Im on my track with God now.. I know at times is not going to be easy but Im willing to give my best. I want to run for God again. I will change. I need time but I will continue and persevere to go on. Im praying with my genuine heart: praying with love, praying for my family and my friends. I want to love God and fear Him too.

I want to see my best friend, Pamela, to run for God, to be a leader in Heart of God Church. I'll pray for her everyday. We will be like Jonathan and David in the bible. We will love one another. We will sacrifice together. We will seek God together. We will pray on the phone together before we go to bed. I believe that trials and testing will be along the way but we will fight. We inspire and motivate one another. We will love others. We want to touch lives. We will share cool testimonies. All these because........... WE WANT TO LOVE GOD!! Even if we fail, we will try again!

Well. This is just some random post. Actually is to be able I remember and understand better of my love language and a fren of mine that I want to cherish- Pamela. You can take the test too! Go online and search for it!

We're actually bi-lingual in our love language. So we have 2 primary love language and 1 secondary love language. Love language is all about understanding ourselves and one another too. For like improving the Common Denominator in all our relationships. Jesus taught an important lesson about relationships. Essentially, what He said is that if any of us tries to improve a relationship by getting the other person to change (working hard to get the speck out of the other person’s eye), energies are being expended in the wrong direction. The place to begin is with our own failures (the plank or beam in one’s own eye).

Pam's love language
Primary- Quality Time & Physical Touch
Secondary- Receiving Gift

My love language
Primary- Words of Affirmation & Quality Time
Seconday- Acts of Service

Pls let me know yours, if you're going to take the test. So that I can know you better. Thank you.

I LOVE SIA MEI YI PAMELA!!!

Hahhahaha.. THANK YOU FOR EVERYTHING IN MY LIFE!
I have tons of things to say to you..

10 things that I want to thank you for.....

1) Being there for me when I needed someone especially those days (Do you still remember?)

2) Your words of encouragement is a strength for me to go on.

3) Your love for me is AWESOME!

4) Your Family Members: Dad, Mum, Sis, Mama, Gong-Gong, all your Aunties and Uncles for loving me to a certain extent. They are the best!! Especially Mama! I love her as much as you do just like how I love my own grandma.

5) You're a gift person. I mean you love giving gifts. Hands down to you man!! I cant beat you loh. You give me gifts more than I do. Lol. (What a failure siol!! fainted.)

6) Teaching me how to play piano. (At times, you really got no patience. But it ok, you're forgiven now. lol.)

7) Teaching some hands crafts stuffs and maths problems when I needed help. (Er.. We havent study for a long time leh. We always turn out to go shopping and watch movies. I sian with it liao. STUDY TIME!!! You ready? Study with Uncle Nat too, K? Lol.)

8) Correcting my english at times when I didnt pronounce my vocabulary probably. (If though at times, you have no patience = attitude to me loh. lol. =X)

9) Bearing my xiao hai zi bi qi at times. (Sorry. At times, I dont know why I cant control and recognise emotions. But to ignore you for no reason. Very bad hor. I think Im the worse among your horrible friends. Ha. Kidding!! =X)

10) Used to treat me meals whenever I have no cash. (But now I got work, WO YOU DE SHI $$, WO QING NI. K?)

ALL I WANT TO SAY IS....

THANK YOU! THANK YOU!

I APPRECIATED YOUR LOVE, CONCERN AND CARE!

MOI LURVE YOU DIP DIP 1314!!

Is you that I realised that I never did appreciated anybody in my life. Thru you, I see the most selfish side of me of not loving others. I take things for granted. You scolded me about it and I couldnt understand about it. I prayed just now. I told God that I want to learn how to appreciate others in my life. So I post this post because this idea popped up to me- Is to thank you as I was praying to God. And so, I want to let you and others know that I want to make a difference today! ONCE AGAIN THANK YOU SO MUCH!! LOVE YA!!

I HATE THE-RE!!!!

I KANNA QIANG WEN BY HER TODAY!!!

ARGHHH!!!!!!!!

SOB SOB!! T.T

lol. just kidding la. I still love you.

Hahha. I havent post for quite some time le. haha. Im so happy loh. This friend of mine named Sherrilyn. Why? Cos she always tell me that I must be postive. For example- 2 months back, I fell really really sick. So I was having geography that day and I said Im very sick. Then she said to me, "You must be positive! If you're positive, you will be ok." So from there onward, I learnt from her and kept telling myself that Im ok. Im not tired. I must be happy. And now Im really happy again. Lol.

2-3 week ago, I bought my mum a silver braclet for Mother's Day. She damn happy. Hahaha. Im so glad that she's still wearing it and loving it. Is all because I have a good taste!! Is always in me. =P Haahhaha. I guess my dad is kinda jealous. Hahhaah. Well. Im going to buy him a present when Father's Day is near. But I still dont know what I want to buy for him. Lol. Nevermind.

Im on taking step by step back to God. I dont want to rush and push myself this time round. Cos I know I will not be ready for it. So must well, dont force, if not I will be depressed again. Lol. CHOY! I guess I will talk more abt it soon.

Hee. I know alot of people know that I have skin problem. Some people still can ask me, "Hey. You got chicken pox ar?" Er.. Well. I really dont know how to explain what is the name of my skin problem and it's not CHICKEN POX!! STOP IT! Lol. Since young, I had it. My dad too.. I guess is inherted by him. When it got slightly worse when I was about 5 or 6, my dad bought me to "this place"(cannot say the name lah) for a treatment and my skin was never cure loh. 5 yrs of seeing them loh. No OUTCOME!! So my dad and I kinda gave up and never return back then. Ok la. Then Doctor did told us want to skin away our skin and I heard is not cheap and it is also not a 100% thing and it might come back again. Siao! I think 2 leg is abt 10K. Plus my dad's? 20K? Our hands? 4oK? Oh man. Fainted! I dont come from a rich family. Lol. But well.. Now Im seeing this doctor. Is nearby my house area, is placed at Toa Payoh Lorong 1. I think he's the best! He gave me medicine and cream to apply and now my skin are get better but the only thing is I cant get away the dead skin which the so called scar marks. So Im thinking to go for fish flexology at Sentosa. Anyone wanna go with me? Cos I heard that is good leh. What's that? Have you seen on the television that these kind of little fishes will come near to your skin when you put your legs in the water and they will chew up all your dead skin? Sound familiar? Yup. That's right! So I want to give it a try! If my legs get better. You know what I will do?? Take lots of photo of my beautiful legs first then I will go for TATTOOS!! I want to have a family portrait and some good friends too. Hahaha... I will be extremely happy for life from there... Of cos, more to come. I want to be an ANG GONG SIAO!!

I want to complain loh!!! The stupid C ppl kept calling my house for the past 5 days but now stopped already. You know why? Cos my mum finally cannot tahan and said, "I dont have an account. You all want me to collect the money izit. You call "999", so that police could transfer for me or take to my house." Guess what? They hung up and neve call again!!!!!!!!! BO LIAO!!!

Story: They called and said wanna look for my mum and say,"M** K**, you just won $8888. Congrats! We would like to have your bank account, so that we can transfer the money to your bank." Then kept trying their best to coax my mum(sweet-talker). Is like cant you guys stop cheating Singaporeans' money especially older ppl? You think very funny, izit?

Do you know once you get catch by police, you have to go to jail? Why dont you go back to your country and do whatever you want(if you're just coming to Singapore to do all these cheatings and stuffs). Is like dumb, stupid and silly to cheat other ppl' money lah.. Would you want me to cheat your money or something? Why you all so tu??!!! Ai. Is our hard money after all. We are all humans, we got a pair of hands and legs. God give us this limbs, so that we could be down-to-earth and work etc... But you guys are not loh. I know is not easy to earn alot of money but it isnt easy for us too.

GO AWAY!!!

I went to donate blood this morning. Finally!!!! Hahaha.. About 10 months didnt go for bllod donation. I missed it sia. Hahaha

Process 1: Fill up the form

















Process 2: Test my iron. (To see whether enough iron, so that i can go on for blood giving)


















Process 3: Giving my blood.



















Process 4: Im done!!!!!!

This is Uncle Kang, my daddy's good buddy in Army.. Hahahaha. A very nice uncle. I can say he quite dote on me. Then he recently passed me his "baby" which is abt 20yrs old bass amplifer.. hahaha.. But the voltage damn high loh.. The electricity can travel to your finger. Very dangerous. Im thinking to get gloves, so tt can cut down the voltage. If not hor, I think you will see me with alfro hairstyle one day. lols. Anyway he's damn pro in bass and he can play lots of instrument. He used to be a rocker!!! hahaha. rock on! \m/ Moi luv you dip dip 1314, Uncle Kang. hahaha

Today, my CG celebrated my bday. hahaha. thkq thkq.

CAKE= DONUT!! (NICE! YUMMY!)
PRESENT= STUDS WRISTBAND. (Do you guys called them that?)

LOVE YOU GUYS.. THE BEST PRESENTS WAS ALL THE HUGGIES THAT YOU GUYS GAVE!!!

LOVE LOVE LOVE!!
MOI LOVE TANK IS FULL NOW!!!!

This is what I did on 14th March 08 on my brother's bday. I forget to post ar. Sorry sorry. I made him use his fingers to press all the 20 small candles and he kinda burnt his fingers. =X. Oops. EVIL ME!!

I have no idea why Glenn and Cheryl wanted to have this dumb dice fight.

thanks guys. love you all

A MINI BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION FOR JIEJIE

I really planned something very boring la. I really dont know what to do and bring her to somewhere that she can really enjoy. I only know that she love SENTOSA and so I thought of bringing her to take CABLE CAR and so that she can have a view of SENTOSA (but we talk talk till also never notice whether we see sentosa anot loh). Hahahaha.

But when I bring her up there. She damn CHAO LA!!! Lol. She said she got JU GAO ZHEN and then CHAO till non-stop!!! Wah lau!! I really cannot take it siol. So strong in physical body but yet still scare about all these. *fainted* Cannot tahan her loh. Luckily I didnt get the glass cabin one cos I actually did think she might have JU GAO ZHEN, so i get the normal cable and in the end, she really have ju gao zhen loh. If not, I think she might not even get into the cable car la. Then D-I-E already. Hahaha. I bought her subway wrap to eat and cookie as her bday cake and we ate in the cable car (she ate her share and I eat mine. duh!).

And we also went to Sentosa's Siloso Beach to go "chew chew feng" and talk talk again....

I LOVE HER MUCH MUCH!! HAHA.

PICTURES:

MY BIRTHDAY CELEBRATION PART II

Picture1: Cut the cake

















Picture 2: Re and I


















Picture 2: Re and I again (*yawn* =X)

















Picture 4: Re, Ver, Me!!












HEY BUD! WHY MY PHONE DONT HAVE SU TING'S PIC INSIDE? SEND ME IF YOU DO HAVE. I WANT IT, K?

S-T-O-R-Y
First of all, I want to thank The-Re, Verne, Su Ting, Asmine, Magdalene, Shella for celebrating my birthday. It is a SURPRISE mini party!!! hahaha. Sorry, Everyone, I didnt mean to think too much last night and exposed you guys today. Lol.

Ha. Why I did say I exposed them?
-Cos Re smsed me last night and tell me that she need someone to talk to. She have no one to turn to but only me etc.. I sweared to you guys that I was really worried abt Re but I dont know why after some time of thinking. I started to find it weird cos I cant take the fact that Re got no one to turn to cos it is impossible. Ha. Then at that point of time, my mind suddenly, "Ting-ting! It must be a setup birthday party". Hahhaha. But another side of me, Im still kinda worry for Re cos what if Im wrong. So this morning, I walked to school but I was late for class cos my stomach suddenly very pain(blame my stomach, K?), so went to public toilet first and reach school around and I SAW....... SU TING HOLDING A CAKE!!! hahaha. Then in my mind, I CONFIRMED that they are celebrating for me. hahaha. SORRY SORRY! By the time, Su Ting looked damn shocked when she see me. lol. Love you guys. Once again, THANK YOU!!

I WANT TO DONATE BLOOD! I DONT NEED CONSENT FORM ALREADY. IM FINALLY 18 YEARS OLD. I HAVENT BEEN DONATING BLOOD FOR MONTHS. LOL. I MISSED THOSE DAYS. HA, GROSS.

IM THINKING TO GO TOMORROW MORNING BUT I JUST REMEMBERED THAT THEY DONT OPEN ON MONDAYS. SIANS.

My birthday celebration with Pam and Qing De yesterday. Haha. HAPPY HAPPY!! Love them lots. Cheryl busy taking photo for us. lol.




















Today- Children's ministry celebrated for me too. Love them lots!! Ha. THEY HUGGED ME!!! FELT THEIR LOVE IN MY HEART!

I wanted to post this since last month but I didnt have time. I just wanna say something. Im so sorry, if I really have offend you. Pardon me, please.

I didnt realised this till one of my friend tell me (she is a now free-thinker. She used to be involved in tons of religions). I was talking to her about why do people become anti-christ. All they do is curse and swear about God is like these and that. My friend said they are just ****ing losers. So I asked her why and she said something which I dont really remember. But after what my friend tell me, I also think that they are really a bunch of LOSERS!

As you see, they kept going around telling people, post on their blogs about God is a liar, there is no God etc.. I believed you guys hear all these before right? Or maybe am I talking to you? You see, I tell you why I think you/they are losers, K? Ok. Just throw everything aside about what religion am I, K? Same for you too if you used to be in one of the religion that you're committed with.

First thing, you wouldnt curse and swear about God. You know why? People who have better IQ than you, they would think.... "Er. If there is no God, then why are you promoting about God is not real, God is nothing etc." Am I right? If God is not real to you, you wont bother to curse and swear about Him. You wont even care to mention God again. And the more you curse and swear, people who have better knowledge knows that there must be God, if not why you kept cursing and swearing about God 24/7. I think you're helping to save the losts. Well Done!

You know why you curse and swear about God?
Answers:
1) You got bad impression about Christians.
2) You were once a Christian. Maybe whatever your church thingy is and blah blah. For example- You prayed to God and your prayer is not answered. So when your prayer is not answer, you start to doubt God etc.
3) You just get influenced by friends that are anti-Christ, so you became one of them.

Well. I dont know what else to say. You all think about it la. You either self-deceiving or immature. Just smile and chill!

PLEASE STOP SAYING ME E-M-O.

IM NOT, IM NOT!!

IM LIKE THAT. EMOTIONLESS.

E-M-O-T-I-O-N-L-E-S-S

ONLY EMO KIDS EMO. I DONT.

IM THOSE WHO CANT RECOGNISE MY EMOTIONAL.

EMO KIDS KNOW THAT THEY ARE DEPRESSED. (AND I DONT KNOW WHY THEY DO. AND THEY CUT THEMSELVES. I DONT DO THAT. THAT'S HURT!)

FOR ME, I CANT FEEL WHAT MY REAL EMOTIONAL ARE.

Words that I wanna say......

I missed my Jiejie, Sherry.

I missed my Cousin, Nor-Nor.

Im very tempted to get a portrait tattoo of my Parents when they were young.

Im very tempted to get a tattoo of the Last Supper picture on my arm.

Im thinking of getting my Good friends, Nor-Nor, Godma and my bro's childhood photo and tattoo them on my skin.

Im tired of everyday studying non-stop. (lol. no choice la. O level is near.)

I want to get good results for my O Level.

I want to go EggStory School next year. (School fee damn EX!!! Lol. =X. But I dont mind cos I want to do what Im interested about.)

I want to get 8hours of sleep everyday. (Which is impossible. Then studies, how?)

I wanna Rrgh, Rrgh, RRGH!! (I mean shout!!)

I feel like biting people.

I want to apologise to God for hurting Him. (Im sorry.)

I suddenly have the urge to want to go on fast for 1 year. (so to get back to God once again but have no faith)

I love my Pastor!

I want to skate.

I want to be RICH! (So that I can feed the poors.)

I want to be a good God-mummy to my Jiejie's kids. (Of cos. Is when she get marry and have babies lah. DOTZ!!)

I want to sing.

I want to smoke. (tempted only)

I want to drink.

Im angry.

Im happy.

Im sad.

I know whoever read this, will confirm say I E-M-O!! (Nevermind. I just wanna express myself and not to bottle up my feeling.)

I want to love people.

I want people to love me.

I want to love and spend time with my parents.

I want to love and spend time with my friends and churchmates. (feeling for them seem like very far away, I dont really like the feelings.)

I want to love Nor-Nor more than ever. (sorry, maybe is partly my fault.)

I take things for granted. (Im sorry for whoever is treating me very nice. I know that Im not grateful.)

I hate you. (you know who you are. ba*tard!!)

I want 32GB ipod touch. (actually not really le lah.)

I want to play Grand Theft Auto!!

I want to eat SUBWAY! (SIAO! Im working there already, still craving for it and sometime I eat till I dont know what I want to get siol. dots..)

I want to eat JAPANESE SEAWEED & TAKOYAK!! (I want to eat 8 balls of TAKOYAKI!!)

I want to go TAIWAN again!! (though is kinda boring. I just wanna eat the dried dumplings! Yum Yum! HUNGRY!!)

I want to have a OSIM Massage Chair. (Cheaper to have it at home then going out to have SPA which is like so EX but I havent been one. lol. *FAINTED*)

I want my JieJie to be able to dance, if she have to go for her operation for her shoulder. (Love you much much!)

I want no one to have a broken family (Which is like impossible, Im not God. but you can pray to God. Teehee.)

I want my classmates to get good results for their O Level.

Hahaha. I just realised something... Im running out of words.. You know why?

I DAMN TIRED!! CIAO CIAO!! GOING OFF TO BED!!

IM VERY LAZY TO POST MY BLOG!!!

I WILL TO IT SOON.

IM VERY TIRED. WANNA SLEEP.