Wah. You know what guyz?? I just got 2 more ulcers last saturday and now it got WORSE!!! And you know why??? At first, when I got it I didnt really care because it was not as bad as the previous one. Then yesterday it hurt alot, and I got no choice but to put salt. Coz my watermelon powder frost run out. And today, my ulcer got even worse. Wah.. I wanna cry liao la.. *Grrr* Probably I cant use salt the next time. Sigh. So guyz, please listen to me and just drink plenty of water especially now chinese new year is coming. =)

Oh man. I was suppose to be at my junior's house. Cos she wanted to cook for me but in the end, she cant make it and got to cancel the appointment with me. Because her cell leader need to talk to her. Haha. [To: Cheryl - No worries, Im not sad or disappointed. I just feel that cant wait to eat your delicious cooking. lol.] Mmm.. Im feeling very tired again but didnt want to take afternoon nap, if not I cant sleep tonight. Whee. I cant wait for my cell tomorrow. Dont know why also. Probably just cant wait to meet God in the classroom. Hee. I need Him more than anything other things in my life. Ha. Yea. Mmm. I just realised Im going on 16 this year. *Urghh* Oh no. And next year is 17!!!!!!!! *Grrrr* And next year, most probably my parents will "dump" me and my brother in Singapore for 2 yrs. Coz my dad is going oversea and work. Taiwan, Indian and Thailand?? Err.. One of this countries. Oh, by the way, my dad worked for the SAF as a Technician. Ehh.. He's in charged of weapons(if Im not wrong.) He decided to work oversea because he wants me and my brother to be indenpendence and also partly of he will get sightly higher pay. But my mum might not want to go with my dad. Oh my poor daddy. He will be lonely over there. Hm. And my dad only will want to give us $300 per month. wah. I dont know how to survive now sia. Which is also including topping up my ez-link card, pay my phone bill and 3 meals(per day). Haha. The most I think Im going to eat instant noodles and can foods(more cheaper mah).

Hm..Today is the week 3, day 1 of school. Feeling so vexed by my friends' problem at times. Whenever my friends have problems etc, they always said God is not there for them, He didnt not love them and they also start to murmur and blame God etc.. (e.g. And some stopped reading their bible and pray.) I feel so hurt whenever christians said that. Sometime I explain or maybe at times I does scold them abit to wake them up. Hm. God love us so much and yet most of us cant see. He never even leave us. I love Him so much.. Guyz, please stop saying God. I do believe God is hurt whenever you said all these. Just like when people say you, you will get hurt too, right? Really. God love you to the core and He created you for a purpose. Dont choose to leave God. Love God with all your heart, soul and mind. Just put Him first in everything you do. Dont try to be a christian, just be a christian. And seriously, be a 24/7 on fire christian and not a lukewarm christian. Remember this-> there's nothing impossible for God. God love YOU always and forever!!!!

Yeah! Guess what?? Yesterday night, I went out with my parents. They want me to keep them company. So I agreed. I did enjoyed myself last night. We went to Changi beach, East Coast Park and Marina South(the bowling area). Haha. My dad was saying some lame jokes, then my mum is those add some stuffs to make it very exaggerate to the jokes. Lolx. Is kinda dumb. But I havent been so happy and laugh with my parents for very long. And that the way, I like my family to be like that. But too bad, my brother didnt follow us. Haha. I was holding my parents' hands and I was swinging their hands like nuts and so high. Then my dad also thinks Im siao. Haha. I was in between my parents plus holding their hands. Can picture that?? lolx. I would I wish to take a picture with my parents last night and post it here and show it to you guyz. Hee.. Then my parents and I were taking our turn to be in the middle then we will start swinging our hands very high. haha. so funny.

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I went to ask my pastor juz now abt izit ok to miss God etc.. Then she said yes, it ok and you just hungry for God. haha. Ok. I thought there's a problem with me. Seriously? At first I thought Im nuts. lol. Actually Im not, is just that Im hungry. And I need to be more hungry everyday. As Im writing this Im missing God etc.. God is so important is my life. Im one of God's crazy lover. Lol. Really really. Coz sometime when I know I never spend enough time with God, then my heart will have that kind of sour sour feeling. Haha. No wonder my junior also want to have that kind of feeling. Lol. Ok. Have anyone experience this feeling before or you're now already have this kind of feeling?? Yea! I want to share with you, can?? lol. or maybe you havent, you want to ask me more?? I will still share with you. Hee.

Mm.. I think you guyz missed someone before, right? And you know that is that kind of feeling, right? Ya. I do have it too.. Especially this year, Im always got that kind of feeling of missing God. Is kinda sound funny. As in like you know that God is always right beside you whenever you call Him etc.. And this feeling is like you are so deep in love with someone and you're missing him or her inside your heart when they are away or you dont get to see them. Wanting to grab hold of him or her and spend time with them. And that it is... That's my feeling for God everyday. And God is just in my mind all over. Mm. And so I went to tell my junior about it and she said is so cool and she want that feeling for God too. Haha. Ok. Mm. What about you guyz? Do you have that feeling too??

Haha. Guess what day is today? Is Friday 13th. Lolx. Actually no one notice it today. But I was laughing away when I was writing the date on my english worksheet. Haha. Whenever I hear Friday 13th, I always laugh at it. Cos most people will think the most unlucky things will happen on this "special day". Haha. Ok. Enough of that. Haiya. I'm so extremely tired today. Dont know why, just been sleeping very late recently. Dont know why I cant get to bed at night. And usually after school Im so exhausted and want to sleep. But I dont know why Im so stress about my coming 'N' Level. I want to get 3As, then can go to sec 5 for 'O' Level. But Im scare that I cant tahan the pressure when Im sec 5. Cos got so many subjects!!! Sob sob. So nervous about my 'N' Level now. Coz one of my teachers said that just imagine you take all the march, june and september holiday break etc.. Is only like you got 5 to almost 6 months to study. *Urgh* 5-6 months only??!!! Wanna cry liao la. Im so scare. Oh man.

Mmm. Was looking through some stuffs just now. And this is the first cross that I received from Su when I was sec 2. Haha. I really like the cross. And dont know why till now I dont bear to wear it. Lolx.


And this is when I was sec 3, Pastor C.J. gave her cross to me. And wrote something for me before she went to toronto. Mm.. I read and I cried loh. Haha. Quite rare, right? Feel so touched. And this cross, is her first cross when she first getting on fire for God. Haha. I dont even want dare to wear it because I scare I make it dirty or even spoil it. I know how to take care la. Is just that is her first cross loh.. And I dont bear to wear it.

okok. Now Im going to talk a bit of craps over here. Haha. I saw one of my seniors yesterday in the bus. I remember she and her friends always called me, H.M. Texas. Lol. I missed those day at times. But trying not to put in my mind. Coz this nickname somehow doesnt come out so good. Haha. 'H' stand for Handsome, 'M' stand for Monitoress and plus Texas in is Handsome Monitoress Texas. Haha. Kinda a long story to explain all over here. You want to know? Probably I may tell you. Lolx.

Haha. Guess which one is my junior who I always talk about? Mm.. Nono. She's not on the left but on the right. Ok. I think she dont really look cute for this pic. But really in live, she's really look cute. haha. lol. Anyway that one on the left is her sister. She's also very cute loh. haha. By the way, I just went to ask my junior to take the 5 love language thingy. Haha. The result is-Acts of Service, Gifts, Quality Time, Words of Affirmation and Physical Touch. Wow.. Now I know her 5 love language, then I can be more careful with it. Coz I dont want to hurt her. Mm.. She really look every mature in that pic hor? Do you agree with me? Anyway I got her pic from her friendster account. Oops. =X

haha. Today is the 2nd week, day 1 of term 1. Mm.. Seriously the days in school are alright. I been making a lot of friends but always forget their names. Oh no. Usually I recognize them by faces. But when you see them from far away then you want to say hi, right? Then is like a bit impossible to do that. Coz is like you wont want to shout oei, oei.. then it will be rude, right? Ya. So I think I really need to have a good memory. If not, next time when I have my own cell then I cant even remember all my disciple's name then chia lat liao. Sigh. Lolx. My memory has been getting worse as I grow up, but I still can remember alot of things in the past and not really remember recently things that had happened to me. Mm.. I think there's a problem with my memory. Mm.. I need to get new "memory card" to replace it. Haha. Mm.. Where to get it?? Does anyone know where to get it? lolx. I think I better pray for a new one or maybe pray for it to be expandable. Haha. Best heh. Prayer just rocks to the core sia. Mm.. Wah. I feel so touched sia.. Remember that junior which is close to me?? Guess what? She said she want to cook something good for me to eat. =) Yipee. Wah. I feel so touched and loved. Yeah! But she said either this week or probably when she's more free then she can cook for me. Haha. So cool. Im so fortunate. Are you jealous or envy me that I got such a nice junior? But seriously no one actually want or have cook anything for me in my life (lol. pls dont count those parties, or my mum's and even those you can buy it outside.) Haha.. I havent been eating much good foods. And my junior know about it and that why she want to cook for me. Is she trying to "bao da" me izit?? lolx. Haha. *sigh* I think so far I only eat something which you guyz think is good and is KFC. Then the rest is more on instant noodles and bread. lolx. If I carry on eating instant noodles, I think soon you all will see me with a wig walking around. Then when wind blow, and you will see the wig fly off and you will see my "beautiful" hair. Lolx. Kidding. Mm, I think also a bit good la. Let me suffer a bit and just let me feel the taste of being poor for awhile. Coz I think sometimes my generation is too fortunate already. And at times I already consider myself kinda poor but there's even more people out there that are even worse than me. Ha! And now one more thing has been happening to me and my family, and that is there's a problem with my house's electricity then always blackout arh. Haha. Is like living in kampong but is those like 4-5 stars kampong style. Got gas, electricity etc etc... But always got problems with it. Haha. Mm. If you want to rate it as a hotel then it will be the half a start hotel. lolx. Mm.. It ok. Im fine with everything at home now. Of cuz, my parents still not happy with me going out to church on sunday etc.. But they cant stop me. Im always praising, thanking God for everything that He's giving me now. I never regret knowing Him, He brought me up to here and He will bring me to end of it. I just keep trusting, following, loving Him etc.. At times, I still wonder why is this all happening to me etc.. But I believe God is growing me. Is like a baby learning how to walk, then when a baby fall, he/she will try to stand up again to continue to the next step. And that is where I am at now. Just kinda need a bit more time to finish it. No matter what I will still continue walking, coz I know God is here with me always and forever. =)

Haha. Im sure Sea-Ha-Ha-Ha Hum will remember this little map we had while trying to get our way to SCCC. Haha. I really missed those days while we were at the LTC 2005 Intake 1. Haha. Let us look forward to LTC 2006 Intake 2 then.. Hohoho.

My 5 Love Languages

Hello guyz!! Especially to the r.n. members. Im sure you guyz want to know your 5 love languages, right? I was surfing the net and guess what I found. A website that you can take a test about your 5 love languages. So I did my test just now at this webby -> http://selectsmart.com/FREE/select.php?client=lovelanguages. So you guyz go and take your's too and post it on your blog. Yea? And I post my 5 love languages below here and you can take a look. So what's your love languages? (And please do answer all the questions seriously with your heart.)

And it says:

Your Results:
Your prediction for your #1 result: (which is mine)
Words of Affirmation--You need to hear praise. Does that match your actual #1 result below?
Your Results The list below is modified by your input. Note: The selector author alone determined the questions and scoring of these results.

#1
Words of Affirmation--You need to hear praise to know you are loved and you may also prefer to express your affection verbally. Negative comments cut right to the bone. You want to hear that you're loved and how much and why.

#2
Acts of Service--You prefer to show your love through favors and chores and doing things for others. You feel put-upon and unappreciated when your efforts are taken for granted.

#3
Gifts--You are moved by presents and physical tokens of affection. It's the fact that someone is thinking about you enough to give you something that moves you. The objects are of secondary importance to the relationship and sentiment with which they were intended.

#4
Quality Time--This can be expressed either through those intimate tete-a-tete discussions or via doing things together. It's possible to get a low score in this category because you have a strong preference for one form of Quality Time over another.

#5
Touch--You want to give and/or receive affection physically. This may or may not center around sex.

The result of my Personality Tests

Just went to take a Personality test on the net. And Black is my colour. The color of night. Serene and mysterious, black conjures up images of elegant evening gowns, dashing tuxedos, and gleaming limousines. Traditionally a symbol of success, black also represents power and an uncompromising demand for perfection. Not surprisingly, you tend to set challenging goals for yourself and do whatever it takes to achieve them — your strength of character is second to none. This unfaltering determination, along with your natural elegance, impresses people. But keep in mind that your personality might be intimidating to some. Try to temper your demanding side with a little softness — trust us, it won't kill you. Overall, though, black is the color of professionalism and achievement, which means it's clearly the color for you.

Then also 2 personality tests from my workshop.

First test says that Im a both Left & Right brain.

Left Brain

• Right half of your body
• Logic
• Language
• Step by step
• Analysia
• Details
• Words
• Numbers
• Sequence
• Linearity.

Right Brain

• Left half of your body
• Creativity
• Imagination
• Simultaneous
• Synthesis
• Big Picture
• Rhythm
• Spatial Awareness
• Dimension.

Second test says that Im a Kinesthetic Learners -> Act, Listen, Look

• Take my time
• Have a feel it first; often accused of being slow
• Have "itchy hands"
• Prefer big gestures
• Touch people and stand too close
• Physically oriented
• Memorize by walking, seeing
• See one thing at a time ("show me")
• Learning: learn through manipulating and actually doing
• Recall: remember overall impression of what was experienced.

And lastly my Christianity Personality Tests says that Im a MelPhleg. But I dont know whether is this my final answer for my personality. I kept redo-ing it because the answers always come out more than 2 personality. I think I retake for 5 times and then I decided to get the closest one. lolx. So confused. Dont know which is the real me.

Some of the greatest scholars the world has ever known have been MelPhlegs. They are not nearly as prone to hostility as the two previous melancholies and usually get along well with others. These are gifted introverts combine the analytical perfectionism of the melancholy with the organized efficiency of the phlegmatic. They are usually good-natured humanitarians who prefer a quiet, solitary environment for study and research to the endless rounds of activities sought by the more extroverted temperaments. MelPhlegs are usually excellent spellers and good mathematicians. These gifted people have greatly benefited humanity. Most of the world's significant inventions and medical discoveries have been made by MelPhleg. Despite his abilities, the MelPhleg, like the rest of us, has his own potential weakness. Unless controlled by God, he easily becomes discouraged and develops a very negative thinking pattern. But once he realizes it is a sin to develop the spirit of criticism and learns to rejoice, his entire outlook on life can be transformed. Ordinarily a quiet person, he is capable of inner angers and hostility caused by his tendency to be vengeful. MelPhleg are usually vulnerable to fear, anxiety, and negative self-image. It has always amazed me that the people with the greatest talents and capabilities are often victimized by genunie feelings of poor self-worth. Their strong tendency to be conscientious allows them to let others pressure them into making commitments that drain their energy and creavtivity. When filled with God's Spirit, these people are loved and admired by their family because their personal self-discipline and dedication are exemplary in the home. But humanitarian concerns can cause them to neglect their family. Unless they learn to pace themselves and enjoy diversions that help them relax, they often become early mortality statistics. The most likely candidate for MelPhleg in the Bible is the beloved Apostle John. He obivously had a very sensitive nature, for as a youth he laid his head on Jesus' breast at the Lord's Supper. On one occasion he became so angry at some people that he asked the Lord Jesus to call fire from heaven down on them. Yet at the crucifixion he was the lone disciple who devotedly stood at the cross. John was the one to whom the dying Jesus entrusted his mother. Later the disciple became a great church leader and left us five books in the New Testament, two of which (the Gospel of John and the Book of Revelation) particularly glorify Jesus Christ.

Mmm.. Wah. Havent post anything on my blog for 2 days liao.. I just back came from school. Why so late?? Orh. Coz yesterday and today, I got 2 days workshop to attend. It's a longgg day. lol. But I think the workshop does really helps. And I think is gonna help me in my studies etc. Im so motivated now. woohoo. haha. I think is gonna to be good for my 'N' level revision studies. I was so scared of my 'N' level before that. But now Im slightly feeling better. Yeah! Im now down with bad flu and cough. All the "chendol" coming out from my nose.. lolx. But before my flu and cough, I got super big patch of ulcer in my throat. One BIG patch there loh!! Not those like the normal ones you have it. *OUCH*OUCH* Super pain sia. Is like when I breathe in, it already hurt alot. Then yesterday, in the middle of 2am, I went to split saliva then is all blood. So can you imagine how bad izit??! Sigh. Ha. At least, Im feeling better now. Yeah! Must be the prayer that my close junior prayed for me. whee. Mm. I also prayed for her coz she also fall sick. She got headache and also keep vomiting and now she's feeling better. hee. Mm. I wonder whether is she the one that God showed me when I prayed for a best friend. But I cant remember the looks when God showed me last year. But I remember the background, is at my church and also she wears a pink cap. Mm. Maybe I still need to wait till she appear in my church. Then probably my junior is not the one that God showed me. . Lol. But what I remember is she looked sweet & cute. ha. Which my junior also got that looks too. lol. wow. So confused now. Hee. Mm. I havent been eating during my recess except yesterday lunch time. Ha. Coz Im saving money mah. I still need to pay my church camp fee. Trying to pay it as soon as possible, I dont want to drag it any longer. It getting too long and I really feel so bad about it. *Urghhh.* I just havent pay back the full amount, which is $30 to go. Then I still need to return one of my friend's money too. Wah. I dont want to talk about her. She make me left a scar in my heart about money. Sigh. I wanna cry sia. Because of that, I have changed about treating someone with my own willingness rather it become a motive then next time..... urghh.. I think I should just stop there.. Dont want to talk more about it.

Yeah! Today was so great! Cos finally school reopen and it also my Godma's 46th birthday. (oops. =X. Heehee. Forgive me for saying your age out. but you do look very young to me loh. so it ok. lolx.) Haha. Some of you all dont know who is my Godma, right? She is Norman's mummy. Mmm. So it went like that we went to bishan area and get a birthday cake for her today(which is what we can afford.) And after that we need to take a bus to Nor's place and then when we were on the way home, we were planning about how we going to give my Godma a surprise. So during the bus journey, suddenly I received a message from my Godma and she was asking me whether is Norman with me. Then we decided not to reply her message. Oops. I think we made her worried. lolx. And now we got to drop off. After that we need to cross a road and guess who we saw??!! Is my GODMA!!! Arghhh... Oh no!!! So we got no choice, but to be like little mouse and hide ourselves. And guess what??! And this moment, she turned her head around and she saw US!!!!!!!!!!! Double *ArGGGhhhhhH*!!!!! Oh man! Is like everything we had planned in the bus etc has kinda gone down to drain. sob. sob. Heehee. And so we went to back to celebrate my Godma's birthday and this is my every first time celebrating with her. And the most important thing is she smiled. wheee! Im so happy.

Haha. Ok. Juz finish my Godma's celebration post thingy. Let talk about my school today. Mmm. I went around making new friends going by shaking hands and say HNY and Merry X'mas coz X'mas got 12 days mah.. haha. Then mostly the younger ones is like who is this crazy girl over here? But guess what? I dont care. Im here to love you all and make friends with you all. But sigh.. Couldnt manage to get their contacts today. Ha. Nevermind. Probably tommorrow then. Mm.. I got something that I want to say... But I dont want to say it now. Lol. =) Okok. You tempted to know izit??!! Mm.. Ok. Hint hint you all first. Ok. I got this junior, she's kinda very close to me.. And she was asking me abt "something" then I said I also want to go that "something" and I have been praying etc but... Then she said ok, nevermind. I will fast and pray with you together and then "something something again". olx. =P. I know she can go for that"something" but she wanna fast and pray together with me. Im so touched. She's a christian from some other church and she really changed alot after she follow me. Coz she wasnt on fire for God and etc. Im happy that I kinda good influence her. Lolx. Ok. Enough of the hinting. Dont want to let you all know first. Hee. But I did enjoyed myself in school today. Heehee.

For 2006:

I think I got tons of stuffs to do and also glorfiy my God.
Heehee..

Things that I want to do with my Cell Mates.
1) Want to win lot and lot of souls.
2) Want to bring revival to my school.
3) Campus Invasion.
4) Prayer Walk. (once every 1-2 month. i think.)

Haha. I think there's alot of things that I want to do with my cell mates but nothing much is on my mind now.

Thing that I want and I need to do.
1) Put God first & rely on Him more.
2) Read bible, pray in tongues, worship Him and glorify Him like never before. AMEN!!! Whee!!
2) Study extra extra hard and need to concentrate extra extra more during lessons in school.
3) Build relationship with my family.
4) Try to stay at home more. (so that my parents wont complain that Im spending alot of my time in church etc..)
5) Win souls like craziest.
6) I want to practise my drums more. (e.g. all the theory & practical etc..) Dont want to waste my time doing nothing about it. Have been always thinking to take lessons from Yamaha for very long.. but couldnt afford it. sigh. need to pray till it happen!!!
7) Save money!!! Coz if my parents need money I can help a bit.

Mmm.. Again. I cant recall of what I want to share. But I still do remember I did wrote down on a piece of paper about what I want to do, need to do, visions that God gave me and etc.. Want to know more then come and ask me. lol. =P

oh man. Im havent eat for the whole day. I wanna faint liao. Oops =X. Kidding. Im so hungry. And there's no foods at home and now my parents are in bed sleeping. Don want to disturb them. Lol. sob sob. Sigh.

Mad Muscular Wonder Woman

To my Dearest M.M.W.W,
Hope you like it.
And this my 1st posting in 2006.
*clap*clap*clap* woohoo!



- Jojo love you forever!!! -