I know at times you're out there reading my blog. I just want to let you know that no matter what happen one day, Im always here for you (still cant grantee you that is 24/7 because Im not superwoman.). I do still care and concern about you. I love you. =)

After School With My Three Classmates

After school with my three classmates- Nathaniel, Glenn and Cheryl.

Hahahahaha. Fun. Fun. Fun. We really talk cock, sing song, play mahjong. Hahaha. Kidding. We went shopping!!! Nat wanted to go to far east to cut hair but FAILED TO CUT(TRIM)!! Why leh? Cos we encouraged him not to trim his hair cos it is still in shape. Dont know why he want to waste money loh. For Glenn- He bought CHEAP MONDAY at HEEREN and a shorts from CINELEISURE! That silly Cheryl bought a green shorts from HEEREN too. Then I only want to go walk walk. Hahaha. Cos NO MONEY!!!

But before all these shopping, we went to Plaza Singapura to eat Nasi Padang. Yummy. They got the best nasi padang on earth. DAMN DELICIOUS!! After dinner, I fought with Cheryl loh. !@#$%^&* ANGRY SIA!!!! She fought with me first loh and I only just pinched her back once (not very da li also) and only a few of gentle 打打. Then she used her bag to whack me upside down and use her hand to punch my head many times. CHERYL PHUA!! 你不怕天打雷霹? Im your mummy leh!!! *RAWR* Nevermind lah. You will get your karma soon. Hahaha. Kidding. Love all of you..

I dont know this Ah-Ma but I secretly took her photo. I long waited for this day, k? Why? I aint no paparazzi. Yea. But when the first time I see this Ah-Ma and she looked into the sky for very long. She just gave me a strong feeling of... "Lao tian ye, Im so old and lonely. All I want is to be happy and maybe I could have someone to talk to." I swear when my mind captured the image of her, I couldnt forget. I almost tear and wonder will I be like her one day? (Ok. Of cos not. Cos I know the reason.. Shhh..) The photos I took, wasnt very clear but most of the time, she will be at Waterloo Street. I think she stayed there.

Ya lah. I know I very rude lah. I took her picture without her permission. But I worried that she will reject me mah.

After school with Cheryl..... On the way back home. In the train, photos came along...


Pic 1: My little DINOSAUR! *rawx*













Pic 2: Muack! Muack!
OH MY 天!!! Fake one k?? We dont know why we just randomly took it. We didnt meant the photo to taken in this manner. But we both ended up loving this photo. MINGDE(Cheryl's BF)!! Im sorry.














Pic 3: What?!! I know it look like we're going to... Ya, it does look abit wrong lah. Aiya. Nevermind. Is just fun shot that we came up with.

















Pic 4: Stop acting like a RABBIT when you're not, you silly little DINO!!











Pic 5: Sorry for not protecting you. My little DINO got biten up by a snake. As you can see her lip is swollen! Hahaha. Kanna POISON!!!














I JUST SIMPLY LOVE HER TO THE CORE!! Ok. As a friend, alright? We both damn rude to each other de loh. But I guess this is how we communicate and that's how our friendship grow. We really fight, we quarrel, we argue, we shout at one another in the face etc.... But somehow it seem like we cant live without one another in class. When she's in school and Im not around in the class, our class will be very quiet. When Im around and she's not, our class is as dead as good. We bring joy and laughter in our class. Ok. Maybe somehow we're both jokers. And joker cant live without their partner, right? Our classmates always laugh at how we react, fight and quarrel. Really very funny meh? She really hit me with her strength loh. No kidding. My head got alot baluku loh. But is ok. I forgive her. To me, the best part is she told me that Im her sunshine when she's moody and I think she's my little sunshine too when Im moody. Cos I never had a classmate that tell me these before. My love tank is filled up by her words of affirmation. Thank you, Nu Er! =)

Friendship

I Can See The Pain by Nikki

I still see your face in my dreams
It hurts and it doesn't help at all
I still want you in my life as crazy as that seems
I want you to catch me when I fall
I still remember the first time we met
There was something so different about you
Your friendship was something
I wanted to get
That smile when you said hi to me was so new
Out of no where you called me on the phone
I wanted to sit there and talk to you forever
You were so new, so crazy and unknown
I just knew that our friendship would never sever
Two years and we are barely holding it together
What happened to the way this all used to be
I never wanted you out of my like ever
I sat there for a long time pretending not to see
We decided to go out and make it all all right
It didn't work out of course we knew it couldn't
We couldn't even really stand each others sight
It shouldn't end this way but it did and I shouldn't
I miss you and everything you were to me
Ten years from now we will look back on it all
We will be older and finally be able to see
That love will stand the test of time and never fall

MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!! MY MUMMY!!!!

AIYA!! I REALLY DONT KNOW WHAT'S WRONG WITH HER AND HER BODY!! SHE WENT TO HOSPITAL TODAY. ACCOMPANIED HER MANY MANY HOURS. SHE KEPT COMPLAINING HER CHEST VERY XIN KU AND PAIN!!! AIYO! AIYO! AIYO! AIYO! AIYO!


TOMORROW IS MY O LEVEL ORAL!!! OH NO!! NERVOUS!!

I JUST SIMPLY LOVE THEM!

THEM = WHOEVER ARE IN MY MIND.

Yesterday's day was damn..........

DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN! DULAN!
PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! PEK CHEK! Until evening..... Then.... DAMN HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY HAPPY. Actually not really say damn damn happy lah. But just somehow took away all the dulan-ness and pek chek-ness. Sorry for being very rude. I know very not me on the blog ar...

Hahahhaa. I swear today CHERYL PHUA (yayyaa. my so called "NU ER"!) damn ke lian loh. Hee. I suspect she got the same problem as me leh. HOW??!! Her pain been with her for 2-3 week le leh.. The last round, she was hospitalised for some stomach problem but I think ok le. D-I-E loh!!! BUT she very funny. When she said, "OUCHhHh~! My stomachhh..." Everyone kept laughing.. She's like one xiao hai zi like that, kept looking for mummy (not me, please! even though Im her so called "Mummy") to yang orh. If you really know her, she's those "A-Z vocabulary" kinda girl loh but she mean no harm de la. Today, she's really really very sick. Pale like one ghost. Ha. When people cracked jokes, she basically cant laugh cos that will only bring her pain. So sad! Then go for lunch ar... She must pull my bag, if not is my jacket to make herself to move like that loh. So difficult meh?!! CHERYL PHUA!! You !@#$%^&*()!

After lunch break, she kept running around and teased Jill. And also at the same time kept "ouching". Sigh. Lol. Pain still can play! Siao de. *Faint* But at that moment, I found out another friend of mine, she also got the same problem like me leh.. OH NO!!! My illness dont spread loh. How can this be?!! Blah blah blah... Aiyo. ALAMAK!! Oh man. Everyone is falling SICK!! Must tell God to take all these away. WE STILL GOT O' LEVEL LEH!!

PICTURE 1 :

MY ESOPHAGUS!!!

Okok. I know it look like "SAI KANG" but is NOT, ok? Lol. Er. It is at end of my so called "gullet" (as all of you all will know better. Cos Esophagus is too profound!) but is just right before entering to my stomach. The picture below will show you a "clearer view". Yup. That right! That's where the infection is at... YUCKS!














PICTURE 2 :
MY MEDICINE

MY LIFE IS REVOLVE WITH THESE MEDICINE NOW!!! ARGHH!!! My classmate- Cheryl said, "AND PORRIDGE TOO!"

Yayaya.. That's CHERYL!
"臭女儿"
HATE YOU FOR LIFE!!

PICTURE 3: ???!!

Remember that I did said in the previous post about- Doctor said something damn profound. And I swear that I dont understand. She said she got some flesh out from my duodenum etc etc and need to do some observation for 24 hours to see whether will it change colour anot. Yup yup. This is the one. Heehee. It didnt change colour!! WHEE!! Only have to deal with my infection with medicine only. Which needs me to take till Im fully ok. SIAN!!

I took 2 days off from school. I went to Mount. Alvernia Hospital to do a check up for my stomach. Because I been down with very bad gastric problem for coming 2 months le. Yesterday was consultation and today I went for a scan (last meal was 1830, 04 Aug 08). Hee. Oh well. The process was fun to me. Hee. I seriously enjoyed it.

I woke up at 0530 today, I bath, brush my teeth etc. Set off at 0615 (got to be there at 0700) from home and my dad drove me there and together with my mum. I got there and went to surgery centre. I registered and after that got push into the room at 0750.

WAITING.... WAITING.... WAITING... for my doctor to come.
While waiting for my doctor. I got to know these 2 nurses in the room and they kinda accompanied me. Damn funny loh!! One very blur (like sotong) and one very nice but kept cracking jokes. -Fainted- My doctor came at 0820 and then next moment, I dont know anything already. ZzzZzzZzz..

WOKE UP at 0855!! Im feeling very drowsy. Heehee. Then nurse called me to sleep LONGER!! Ha. Whatever! Then I sleep till 0945 and one nurse woke me up and pushed me to ultrasound room to scan my kidneys, liver and gallbladder too. After done with the scan, I got pushed back to my room and....... I CAN EAT LE!!! BUT PORRIDGE AGAIN!! SIAN! I been eating porridge for 1 week le. Pity me, please. Lol. Er... Actually I dont mind eating their porridge because I swear to you that their porridge is damn delicious. Yummy! "Can I have another bowl, please?" Kidding.

After finishing my food, I changed back to my clothes and waited for my report to come out. Waited for 20- 30mins and I got my report in my hands and head back to my doctor's clinic so that she could explain the details to me.

WAITING.... WAITING.... WAITING... for my doctor to finish with her patients. FINALLY!! It's my turn! Doc said that Im ok, only that my esophagus got infection and half of it is swollen (Im sorry. I couldnt manage to upload the pic, if not I can show you all) and all my acid juices are reversing inside which causes me to kept vomiting . One more thing, she said something damn profound. I swear I dont understand. She said she got some flesh out from my duodenum (I think so if Im not wrong. Sorry la. Im not doctor.) to do some observation for 24 hours to see whether will it change colour. If yes, then she got to remove all for me. If not, it mean that I just have to deal with my inflection only loh. Hahaha. I dont know when will it heals.

WARNING! (to everyone.)
Please do have proper meals from now. I used to skip breakfast all the time cos I dont have appetite in the morning. Even my lunch and dinner dont have a proper timing. I will eat whenever I like. At times, I even skip my lunch and combined it with dinner. All these times, I really neglected my esophagus's feeling. Im sorry. So you guys, please do take care of yourself, K? If not you got to bear this consequences.

Now I got to follow this....
Life Style Modification

• You may find it useful to keep a diary of your symptoms and the food you eat, so that you can see which foods affect you.
• Avoid eating too close to bedtime. Try to leave at least 2- 3 hours after a meal, before you go to bed.
• Avoid lying down after meals.
• Eat small regular meals.
• Do not wear tight clothing which may increase the pressure on your stomach.
• Raising the head of your bed by 4-6 inches(10-15cm) may help reduce night-time acid reflux.

Things to Avoid

• Citrus fruit
• Chocolate
• Coffee and Tea
• Fatty and fried foods
• Garlic and onions
• Mint flavouring
• Highly spiced foods
• Tomato-based foods

Oh well.... I just came back from my cousin's wedding at Ritz-Carlton Hotel, Millenia Singapore. Kinda sian.. Oops. Im sorry. She's damn pretty and hot today. I seriously never realised it all these years. Lol. Maybe because she last time VERY TU-TU and plus I dont see her often too. Hahaha. Her husband damn looked like a bouncer sia. Lol. They are actually dated for 11 years leh. OH MY TIAN! Winner! My parents only 10 years loh. They broke my parents' record. *Applause*


Pic 1: Have a closer look at their M&M Chocolate. They bought it from NEW YORK!
There are 2 kinds. 1st: Serene & Wilson. 2nd: We're married! Cool heh?


























Pic 2: My Bro, Dad and I




















Pic 3: Terrorists? Nah. Just my Bro and I (We're just bored.)





















Pic 4: My cousin and I.




















Pic 5: Cousins unite!! (IT'S SO HONORED TO STAND BESIDE A HOT BRIDE!)

I just found that my daddy's dream was to a Pilot leh. Damn cool, right? But why he didnt manage to fulfil his dream because of his education. He only got a 'N' Level cert. He couldnt make it to be a Pilot and he went to take all the licenses that he can. For example: All cars, motorbike, tank (he used be in SAF), Fox lift (lol. I dont know how to spell) and boat. Lol. My dad's a pro, right? Lol.

I also had a dream for my dad. Last sat, I told my dad that...
ME: Dad, I will grow up and be rich and buy you a yacht to go out to the sea and fish big creatures back.
DAD: Silly. All I want you to do is get a degree and earn money to survive in Singapore.
ME: Ok. I will. But I got my dream for you to fulfil for me too. I will do my best and get a boat license and drive you around around the sea.
DAD: *Smile* and hold my hand firmly.

Oh well. Im happy that I love him but still cant find back the real love for him. Im searching.. I LOVE YOU, DAD. I know you love me too. Thank you.

Heehee. A love gift from PAMELA SIA MEI YI. Lol. I kept "pestering" her to buy me a cookie monster soft toy from kiddy palace but she couldnt cos she's also saving up for her church building fund but she still damn nice to me. She made 4 bookmarks for me!! And all of them are COOKIE MONSTER!!!! NOW I GOT COOKIE MONSTERS!! Hahahaha.. But I still want my soft toy!!! Hee. Ya. Im still a KID!! Laugh at me loh!!! Who cares?!! Bleah!! =P

I come so far le.. I used to hate my family so much but no longer hate them now. Well. I really dont know why too. But I guess I really desire to see my family coming to know Christ. If I dont change, what make them think that they should change. Right? "Ren he kuang ta men bu shi Christians." But seriously I no longer holding onto the grudges that they had marked me in my memories. I dont know. I dont really remember whether do I struggled alot when I have to let go of the pains. I guess I didnt. Maybe because of my Pastor. She's the BEST EXAMPLE. She went thru, done it and showed us (churchmates n I) what is love like for a family. She's my IDOL!! I LOVE HER SIOL!

After thinking so much about the past, I realised how much I really love my family. Everyone is not perfect. I do judge ppl. See, Im imperfect too. I dont want to put so much expectation in them cos if they dont hit my expectation... Im going to be bitter again. And I have to go back to square one. Is not that I dont remember what they did in my life but I guess I chose to forget. I dont know how I did it but I just did it.

What really make me happy now is how they can appreciate me and love and that will fill up my love tank for them. I guess growing up for them was tough too but they pulled thru. I have God and what make me cant do the same thing but better and greater. I should be happier of what I have now and cherish them. I know I havent been loving them the way I should. Somehow I feel that I have my responsibility to make them feel loved but what I still cant take is... I dont really like/love to kiss them on their cheeks or smth. I no longer feel comfortable doing it. I dont know whether is it because of that silly incident that buried in my memories forever. But nothing is forever. I love them but I cant even feel it at times. I have no idea where am I. But what I really really love them deep down in my heart. I will search back my love for them.

I GOT 27/40 FOR MY ENGLISH ORAL!!! IS A B3!!! I DID MY BEST AND I HAVE NO REGRETS!!





WHATEVER LA, JO!!
Actually I kinda regret la. My conversation and picture sucks!!!

I LOVE YOU!!!

Hahahahahhahahahaha......

I GOT ONE BIG NEWS TO SHARE!!!!!!!!!

Im sure you guys will love it!!!

Last wednesday night, I went to collect my salary cheque from my manager. And when I opened up my cheque...... Guess what I see???!!!

MY EYES AND MOUTH OPENED VERY WIDE!!!
Because last week, I prayed to God that I want $500 for my salary. Last month, I worked and I calculated that I will only received $452.62 for my salary. But I told God that I want $500 and I really had faith for it. And then I really received $502.62! The extra $50 was a "bonus" thingy. Usually part timer wont received that much amount of "bonus". So when I received it, I was really shocked. Woohoo!!! Damn damn happy!! I love my GOD!!!

Im having very bad migraine now.. God, please heal me. Take away all my sickness now.













Oh yeah! Last night, I completed writing all the encouragement cards. I finished 156 cards. Oh man. I think I missed out some leh.. D-I-E!! But I give Lollipop first. Total I used 12 hours to complete it. Ultimate tiring but worth it. To give my love to everyone and let everyone know that I care to a certain extent. I love you guys. Lol.



Today, I woke up at 5.40am. I dont know whether is it God who woke me up and give me extra energy even though I only slept for 2 hrs (due to wanting to complete the card, I finished at 3am. Im really tired.) I did planned something in my mind, thinking to do something to cheer Pamela up because I was on the phone with her last night. We didnt talked for very long. She told me about her struggle etc.. God spoke to her about taking her class for Him etc. I know is kinda crazy to the world. But because she have problem loving her classmates etc as cos they are quite mean to a certain extent. She feel difficult to love people now. I dont know how to encourage her but I tried my best. So before I go to bed, I prayed to God about Pamela's problem and help her etc.. And God told me to write encouraging words on the postcard and so I did. After that, I went on to bed and also thinking to plan to make a trip down to PHS and pass her the card..

So this morning at 5.40am, I woke up (without alarm clock). Before I opened my eyes, I saw myself hugging Pam and encouraging her. I dont know it is God who is trying to tell me something but I believed that it is. So I woke up, full of energy and suddenly something popped up in my mind when I was praying in tongues. And it is to write another card and attached a candy bar and to show her that God can fill up the sweetness and love when she eat the candy. So I got down to PHS, waited her to come and pass her the postcard. I asked her whether she got feel touched anot leh. Then she said no and she's too shocked to see me... Er.. Ok. So sad.. Sob sob. I think she's not awake la. That why. Lol. I see her to school and I go off too...

BUT...... At this moment!!!! Dan Dan (Aiky) smsed me!! Hahaha. Jio me go for breakfast siol!!! Hahaha. He watched SOCCER last night that why.. So I accompanied him and after I went back home to rest for awhile and go to school with my LOLLIPOPS!! So happy!!

To Pam:
Dont worry, k? You can do all things through Christ who strengthen you. Dont give up and give in to the devil. he is just trying to stop you from doing greater things for God. You got Daddy's power and strength. Impossible is nothing! You can do the extraordinary things for God and HISTORY will be remembered. You got your story to tell the world and glorify God. I will be waiting for your testimony. You will touch many lives. Have Faith! Believe for the unseen things. Tell Daddy that you want to know what is faith. Im sure that He will answer your prayer. I will be praying for you. I love you and God loves you too!

WHAHAHAAHAHA!!! I want to say something which is ultimate bo liao!!! got a mosquito bite last friday!!! Why would I want to blog it cos I havent got any mosquito bite for coming 2 years.. Hohohohoh...!! I know is like, "How can this be? You must be kidding!" Er. Oh well.. My house dont have mosquito!! TOA PAYOH LORONG 7 ROCKS!! Hahaha. Whatever la...

Oh man.. I have been very sick recently. Im having very bad gastric pain. Like for a week already. I seen a doctor, took my medicine but the pain kept coming back and forth!! What can I do? Only to laugh my head off when the pain is here!! Oh man. I really hate this pain! I dont have appetite for food at times. I take very light meals now. I already trying my best to eat le. But............ Oh man!!! Can somebody tell me what to do?