ready to laugh at him behind his back and eventually you may even leave him for another man. (If I'm bloody unfaithful then I will not fall in love in the first place cos... It gonna cost too much pain for everyone!!)

Will you and your husband have a good time together?

You and your spouse will choose to spend time on more romantic activities. You won't end up quite as healthy, but you'll have plenty of fun going out for drinks, watching concerts or playing cards at home with other friends. (Maybe I do respect some romance..)

What will your children be like?

Your kids will be very naughty. They will often get into trouble but you will have a great time bringing these fun-loving kids up. They are lively and smart. (COOOLLL!!!)

How loyal are you?

You are a cool chick! You pretend not to care about the many men you attract, but they just keep coming back for more. When you are married, you won't be a loyal kind. (As I mentioned before.... This is dumb!!)

3) Your Hidden Talent- The Mass Communicator

You have a cheerful personality and you are a naturally kind person. Your hidden talent isn't really that hidden at all: you shine among a crowd. You would make an ideal news announcer, flight attendant or model - any position that would give you an opportunity to deal with plenty of people. A tip for you is to avoid getting too deeply involved in others' personal lives - otherwise you might find yourself constantly being asked for help.

(Ya la!! Thanks to ALL THOSE PEOPLE!!!)

4) How well do you react?

You recover quickly from disappointment. But when you feel that things are going wrong, you will react immediately. (Yup. Think so too..)

5) Pick One

1. Your future friend: You have a big sister confidence and leadership. So you friends are mostly vulnerable and always need your help. You can't resist helping these people and eventually you all will become good friends. (Yup!)

2. Your travel plan: In the future, you will often take overseas trips especially to modernized countries. You will get to explore Europe and North Asia like you always wanted. (YESSS!!!)

3. Your future financial status: You are very good at saving and sometimes you are even stingy. The reason you want your teeth to grow longer is because when you can't eat, you can save even more on food. Once your money is deposited in the bank, there's no way that you will withdraw it out just to spend on luxuries. (YESSS!! This quiz know me soooooo well..)

4. The last period of your life: You can't stand being a lonely old lady so you will spend the last days of you life being a kind loving grandparent so that the kids will love to have you around. (-.-)

Hahaha.. I was actually angry about 6-7 hours ago. So I had an appointment with Stella Ong.... Im just so happy to see her and her alone, chatting all day long. Well.. It was just about 5 hours of her sweet time. And I only can say.. I had a good time spending time with her. This is what I called friend and a friend who is worth the time for. =) Well... I just got home not long ago and went to her blog and come along a personality test that she took and I tried it out too.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

About me!!!

(AL, I think you should try too. Cos you're my biz partner, so I would like to know you better too. Hee.)

Your view on yourself:

You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you. (Yeah. This is so true! I hope so.. To others.)

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:

You like serious, smart and determined people. You don't judge a book by its cover, so good-looking people aren't necessarily your style. This makes you an attractive person in many people's eyes. (Yup. I have to agree to this, though I love the single kinda lifestyle.)

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:

You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person. (I guess so.. Who wouldn't?)

The seriousness of your love:

You are very serious about relationships and aren't interested in wasting time with people you don't really like. If you meet the right person, you will fall deeply and beautifully in love. (Totally have to agree this. Don't waste my precious time!! Time = Money)

Your views on education

Education is very important in life. You want to study hard and learn as much as you can. (OF COURSE!!)

The right job for you:

You have many goals and want to achieve as much as you can. The jobs you enjoy are those that let you burn off your considerable excess energy. (THIS TEST ROCKS!!)

How do you view success:

You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying. (YYYYEEEESSSS!!!)

What are you most afraid of:

You are afraid of having no one to rely on in times of trouble. You don't ever want to be unable to take care of yourself. Independence is important to you. (Yup. This world is sucks!! Hell ya to everyone!! *oops*)

Who is your true self:

You are full of energy and confidence. You are unpredictable, with moods changing as quickly as an ocean. You might occasionally be calm and still, but never for long. (YESSSS!!! Why did the quiz uncovered me? See lah.. Now everyone know my little secret now!!!!)

Well... I guess it has been a while really blogging somehow. Finally project calendar is done! Aye.. Somehow something went very wrong. I guess it wasn't our fault. It was some.... Aye. No words can describe it right now. Yeah. But is over right now. So let not talk about here. Way too much to blog on that. LOL!

(I think I'm going to vent my 'dulan-ness' here!!)

I've been extremely busy with project calendar and my full time job. Full of designing work to do these two weeks.. Hopefully everything can be done by this week. I'm really tired and I'm glad that I slept 10 hours today!! Woohoo!! Charged!! Well.. I really love designing but when there is a miscommunication, I really wanna slap the person sia. Waste my time and effort. If you want a 30 mins job of completion then you tell me lah!!!!! Don't tell me you want this and that design then I TA-DA... For you and you said this is not what I want. Ok. Then fine... What do you want? Do you know I spent 6 hrs 40 mins for you for 5 posters. 1 poster = 1 hour 20 mins. Really waste time loh. When you just want me to grab a wallpaper on the web and then remove the words and fill up with our wordings there. That will only take me 20-30 mins (for 1 posters) to do that. If I grabbed 5 wallpapers online and I edit with that, that will only need about 2hrs to complete loh. I've spend sweet 6 hrs ++ for you when in the end, you just want a 2 hrs of work. AYE!!! WASTE MY BRAIN JUICE!! Forget it!! Damn dulan!

Yes. The passed two weeks..... I'm just in my designing after designing... Meeting after meeting mode!! AIYOOOO!!!! CAN DIIIIEEEEE!!! No la. Not really. Luckily I still make some time for myself and my friends to spend time with. I want to go fishing again!!! Whee!! Why THERESA LEONG NEVER RETURN MY CALL?! NABEI!!! DULAN LAH!!

I can't wait to go cambodia to do some voluntary work. I think I will cry there once I get there loh. Ehhh.. Why? Cos I really can't take it when I have to witness those kids who are suffering in their lives. I don't understand why this world can't be a better place for them too. Well.. I guess probably we are too fortunate. What we want, we will just get it so easily. I hate those kids when they get their car license then they expect their dadssss to buy a car for them. Woah!! Like as if buying a cellphone for them like that loh. Like a easy only!! We are too spoilt!!!!!!!!! I want live a life of doing everything from scratch!!!!!!!! Suffer now and enjoy later! I can make it big in my life!!! I believe that I can do it!!

YEAHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!

Im going to Cambodia in NOVEMBER with my company!!!!!!!!!!

For voluntary work!!!

I LOVE IT!!!

You're born in my creation.

I've created you in my mind.

Making you almost perfect in every way.

You should be around 16 years old right now.

Practically you grew up with me.

I'm sorry that I didn't take notice of time and date that you're born.

What I only remember is... You spend most of your time with me.

I guess you're the only best friend I ever have.

No one seem to understand but you will.

I know when no one is here for me, you will never fail to be with me (when I start to mold the image of you in my head).

Hallucination is not the word to use.

Creativity will be the perfect word to use.

I wish... I could write a short story.... Just all about you.

I love you.

Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
Cause this hurts deeper than I thought it did
It has not healed with time
It just shot down my spine
You look so beautiful tonight
Reminds me how you laid us down
And gently smiled before you destroyed my life

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
(let me rest in pieces)
Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
(let me rest in pieces)
Pieces



Look at me, my depth perception must be off again
You got much closer than I thought you did
I'm in your reach
You held me in your hands

Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
(let me rest in pieces)
Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
(let me rest in pieces)


Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
Would you find it in your heart
To make this go away
and let me rest in pieces

would you find it in your heart
to make this go away
And let me rest in pieces
(and let me rest in peices)
would you find it in your heart
and let me rest in pieces

would you find it in your heart
would you let me rest in pieces

would you find it in your heart
would you let me rest in pieces

would you find it in your heart
would you let me rest in pieces

I'm so glad that I'm still breathing; Alive and using my computer. I just happened to browse through the newpaper today at a provision shop. And I found out the cover page of the headline..... Ehh... Some diving thingy headline. Well.. The guy who just passed away was one of my childhood friend. We used to catch fighting spider with his elder brother. Hahaha. But now I have a phobia toward spiders because of him.... I shall cut it short. One day, he was so random and threw the spider that towards my direction and it ended up in my mouth. And...... I got a very bad sore throat from there onwards... That's why I begin to have a phobia of spiders.

Well.. What I really wanna say is that life is really unpredictable. You can just leave this place and say goodbye to everyone. Today I may be fine... But who knows.. I may die tomorrow or right now. Our lives are numbered. Everything is in God's hands. Don't kept thinking life is meaningless. Life is full of joy and painful at times. When you begin to overcome your difficulties, that is when you will feel that you're stronger and better than before. =) Cheers!

Supposedly to be working and getting busier but I ended up spending my friday night and whole saturday relaxing..

11 Sep 09

Met up with Cheryl and friendsssssss...... FOR FISHING!!! Like a fun!! I caught the largest among all of my friends!! Teehee!! Like a happy!! Aye! I lazy to describe everything right now.

12 Sep 09

Slept 3 hours and met up with Mei Hui. We went to Café del Mar to drink and tannnnn?? Yup. My skin are screaming in pain.

Wanna sleep now!!

My SE phone is about to D.I.E. soon...

Well.. I'm a little heartache.

But now I'm having headache on what phone to get.

-.-"

Cheryl want me to get Blackberry but I'm thinking of iphone...

Cos I want to get a good camera phone, ipod touch and email for all at one shot..

The only thing about BB is about its camera... SUCKS!!

=(

IF NOT................

DONT TAKE A BLOODY PHONE LAH!!!

KU-KU!!! DULAN!!

I guess the chat on monday night was pretty okay.. Had some.. A little "argument", "defending" and "protective" shield. But I guess it was not a wasted trip after all.. I admitted that I'm kinda angry and upset but apparently over all, I had no feelings about it but Cheryl on the other side, she was trying to encourage me. I feel so confused at times. Maybe giving another chance to change is not a bad idea after all..

I'm so tired right now. And I'm glad that I'm loving Cheryl very much. Night, Sweetheart. =)

Hooray! Manual driving guided by my dad was FUN!! I got the hook on it but aint having enough confidence in the steps. Like.... Ehh... Start the engines, step on the clutch, switch to Gear 1, Hand brakes release, balance on the clutch and accelerator and off........ I GO!!!!!!!!!!!

Aye! Jojo is tired!!

Meeting Xiaoli and Ben tomorrow evening at AMK Drivethru..

• My snow leopard is GOOD!!
• My new camera bag is PRETTY!
• I took some photo of Orchard Central for AL's mum. I'm getting the hook on photography. I'm loving myself.
• I spent some time with Cheryl, Nat and Narayan- SHISHA-ING!!! H.A.P.P.Y.!
• Doing some video editing.. Proud of myself. ( Like a lame uh me -.- )
• I bought a multi-card reader!
• I bought a 8GB CF card!
• My Crocs sandals is out of stock! =(
• I came out with a draft storyboard; Happy Birthday Video to Cheryl for her upcoming birthday in Dec. (Hopefully I have the time to video and edit it.)
• I'm saving money!
• I'm eating lesser somehow... To be healthy for the sake of my........ NEVERMIND!
• I'm trying to sleep earlier during weekdays to have a balance lifestyle.
• My relationship with my parents are getting better. Kissing them and hugging them again! =) (What a breakthrough!)
• AL is coming back in two weeks times.. Missing him. =)
• Going to hit to AL's house later to pass the OC photo to his mum.
• Enjoying life!!
• Getting BUSY BUSIER BUSIEST again! =(
• Trying to get my heart right for things again.
• I'm growing up! =)
• Recently got few designing thingy for me to do in the office! (EXTREMELY HAPPY!)
• Working part time job for 3- 4 days during F1 period!
• Trying to cut down but FAILED! =(
• Going to practice driving with my daddy in awhile time for tomorrow's driving lesson. =)
• My mind is rewinding... Those.... Memories... That I want to forget it all for once.
• Wanna go for a long break...
• I'm missing Shawn Shawn. His birthday was 4 days ago! (AL forget to wish him!! Oei!! Velly lude uh!)

Umbrella By Vanillla Sky

WOAH!! I really enjoyed myself today. I was first to reach the restaurant. THE REST WAS LATE COS THEY ALL GOT CAUGHT IN THE RAIN! Hahaha. Oops. Well.... Today is a off day! Teachers' Day outing was fun!! We had Yum Cha for lunch at Chinatown. The tim sum is so nice!!!!!!!! Yeah! After lunch.... It's KTV TIME!!!!!! Mr Kenny and Mr Jeremy are so funny!!!!!!!! Mr Kenny chose Jay Chou- Huo Yuan Jia song and they anyhow rap cos it was kinda way too fast then when come to the part of HUO HUO HUO, they sing with passion!!! FAINTED LOH!!!

TOMORROW WILL BE THE DAY OF GETTING BACK TO WORK!!!!!!!

MY SNOW LEOPARD IS NOT HERE YET!! SO SAD!!!!! =(

Sometimes I just don't get it!

MOST of my time, I don't need you!

Once a while I need and want you because I miss you!

Sometimes I do want to tell you how much you meant to me!

Most of the time, I just want to tell you that you're just way too much!

Most of the time, I hate to go through this process because it is painful!

Most of the time, I wish I shouldn't have know you..

So that my life would be better off without you!

But yet again..

If I wouldn't know you, I wouldn't been this far!

Yes, I can finally see the real truth about this world!

The world is just full of selfish people!

Sometimes you should grab a coffee/tea, sit down and think about how not to be selfish!

Most of the time, you're such a pain in the ass!

Most of the time, you just make me feel like I've been a fool for you!

So much like a fool that I need to go through this bloody pain!

So silly of me investing such a pathetic person like you!

I'm so upset! Can't you tell?!

Oops! I bet you won't cos Joann is long forgotten in your bloody list!

I'm only on your list when..... You need and want me!

Thanks for using me.. Cos I can feel that you're fully using me!

I feel so....... A.P.P.R.E.I.C.A.T.E.D.!!

All these times... I don't know why I have and need to compromise you.

I want to leave you but yet at the same time I can't do it!

I don't know why am I so softhearted.

My heart seem to (always) have a small gap to allow someone to come back..

But I'm so tired..

Tired of being a silly fool!

Tired of getting hurt!

Tired of having mercy on you!

Tired of swallowing the truth about you!

Tired of having you in my life and on my list!

JUST FORGET IT!

You're bringing too much pain to me!

I beg you... Or should I pray that you won't contact me as much/long/often as possible.

The best is you retreat..

I don't want to do the hard way.. The painful way..

Because I still want to have the sweet memories of us being together.

Too bad that I have to blow up on you and at you.

It's my bad, my fault. I apologise. "I'm so sorry, truly sorry."

You = "Friends"

(I'm way too lazy to type 'All of you', 'Them', 'You guys' or anything to do with more than 1 person.)