A Sense of Insecurity.

I just suddenly felt so insecurity abt my plans for my education. Remember that my dad will support me for my education? I dont know why he dont seem like supporting me anymore. He kept asking me, "Are you sure abt the course you want? Is that really what you really want and going to do in the future?" Aiyo. These few questions are really making me very insecured lah. I just kept feeling that my dad seem like hinting me something but he aint telling me anything. Im just worried that I might give my parents too much "high" expectation. Im so worried to fail them. I just feel very lousy at times. Im super not those academic kinda person but I really want to study Visual Comm.

I just very puzzled right now. Ok. Forget abt it.

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My pub manager and captain kept asking me whether I want to go work as full timer anot. Not that I dont want to work full time but I just have this insecure feeling that I may be a disappointment to them. Hahaha. No la. Is more of like.... I want to have more flexible time lah. But the advantages of full timer is like... WOAH!! O.O Then on the other side, I will need to quit Subway liao.. How how how?! Apa!!! Sigh. Ok. I will decide it again when my O level result is back. Put working problem aside first!!!!!!!!!!

Ohoh. My manager is putting me as a DOOR HOST on X'MAS EVE!! Hahaha. She said this to me, "Since you love to smile alot then you go to the door there and be the host of the day and bring in all the guests!!!" Hahaha. All my colleagues love and hate to see me smiling everytime and every moment!! Everyone is getting annoyed by me cos I cant stop smiling. Probably they are just jealous. lalalalalalala.. They cant do anything to me!! =P

Sigh. My office department called me into the office when I started working today because they need to deduct my tips lah for taking wrong order last night. Sigh. Cos of these two customers lah!! I dont really know what they want lah. They said they want these and that (some more they pointed at the menu to me loh) then ended up they said I took the wrong order. -.-" Then it got to be charged under me loh. Nevermind. =)

Wait a min....... I think they drank that alcohol into their stomach too but they dont want to pay for that. HEY!! That's unfair!! !*&y$^&*^&*( NEVERMIND!! NEVERMIND!! But Im not angry leh. Something is very wrong with me uh. Lol.

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Ben and I are planning to get drunk one of these day of this month!!!! WHEE!!! Both of us never get drunk before... So this is going to be exciting. Most probably going to Double O (pub section) to drink!! Ben and I dont like the clubbing side. Ya. For me, I dont mind going for the sake of Mei Hui!

臭CHIN JIN got high at his working place at LAN shop and we were chatting on MSN last night. JEALOUS LAH!! WAH LAU!! His manager bought his drinks during his working timing loh. SIAO! Cant believe it lah?! Why his manager so good?! I want that manager too!! Hahah. We're planning to go Double O and drink when we get our pay!! hahaha.

Why everything is abt drinking now and Double O now?! Hahah. But their drinks are damn cheap. I SWEAR!! Can drink till you drop dead loh and you will still find everything is damn cheap!!! CHEAP CHEAP CHEAP!!