Sometimes I'm just so angry in life that I kept almost everything to myself. Digesting all the pain, angriness, hurts etc.. I felt like I screwed my life up with all these wrong choices. Well... It just drained out so much strength in me and I really feel like... Dying? Well.. I guess it just serve me right who didn't make the right choice from the very beginning of my life.

I didn't treasure time the way I should. I know what I want to do in life but again, I'm always stuck in my situation. It's always about money that make your life "stop" here. If my parents could only afford my education right now.. Things may change. I don't want to live on like this, doing the same old job. My passion is design. I may or may not go far in design in my life but what I know is I do love what I'm suppose to do and good at. I don't need to be filthy rich (even though I know that is one of my dream) but I have this feeling- If I'm in designing line, I already can feel the richness of it. I can't buy my passion, my dreams or even sell them. I already have determined this is my life. Just like everything is already recorded in the book of your destiny. Just like there is a phrase, it says, "Every taste of bitterness comes with a little bit of sweetness."

I feel like sleeping now.... Cos I cried in the late afternoon while having heart to heart session with my HOD. Well... Is nothing much. Just feeling emotional that point of time cos it was hitting my weakness and plus I haven't cry for quite some time already. So I just need to let my tears flow down my cheeks for that moment. LOL! I'm still the same yesterday and today.

I suddenly have the urge to quit my job right now to take a break and move on from there.

Right now, I feel I've suffered for quite a while already... Sigh.. When are my parents releasing me to further my education?