Sometimes... Nothing can compared to the pain that your parents gave.

Well.. Am I that useless? I've no idea. I know what I want for my future. I know what I need to do to get my future. Till today, my parents still don't get me. This morning, my dad finally admitted that he have the money for me to study but he said he have no confidence in me because he don't think I'll do well for my studies and what's the point of paying for me. Yeah. Probably I've disappointed him when I was back then in EC. But what can I do now? Return back to future? I can't. He don't even want me to go to ITE. Since he don't want to pay for my education then what's the matter to him anyway even if I want to go ITE. I never even once thought or want to go ITE but is just that now.. I don't have the choice, I have no funds. I don't want to be stuck at my level forever. If I do have the funds, then why did I even choose to work over studies... That is like purely stupid!!

So now what?! What can I do?! Probably just watch me. If I fail, I will admit to my fate. If I succeed, don't come bootlicking me... Same goes for everyone. To think about it again, at times... I felt that I really make a mistake to go to EC because if not, I won't be so "stuck" here. But again... If back then, I make my way to ITE to the course that I didn't like.. I could be where I am again. Right now.. I really hope that I can get into the course that I want. Do it well and probably get into poly, if possible I wish that I can get some scholarship and don't have to rely on my parents.

2 days back, I was talking to AL on the phone and he offered some "good stuff". After listening to him, I really feel so blessed to have him as my friend; an extremely good friend. How to get a friend like him? Of cos, on my side, I have to work hard to show him and do a good job together when we launch our company in 2 years time. =)