My mind is all over the place.

I been thinking alot lately. What izit abt? Oh well. Tons of it. I really dont know where to start. Maybe music (ya. very no link but to me, yes!!), my parents, my brother, My godma, my cousins, my 2 loves + 1, churchmates, work, some friends that used to be closed to me, etc etc.. Too many to mention..

But I been seriously thinking abt my family. It's all abt family. I seriously havent talk to them for long. I really neglected them. Yea. I seriously got problem with my family. I need to talk to them, I need to gather 3 of them to talk.

I need to tell my family..
To dad: Abt my tattoos and my piercings. We need to work out our relationship. I seriously missed those good old times that we were much in better term.
To Mum: I need to tell my mum that Im sorry for being very rude at times and we will work on our relationship on how to understand each other better.
To Bro: I need to tell my bro that I will love him more than ever and treasure his presence when he is around and of cos talk to him more.

Over all, I just want to have better relationship with them. But before having a better relationship, I need to reset all the pasts that we had before. I know it is not going to be easy and it will need time to be back on right track but together we, my family, will have a breakthru. And I will need them to accept the fact and the way I am; I love tattoos, piercings, enlarging ears, donating blood, drinking alcoholic drinks, late night sleeping, spending time with friends more than family most of my time, dreaming big dreams, doing "silly" things (only in my family's eyes they think tt way), planning my own finanical for the future, scheduling my time and my life every 2 days in my room, loving my Ben Yeo and Z.Xiaoli (which I will want to intro them to my parents one day cos I want them to know who are my dearest friends), how much I really do love them, my godma, da yi ma, ah foo uncle, Norman and Celeste in my heart, etc etc.. Basically there are tons of things to say.

Woah. See that above? Can you imagine how much I really havent been talking to them? Im not unfilial. Yea. Maybe I am to a small extent but I never stop thinking abt them whenever I dream abt becoming successful in life. Even though alot of times, I want to go MIA for awhile and secretly to own a house of my own to be alone but I never stop thinking abt how I want to plant my parents in my house. I seriously want to them to enjoy luxury life too. Yeah!! Of cos my brother too. I want when he got his own family, I want them to stay with me too. Hahaha. CRAZY SIS, SIS-IN-LAW & AUNT!! Whatever it is!! I just want it!! Yeah!

HEAVENLY LOVING THEM!!!

Worked at subway and my new pub job today. Im seriously very tiring after typing my longgggg story above. Nevermind. My new job was tiring. It is not a simple job as you think. Bloody tons of profound names of alcoholic drinks to remember!!! Hahha. Probably it is just me. Not just that... There are settings of fine dining setting, desserts setting, drinks setting, food ordering, taking down orders, key-ing in all the meals etc etc.. WOAH!! CAN DIE!! Lol. Ok. Yeah! It is a Cafe Pub Restaurant and that why there are plenty of work to do. I...... I.... I did alot of mistakes today!! CAN DIE!! Yeah! I admitted that I do have the thought of giving up cos.... I was like.... Wrong here and there like crazy!! Lol. Felt like I FAILED!! Hahaha. But what make me want to stay put was the people there were awesome!! Especially some customers!! Woah!! My colleagues are awesome too. I now feel like naming all my colleagues' names but most of their names are like.... I dont know how to spell!! Cos mostly MALAY's names lah!! Wah lau!! Why no english names?! I know a few but not many. NEVERMIND!! Need time to remember. IM LAZY TO TYPE RIGHT NOW!! But Im going to work tmr again. So HAPPY!! =)