I just realised I didn't mention that....

I PASSED MY 2nd TP!! WOOHOO!! CAN DRIVE!!!

But.... -.- Last night, I crashed my dad's vehicle side glass door. :( SIGH!

Was having this guiltiness & a mixture of mixed feelings last night. I'm glad that my dad didn’t make me feel worse after the incident. I'm sorry & thank you, Daddy. :)

Already broken, already gone

Already know you're moving on

I'm a breathing, talking

Dead man, walking

Already see it, in your face

Already someone, in my place

I'm a breathing, talking

Dead man, walking

I've been sick for the 3rd day.. Recovering but fever is on/off. Took 2 days mc and I have to head back to school tomorrow. I guess I missed a lot of lessons. :( Sometime is really tiring to be sick. Hopefully I will be fine over the weekends because this coming monday is my TP. I want to pass!!

This MV will blow you away... Watch this band's stage presence. It's more than just being awesome!

Sometimes I just someone to talk to.

Hey Pal, I guess you know who you are. I seen your facebook status and I've been kinda worried. :(

Didn't want to text you or call you because I think you are perfectly fine and you are mature enough to think for yourself. You have your thinking of eating habit, maybe just don't go too extreme to let anyone worried. Well.. Others always looked on the outer cover of "book".

I care for you and maybe is time for us to meet up real soon. :) Love you! Cheers!

I have you in my heart. Will be there for you if you need me. :)

Have you noticed...

From a far distance, I'll put a smile(d) on my face (sweetly) whenever I meet up with you?

And a hug is a must. :) To let you know how much I love(d) you. I never tell you this because I wish/hope that one day, you will notice it and let me know how you feel about my doing.

Now I mentioned it here because I want you to cherish me a little more. Can you? How much do you know me? :)

Have you ever wondered why.... Life is so tough?

When my life is tough, I get stronger. So I'm enjoying it even though it can be very tiring. :)

Can you play a song for me? Or maybe can you sing with me? :)

Put your hands all over me please talk to me, talk to me

Tell me everything, it's gonna be alright

Put your hands all over me please walk with me, walk with me now

Love is a game you say play me and put me away

Love is a game you say play me and put me away

Put your hands all over me

Put your hands all over me

Put your hands all over me

All over me

ARGHHH!! I'm so addicted to it!

Maroon 5 - No Curtain Call

One of the best song, I ever heard. :) I'm in love with Maroon 5.

[Verse 1:]

You say you need someone

But everybody does

I'm no different than you

I just believe what I do

You point your finger at

Everyone but yourself

And blame the ones that you love

Who're only tryin' to help

[Bridge:]

As it's winding down to zero

I am yours like a hero

I'll see this through

There's so much me and you

Take this enemy together

Fight these demons off forever

Forever forever forever

[Chorus:]

5, 4, 3, 2, 1

I won't stop until it's done

No curtain call, I will not fall

This may be the one we've been waiting for

No curtain call, just take it all

[Verse 2:]

I have no time for fear

Or people in my ear

Head down and running so fast

Try not to dwell on the past

I'm fighting through this pain

And things I cannot change

Running right into the flame

Rather than running away

[Bridge]

[Chorus]

[2nd Bridge:]

Sweat drips down from every angle

Love your body as it gathers in a pool by your feet

You turn up the heat

Tossin' and turnin', you cannot sleep

Quietly weep, your in too deep

[Chorus x2]

I can't seem to get rid of that image in my mind. It seem like that moment of gorgeousness is imprinted in my mind and I can't get rid of it. It's kinda haunting me every moment when I think about it... I like that moment... When can I see it again? Just one more time will work perfectly fine for me. :)

I had a bad dream last night. :( I dreamt that my bestie, Cheryl.... Die!!! A car knocked her down.. I woke up, asking myself... "OMG! Is this real?" I need to text her now!!!!!!! I told her everything about my dream and I demanded her to use traffic lights everywhere she go..

Cheryl: Hahahaha. OMG! You super kia si for me sia! I don't want lah. Later I press the traffic light then no car... I stand there like a idiot. You want me to look like a fool meh?

Me: -.- YES!!! Rather then you die, right??!!! :(

So emo loh after that... Don't know what's up with me. Well.. For sure now, I don't think I can afford to lose her. My heart won't be able to take it.

And I told her that I love her very much till the end of the earth. :)

She said, "Omg. I thought its universe lor. :( "

Me: Isn't it the same??! Tskk!! I sound like a.. Your bf uh? :/

C: Ya la. -.- TMD (Ta Ma De aka "Your mother")

Buey tahan two of us leh! Wahahaha! Yeahhh!! Meeting her tomorrow!!!!!!

Finally met up with Jie. Both of our schedule were so packed. But she kept meeting up with that ROTTEN EGG! Lol. Whatever! We went to watch Step Up 3. It was pretty good but not as good as Step Up 2... The impact of the music is not "WOW" enough, I guess.

Session-ing at TCC. Oops! Took her photo, she gonna kill me for this!

ARGHHHHH!!!

I'm feeling like I'm just a piece of SHIT when I come to some certain friendship. I'm always caught up in the middle of somewhere and somehow with someone! I really hate it! I can't really rate myself from the scale of 1-10. Like seriously? WTH! Yes, I do have quite big group of friends in my life. But that doesn't mean... ****!! Arghhhhh! I think I am a good friend and I'm nice to almost everyone. I do build relationship with everyone but not many can have this "strong" relationship of mine with all of you.

Maybe I can give an example:

Good Friend "A" will be "jealous" / "upset" with me because I spend time with Good Friend "B". Then Good Friend "C" will be "jealous" / "upset" with me because I spend time with Good Friend "A" & "B". All my Good Friend "A", "B" and "C" will come together and tell me... "Is ok, you go and spend time with him/her, ok? I'm just fine. I know you care and love him/her more."

Arghhh!! Come on! What is more? I love all of you. Sometime is not easy to love and spend time with everyone at one go. Unless you want me to combine all my good friends together and we shall hang out some time soon? Sound pretty cool? My dearest close/ good friends, trust me, I do love all of you. You see.. You have your time, love, personal stuffs, school, work and blah blah... Me toooo.. :( I'll find time for you, just give me time. Will you? Can you? Please. At least, I do care by texting you, asking how are you, facebook-ing and etc. (Sometimes you don't even bother replying me back. What's up? Angry with me? I'm sorry.)

My lovely friends, sometime I do get very upset too when I see all of you spending time with other friends & things in your life. I don't complain because I don't want you to feel bad. I'm human too, I have feelings. We are not perfect. I tried my best to be your good friend, will you do the same for me? Please. I rather keep it silent then whining all about it. Nobody like it. Am I right? I can't satisfy everyone's "wants" & "needs". Yeah. Probably I am important to you, that is why, you are unhappy with me. I understand but I'm not yours at all times. I'm Joann, only one Joann Quek. I'm not omnipotent. I don't have mighty power, I can't be there for everyone at one go. I tried to my best to feed everyone's "Love Tank". At least, I tried. I believed that I most probably have been there for most of you and with my unconditional love. :)

You get what I mean? No matter how imperfect you are.. You are still gonna be my friend. Good friend. Maybe there are times, I do get annoyed by you, your personality, your character, your disgusting bad habits etc.. But if I have already build this "strong" friendship with you. You got my mutual trust on you and no one can break it unless you, yourself. Please don't ever do that to me because you gonna break this big heart of mine and it's not easy to fix it back. :) I love all of you. xoxo. :)

And please don't push me away when I'm really available to spend time with you. Please don't break up this friendship because at the end of day, you make yourself upset, I'll be upset too. We just need to jump over these hurdles and have a breakthrough together. Cheers!

Yup. I just changed my bloggie's skin! I just got so bored with the previous one! :) I'm now listening to "Love Story" by Beethoven. Can anyone play this lovely dovey piece of music for me? Cos I want to capture this unexplainable "feel" while listening live. Well.. Somehow I wish that you can be the one but I guess is impossible now.

Today, I went through some stuffs in my hard disk.. Realising that I'm feeling so much better now.. Maybe subconsciously I just grew out of it. :) No longer holding onto what I shouldn't and also stop feeling for this "weird" pain. :D

Sighhhhh.. I've been spending time with so many people except myself. Is like feeling very unsatisfied with myself. This feeling is like you haven't spend time with your bestie in the longest time. :( AND EXAMS ARE COMING!!!!!!!!! :'(

Sometimes I just don't understand why humans.... In relationship.... We are just so complicated. We love, we hate, we praise, we honour, we backstab, we share, we care, we give, we take, we ignore, we sleep, we dream, we hope, we wish, we promise, we break promises, we follow, etc.. Is it all about "we"? Or maybe in the first place... Everything is just "I". I guess I've given up witnessing everything about BRG. What's up with my friends? Just crazily needed "someone" in their lives for THAT MOMENT. *rolled eyes*

I'M HUNGRRRREEEE!! :(

I have been spending time with my Bestie, Cheryl and my Close friend, Xiaoli.

I love them very much. :)

We are just PHOTO BOOTH FREAKS!

I miss you so.......

ARGHHHHHHH!! I FAILED MY TP!!!!!!! *)#$**&%$&*

TP: "Actually you can drive lah. But I think you should come back and try again."

Me, in my heart: "Thanks uh. It's very encouraging."

Damn it lah! He anyhow demerit points sia! I SWEAR! He bombed a lot of things like.....

1) In circuit, I do all my course and parking nicely. He kpkb all the way. When I go to the road... He never say anything but when I'm done.. We go to debrief room. Then he suddenly bomb said, "You know the traffic lights there.... Got a cyclist in front and you didn't never give way.... In my heart, I was like, "WTH!!! My whole entire driving trip don't even have a pedestrian crossing the road lah. How to have a f***-ing cyclist?!" Even traffic lights are on my side! If there was a cyclist, why didn't you jam brake me? &^@$^!(*#&, RIGHT A NOT?!

2) In front- road hazard, I slow down and change line. He also demerit! Stated in my list: SAYING THAT I NEVER SLOW DOWN!!! WHAT THE HELL!!! 1 and a half car length and driving at the speed of 45km/h? Not slow meh?????????????

3) I didn't do sharp turning at the circuit and dont know why he demerit me for that lah. I only know I did wide turning which he did demerit me too and I already feel so guilty for that lah for not being cautious enough.

4) BLAH BLAH BLAH!!! I should just demerit him of his nonsense!

GRRRRRRRRRRRRRRR!!! Now my next TP is on the 18 October 2010! SO ANNNNNOOOYYYINNGGGG!! I just wanna drive now!!!!!!

Pulau Ubin Camping Trip with my lovely dovey classmates!

It's just simply F-U-N!

Setting up the tent!

Jeannie, Shahiran, Angel and Anisah!

Me starting up the kerosene lamp!

Old kampong style! COOLIO!

Angel's idea to buy "hor fun" & "fried rice"!

See lah! In the end, Sufian helped you eat!

Buey tahan her loh! Wanna eat camp food and also try out Ubin's food. -.-

Big appetite uh you?

Camp Fire "Ceremony" started by me!

Me & Abang (Big Brother in malay)!

Whacking all the camp food!

It was fun trip! We went trekked 2/3 of Ubin! We bathed with "un-purify" water! We got bite by ants! We "accidentally" ate mini grasshoppers! Because it hopped into our food! Etc etc.. After all these, our relationship seem like...... C-L-O-S-E-R! We talked about how we feel, our future, our plan, our lives, etc.. Make me feel so good because I realised I still have friends who know what they want/do for their future. =D Make you feel so motivated to go for bigger steps now! WAH! Our next holidays plan is to go Batam: Kelong House, which Shahiran's dad is building one.. SO COOL! Love this bunch of my friends. =D