I just received a call from my classmate, Glenn at 1.20am that he witnessed my senior which is my aka jie-jie, Sherry got banged by a bus after her CCA- Dance. Luckily, it was not a MAJOR accident. Thank God! She's fine now but cant really move. Im really shocked and speechless now. I cant believe what Im hearing even though is not a BIG ACCIDENT. But she is close to me. She may not be my biological sister but I love her as much as I know in my heart. I know some people make fun of me calling her Jiejie but you dont know how much she meant to me.

But Im damn worried now. I want to know where is she now, I want to visit her.

I love you, Jie.

ARGHHH! GRRRRR!!!

CAN YOU IMAGINE YOU'RE IN TRAIN ON YOUR WAY TO SCHOOL AND 1 UNCLE STANDING BESIDE YOU (ABT 40-50 PLUS YEARS OLD) IS ACTUALLY WATCHING PORNOGRAPHY ON HIS HANDPHONE!!!!!!!!

OH MY GOSH!!!

...IT HAPPENED TO ME THIS MORNING...

ER XIN!! ER XIN!!

!!MY EYES GOT BLINDED BY HIM!!

SIAO DE LOR!! PUBLIC ALSO DO THIS!!

HOPEFULLY THE NEXT TIME ROUND WHEN HE DO IT AGAIN, ANY LADY THAT STAND BESIDE HIM SHOULD GIVE HIM A KICK AT HIS LOWER PART.

A Treat from Miss Yvonne














Last Wednesday (20.02.08), Miss Yvonne treat us (Nat, Din and I) to Billy Bombers. Ha. Why? Of cos, there was a "price to pay". lol. Last year, we kept having a physics formulae test and Miss Yvonne said those who are in Top 3 will get a treat from her and which is BILLY BOMBERS. I never try Billy Bombers and I really studied very hard for that formulae test and I got 1ST IN CLASS!!! Hahaha. So happy! Of cos not because of Billy Bombers treat but is about I got 1st in class. You know? Is just those joy in your heart that make you feel that you're actually very smart. Lol.

I got 155/156. Wow! (O-O) And finally this year, Miss Yvonne is available and she brought us to Cineplex's Billy Bombers. I tell you something... The food there is DELICIOUS!!. Hahaha. Nice Nice. I ate honey something chicken thingy. Is good. Miss Yvonne ate Steak, Din ate burger and Nat ate ribs and something something. Lol. And many many more finger food. Miss Yvonne is really very generous when come to giving. Wow!! Amazing, k? We had a very very heavy dinner (you know is that kind that really wanna vomit le)till it really last the next day. *HAPPY*HAPPY* =)

THANK YOU, MISS YVONNE FOR EVERYTHING. LOVE YA! (even though I dont really know what is love all about.)

Just another day of my life
Kill me dead. Im tired of who I am. There's just too much pride in me and Im blinded by it. Why? I ignoring God, I dont hate God, Im not angry with Him. Im just angry with myself. I been thinking non-stop about- I dont understand what is love and maybe even hate. How do you balance loving others and yourself? I really dont know.

What is LOVE? What is LOYAL? What is GRATEFUL? What is FAITHFUL? What is THANKFUL? I dont think Im in any of the category. Only until today, I know what are they (except for LOVE. I never understand that).

LOYAL, GRATEFUL, FAITHFUL & THANKFUL
Im just another ****ing bullshit!! I used to think that Im under one of these category. I seriously realised that Im not!! Im damn ungrateful and thankful. I never thank for the things that I had in my life. God touched me so deep but yet I can break His heart again and again. Im not obedient to God. If Im thankful and grateful, I wouldnt be like this. Im just too proud. I lost my heart for Him. No longer love Him. No longer see Him as my Heavenly Father. Im just too selfish. I dont bother to change. I dont want to move on in my life. At times, I just want to get my heart harded so that I wouldnt tears. Tearing make me feel weary. Physical & emotional pains will get into my mind and heart which I really dont want to be in. Im tired, Im tired and Im really tired.

I really wanted to change last december, so that I will and can start my year 2008, meaningfully. I dont know why. I get bitter easily. My mentor(school teacher) which is Miss Yvonne, she told me that I must kinda stop having high expectation in myself, my family and my friends. It will only get myself bitter if I go on like this. I asked her, "Why am I like that?" She said, "Is because of pride. You always thinking about it's me and myself. Stop treating others like how you see yourself. They are not you and you are not them. God made each and individual of us differently. We have different strength and weakness. etc etc.."

Why do I get bitter? What is high expectation? High expectation is in me?! What's that? Do I really have that? How do I lower it? I really cant. I tried but I guess I wasnt trying it hard enough. What's wrong with me? I get so puzzled with all these things in my life and it causes me to feel vexed in me. I gave up on myself of not thinking these craps, so that I could stop getting bitter and at the same time, I even think that maybe I can get rid of my pride at the same time(but I didnt even know, it ate me up doubly this time round). Slowly I stopped all the high expectation in others and myself. Is that maybe why I stopped wanting anything and everything in my life? Im not sure. I dont know. I guess Im very self-centered even when Im typing these.

Am I blaming and pushing all blame now? Am I saying that this is not my fault? Am I these and that? I really dont know, I really dont recognised anything. How to tell? How to see? Someone out there, please help me to answer my questions.

NORMAL POSTING
I havent been posting. Lol. Tired. I really dont what am I doing with my life. Beside studying all day long, I really dont know what am I doing. I think time really flies. To think about it at times, I think is scary. Mm. CYN is over (not exactly cos cyn have 15 days mah). Hee.

SCHOOL LIFE
You know what? Miss Dawn (my english teacher) wants to read or see our blog/diary. You know why she wanna do that? haha. Cos she got inspired by the movie called, "FREEDOM WRITERS". The movie is based on a true story, k? Is really very good. You guys should go and watch it. I think you will love it. Hahaha.. MISS DAWN, ARE YOU THERE?? Lol. I havent give her my blog address yet. Oops. Haha. Cos Im not ready to show it to her. Because I dont want to my "diary"(blog) to be in the "closet" yet. Those who watched the movie will understand what I mean. I love SCHOOL!


MY PET's STORY

Last tuesday, Pamela(my damn good friend) and I went to sell away our baby hamham (cos we got too many already *faint*). Lol. So sad. Hee. We super she bu de them to go. We sold for $14 for 3 hamham (White for $10, and the other two for $2 each). The white one is called "yellow-green". I see no green anyway. Lol. Hahaha. Aint they cute?? More to come.. Hee.. One day when I free, I will do photoshop of all my hamsters, k? Lol.



CYN WEEK WITH MY FAMILY












My 7th Aunt and her 2 kids. SO CUTEE!! Lol














On the left- She is my cousin, Ashley.
On the right- You wont believe me. She's my niece, Cada.

Why do I said you wont believe me. Not that you wont believe me. The "unbelievable" thing is that my little cousin standing beside my niece and now you imagine my niece have to call my little cousin, "Auntie" and not "Jie-jie". Hahahaha..


A REPORT OF MY LOST AND FOUND WALLET
Anyway I found my wallet le. Ha. Thank God. =) Long story again.. Sian.. Actually I quite lazy to type already cos IM VERY TIRED LAH. Lol. Sorry, Dad, I suspected you took it but is not.. (and thank you for those who care for me when I lost my wallet) But is really very coincidence and that make me go "crazy". It really make me think that is my dad who took it but anyway no excuse too la. Sorry.

When I lost it, I went to search high and low for it and FINALLY NOW.... I FOUND IT!! Er.. Well. I made a police report and NO NEWS from there. SAD! I dont know what came to my mind to go to Toa Payoh Bus Interchange's Information Centre there to check it out. And yes, I found it there. YEAH!

STORY TIME- I dropped it when I came down from the SBS bus (how silly. dotx.) .........

So happy that the person went to the Information there to report about my wallet. THANK YOU! THANK YOU! This is my first time, someone went to returned my belonging when I lost it. When will those people gonna have integrity who actually found my wallet and handphone before and never go make a police report? Hope that when they lost their belongings and just let them taste the feeling of people not returning it back to them. (=X Oops) I always return to the owner of their belongings when they lose it but people dont do it for me. GRRR!!! Sob Sob. But is ok. Im happy now!! Lol.

Pic 1: Lau Yu Sheng at my working place.

Pic 2: Lalalalalaine and I (so like couple sia. lol. *fainted*)

Pic 3: My Crew Leader- Michelle

I had fun yesterday. Im so happy. Today is CHU YI and yet I tell you I got no place to go. Hahaha. Actually is a normal thingy for my family. We only have celebration on CHU ER and CHU SAN. Lol.

GUESS WHAT??!

MY HAMSTER GAVE BIRTH TO 8 BABIES AGAIN!!

PICTURE1: Cooollll... BIGGG!!

PICTURE 2: Dont you think it remind you of my chemistry project? Smelly Mike? Lol.

PICTURE 3: 8 BABIES!! But one is hiding!!! ARGGHHH!!! I cant take the pic no matter what. ANNOYING!!!

PICTURE 4: SAD!!! Hamster Mummy ate one baby away. LEFT 7 BABIES! =(

I SERIOUSLY MISSED MY DEAREST

PUAN WEILING!!!!!!!

Anyone seen her? Please tell me how is she doing. Sob sob. ='(

JOJO: WEILING, WHERE ARE YOU??!!! I LOVE YOU ALWAYS!!

FINALLY GET TO POST SOMETHING ON BLOG ALREADY!!!

I been busy working and working. Almost everyday work and work. (Oops. Anyway I worked at SUBWAY!!) Yup. Because... All my collages seem to be MIA!!!! So the more "committed ones" have to take cover for all the missing in action's hot spot. lol. Well, I guess Im a little down. My Manager resigned 2 days ago. She's a super duper nice person loh. Super teng teng me and some of my collages too. Sigh. Because of some stuffs la then she have to resign. Dont wanna post it here. Lol. Later the whole world knows. Then I might get into trouble. I really tears lah when she texted me that she's not going to work le.. Sigh.. I missed her. I havent get a chance to take a photo with her yet loh. WHY??!!! Lol. Luckily she stayed quite near by me. Her birthday is on the 10th March. Hee. Im thinking of how to celebrate her birthday and surprise her and make her happy. Lol. Okok. Enough of getting too EMO!!! Lol.

Err... Yesterday.... I went to bishan, Junction 8 there after my work because my another Manager need me to go Subway(Bishan) to return MAYONNAISE because we borrow 2 pack of it from them. So after returning it back to them, I dont know why I decided to go for a "window shopping". (Wah. I havent go for shopping for a long long time and been thinking to get a high-cut shoe.) So I went to converse first but didnt see something I want. So after converse shop, I went to ROYAL SPORTING HOUSE and saw lots and lots discounts going on. So I went to the VANS section and.... WOWOWOWOWWOWOW!!! ALL THE SHOES ARE CHEAP, SUPER CHEAP AND SUPER DUPER CHEAP. Serious, I dont really like Vans shoes but I dont know why I like this particular shoes at the rack loh (plus it high-cut too) and pick it and try it and I LOVE IT! After thinking for quite some time, I DECIDED TO BUY IT! Hee. I think the usual price was $89.90 but I bought it at the price of $29.90. And tons of tons of slip-on shoes, I really want to buy too. But I dont really suit slip-on shoes. Yup. So I didnt choose the slip-on and they are selling the price of $14- $20+. Worth, right? Lol.

PICS OF MY NEW SHOES!

hahaha. I forgot to post something too. Another thing from my lady boss, she gave me a golden village movie ticket. Haha. But I prefer Cathay. Oops. =X

Hahaha. Today, my church got water baptism. And one of the CANDIDATE is MARCUS!! Haha. Of cos, this pic is before he get baptise. So cute, right? He's only 17 la!!! But he looked like XIAO HAI ZI!!! Haha. I told him to pose that pose. So YAN DAO sia!! MARCUS ROCKS!! LOVE YA!

AT PRAYER MEETING

Wah!!! (0_O) I havent see my pastor play keyboard for soooo lonnggg.. Got anointing loh.. Super! MY PASTOR ROCKS!! LOVE HER SIA!!

This is HALENA FONSEKA!!! Telling us about prayer points.. Hahahaa. She's our dearest "XIAO FON" (FONT)!!

Er... Can I have New Times Roman at the size of 10, please. Haha. Kidding. I LOVE YOU, HAL!!!

Hahaha.. These are my churchmates, listening to prayer points!!!
WOooooOooOHoooOOoO!!! HAVING FUN AT PRAYER MEETING!!! ROCK ON!!

Hahaha.. Im so so happy. Lol. I went to work today and I saw my lady boss in the queue of "buying" subway. But at first, I didnt recognised her (plus today was my 2nd time seeing her.) till it was her turn.

Then when I saw her, I was like kinda shocked and my first reaction was, "Er.. Are you Carol? Er....." (But usually got customer, I do say welcome to Subway etc one hor..)

She said, "This is your Subway's standard ar? Where is your, "Welcome to Subway?" "

And I replied, "Im so sorry. Welcome to Subway." Ha. Then after that, she came in to cashier there and kinda "shouted" at my name. "JOANN QUEK! STEP OUT! (But is more like the fun fun kind) and then TA-DA...

AANNNDDDDDDDDD.......
She SHOW me a something which is the picture I just posted above. Haha. She praised me and called me continue to work harder and keep up the good work. And of cos, not forgetting my dearest manager, Cecilia!!! Haha. She praised me too and she's the one who told Carol that Im the best newbie around. Hee.

Anyway I really think Carol looked sooooooo BEAUTIFUL when she smile. She's so pretty, super got nu chang ren de wei dao. Lol. okok. Im going to bed now..

Last sunday by accident, I killed one my baby hamster!!! Sob sob. Im so so sorry. I didnt mean it. It was cause I was so careless. You shouldnt have gone through all the pains of bleeding to death.

Hahaha.. Christmas Eve Party was FUN!!! Hahaha. I received alot of gifts and one of my favourite gift is...... A bible from my Pastor's parents and guess what version izit?? Hahaha. Is the... AMPLIFIED BIBLE!!!! Haha. Another version of bible to be completed on my bible reading list for next year. This is the bible that I been waiting to get myself one when I got the money but now Im blessed by my Pastor's parents. Thank you, Aunty Eleanor and Uncle Nah. Love ya. Haha. God is GOOD! Im done with NLT and NKJV. Hahaha. Im the bible reader QUEEN!! Hahaha. Kidding!!

Well. I just read The-Re's blog. Ha. I always kinda see my name there. Love her so much sia. Okok. Not because of seeing my name at her blog then I love her hor. Wouldnt it be so fake? Haha. Guess what? I been thinking of The-Re lately and her story of her "BIRD". Hahaha. (Hey Re. I swear to you that is not after you posted ur blog abt ur birdy recently then I want to post it on my blog too hor. Is like Im been thinking of it for almost 2 weeks le, k? lol.)

So the story goes like.... She saved a bird that got itself hurted (a few months back) and her 1st reaction was to bring the bird to vet. So sweet, right? But my 1st reaction was she's so dumb la. Oops. =X After seeing the vet, she got to pay the medical fee for birdy, right? I think it cost her $60 and she only left $40 for tt week. So she paid for it and still owe the vet $20. Then she have no choice and have to suffer herself that whole week of not eating. Seriously when she told Ver and I abt it, we really laughed our head off. Hahaha. But only recently, I kept thinking of the whole situation abt why does she have a heart for even a bird that will actually take care of itself when it got hurt.

Last monday, I met Pamela for lunch and I remembered telling her abt The-Re and her bird's incident (also a few months back) and then I told Pam that I been thinking of The-Re and her bird's incident lately. As I was telling Pam about it, I just suddenly got this words in my mind that says, "The-Re have the heart of love and caring and the most of all, she took care of my creations. Well done on her for being a faithful and loving daughter to my creations." I was like, "WOW!" and I knew that it was God and He had been trying to tell me something. Er.. But for now, I still cant figure out what is God trying to tell me but I guess I have to hands down to The-Re about her love for God's creations. (WELL DONE, BUD BUD!! Bud, God sees it and He will remember it for life.)

Oh yea. One more thing to praise about The-Re. If I wouldnt have her care and concern, I wouldnt have pass my maths supp paper la!! Thank you, Bud. If you wouldnt care, I wouldnt have pass my maths supp paper. I really almost on the road of giving up cos I kept failing by few marks. But my last chance of supp paper, you helped me. You woke up in the morning and just to come to school and teach me before I get in for my 6th supp paper. (Seriously, I dont think someone want to wake up so early to just help me, it take real love to do that.) Plus, Im really touched loh, the day before you volunteer yourself to help me, I really teared la. Is those really speechless and dont know how to thank you for everything.

Everyone out there, please do treasure The-Re's love for you. She's really nice! Must LOVE HER tons tons. Hee.

hahaa.. Im back from my church camp!! So fun!! I dont know what to say. But camp is always so fun and great. My church camp is super different from other churches' camp. Because my church camp is a Leadership Training Camp and which is kinda equal to NCC camp. haha.

Er.. We discpline, love, care for one another. All of us slept 10hrs over 5 days. haha. Which is like everyday, we sleep for 2hrs and we got to get up and start getting ourselves ready for God, activities and our friends.

It was totally crazy. Everything we do, it seem like time is running up. Bath- 15mins (which like got abt 20 girls only plus guys shld be abt 40++ people.), water parade, pump-in, sit-up, star jump etc etc.. I can only say, all of my friends and I are super fit now. haha.

Running for God have a price to pay, it seem stupid now but it was all worth it. Is not just for ourselves but others too. We want to pay the price, so that our non-believers friends one day will come to know God and also we can get to see each other in heaven one day.

I want God to kill my pride. I want to humble myself. Is not going to be easy but God will help me to walk through my problem. Whatever I desires to be, God knows but God will watch over me.

I love You, God and thank You for everything in my life that You given it to me.

Haha. I got alot of things to share.. But Im really very very tired now. I was rushing alot of stuffs.. And later I got children's ministry to serve. Hahaha.. Last year, I completed my NKJV bible reading and this year, I was given a CREATIVE MP3. Rock on sia!! Finally I owe a MP3. I put alot of songs in there and listen till I go siao.. Hahaha.. LOVE IT MAN!!! Plus 2 yrs ago, I got a skateboard!!! Hahaha. Im so so blessed!!!















Oh yea. You know what?? MY HAMSTER FINALLY SHENG BABIES LE!!! haha. Im so so happy. The babies are soooooo smallll and cutee... love them much much. hee.

Finally projects are over.. But something had happened to my group's physics. We took video clip our marketing, it didnt work. So we came up with this plan to do animation again. But didnt have time to finish it from yesterday until now. Kinda upset, coz my group will be deducting 5marks. But is fine and now Im still waiting for my friend to sketch out his art works, so tt i can edit it.

Yeah yeah yeah!! Soooo Soooo happy!!! Yesterday, it was presentation for maths and chemistry project. Maths Proj went quite ok but for my chemistry..... My teacher got blown away by my group's stop motion animation. Ha.. Hard work is worth it!! So happy.

Tmr's projs are my geography, history elective and physics projects. Hopefully everything's gonna be good. Im soooo soooo tired... But Im trying to stay awake, I have to be in school at 1030am. And now Im thinking not to go to bed because Im waiting for my team mate to send me his arts work, we are doing this marketing advert to promo our physic's electromagnet. Ai... It gonna be a longggg day of waiting him to send it to me.. But I think it gonna turn out GREAT! Then I will post it on my blog again k? Haha.. So fun!!

After tomorrow, I really want to sleeeepppppppp for LOOOONNNNNNGGGGGG HOURSS!!!! Lol. Then after charging my body's system's battery, I will need to go back to school on friday for an 3 hours special lesson on physics. *yawn*yawn*. Oops. =X I cant wait to get my report book!!! Heehee.

Last Saturday, Saturday's service was awesome. We went to basic of new christian etc. Though it really what I have learn before but it speaks to me. I went back home and do my quiet time and pray to God. I told God that make me like a baby once again, I want to be like how I started. I started to tear and felt something is stirring inside me. God bringing me back and showed me those days and I remembered those and Holy Spirit spoke to me. He made me feel secured.

Ha. I really cant imagine what would I be without him. Im glad that Im a christian and now I got alot of things to work on... I want to love everybody. I realised recently God has been healing my heart about friendship and family relationship. I been kinda affected recently about the past friendship that I had. I guess God is removing it away from me because I can really feel the different now and God wants me to trust to love people around me. I dont know how to explain it but it can really make me feel difficult to love people and I guess it was the past friendship that hurted me that why. But Im fine now. YEAH!! LOVE GOD FOR LIFE!!

Yeah!! Finally Chemistry Project done!! 5 more projects to go...

Well. I just finished editing my stop motion animation. We are suppose to come out a 8 mins video clip for Chemistry project about perfume. So I came up with this idea to do stop motion animation. Is real hardwork k? hee. I really enjoyed doing it. This is my first time doing it. So is not really very good but I hope anyone of you who watch it, will enjoy it. Love ya.

WOW! WOW! WOW!
FINALLY! FINALLY! EXAMS ARE OVER!!!

Sigh. Super no confident to get good result cos my 2nd week exams papers very difficult. But Im glad is over!! But now is PROJECT WEEK!!! Argh!! All subjects have projects to do and I have 6 projects to do. Aiyo. Is worth 20% of mark to be added to exams. Hee. If I didnt do very well but at least I will have my projects to pull up my score. Yeah!! Im happy.

I misses everyone in church recently. I went to my church yesterday to see who's there but only Sis Von and Ah Siang then later were Su and Chris. Ai. Coz the secondary school kids were still in school and Im too early to be there. (Er... Then why Chris is there so early?? Haha. Bleah. XP) But I went there immediately after my papers mah.. So I dont know.

FACEBOOK FACEBOOK!!!
Aiyo. I really dont know why to play loh. Anyone want to help me with it?? Im going crazy. When I log in, I just log in and anyhow click here and there. You guys find it so fun, only me is like way back behind like a noob!! I dont wanna be a noob!! Help ME PLEASE!!!!

Today is my 3rd day of examinations. Im feeling very very tired, been spending alot of time studying. Sleep abt 4 hours or even less, but Im still ok. Hee. Love my school alot. Lol.

I finish Social Studies, Chemistry and Geography le. Well. Tmr is ENGLISH!!! So nervous!!

Social Studies- I didnt manage to finish my essay. I went to do all my source base question first and when Im done with it I left 5 mins to write. I only wrote the intro part only. Ai.

Chemistry- One of favourite subject!! Er.. But some question very alien to me leh. How? Ai.

Geography- I studied really hard for this subject. Lol. Mmm.. When the paper 2 was given to me, I went blank for awhile leh. Trying so hard to remember. Ai. But I did my best for everything.



I want to do well!! Score well for all subjects!!! The-Re too!! Love you, Bud Bud!!

Taking a break now.. Exams is near!! Argh!!

I just want to say something. Sigh. I dreamt of my "best friend" last night. It all about settling our issue in my dream etc.. I was kinda bothered in a way, I been trying to forget this and is still in process.. Well. I heard that he just came back for holidays. He's studying in Australia (Melbourne). I havent been keeping up with him for very long because of some reason again and I guess he dont want to contact me anymore which he stated it before(which was the last time round that he came back from holidays). And it was right in the face of mine, ok? How lovely heh?

3 years plus of friendship just ended like that for some craps reason!! We been through the ups and downs and nothing breaks our friendship but yet now it gone like a windgust. I felt that both party which is he and myself have a part to play and I guess we are just selfish. We are human!! Lol. Sigh. Why he's so GGFF? (if you're not sure abt it. you can come and ask me.) Heart hurts at times. It felt like your heart breaks deeply inside you. No comments! Im sure you know what I meant, right?

Why? Maybe I shouldnt invested in this friendship or maybe I should, so that I can learn something out of it. Ouch!! It really hurts big time!! I guess it does, dont you agree? Mmm. I cant say anything much now, it gone! He choose to end this friendship like that but I dont want to. LEFT A SCAR IN MY HEART!! THANK YOU! But I really think that he shouldnt go on like that because it will affect not just in his friendship but also other relationship with others.

Well. I think in the first place our friendship didnt started with a vision to run with and that will causes it to end.

Well. Just get bored at times and will start to think of old days when I was just a kid. Lovely!!

Well... My house computer and internet broke down.. But I got stuffs to say.

I dont know. Seeing so many people leave church recently. Church? A bored place? Nah! I can confirmed that church is the better place to be at. Church is like my 2nd home. I can say that my love for God is not as strong as it was before but at least Im grateful of what I am now. If I dont know God, dont have God in life, I guess I wouldnt be on earth now still. Living in the world is not easy at times, feeling down everytime but with God, everything is possible. I wont know what is going to happen next but at least I have God, I have nothing to lose about. My church is an awesome church. I really stepped into a church that love God and love people; I have a great pastor who love me so much and of cos, my leaders. Im happy to have them in my life. Thank God for them.

1 thing that I really dont understand. Why most some people can be so on fire now but the next moment, they turned away from God and the people in church. Is people in church so scary that you have to run away? Cant we be normal friends? So difficult meh? Normal friends only mah. I know someone who is at least more or less grateful when he/she left church. Ai. People who invested in your life and they come to you and just want to find out how are you and wondering what had happened to you but yet you still turned away from them. Weird heh? Do you think you leave them question mark in their heart and mind? They are worried for you. Ok. I wont say if you left church about 1-2 weeks, if you dont wish to talk and want avoid for awhile, I think is ok but it shouldnt be longer than that. After that, should be friend again. YEA!! Isnt that be awesome?! Running away cant solve any problem.

Think about it again. Am I right? When people love and invested in you, you turned out to be ungrateful about it. When people dont love you, you sob.. Ehh.. Then what do actually want? Make your stand and choose one.

I love God deep down in my heart and I know it. If I dont, I long have left my reserved seat in heaven. Maybe I did for one week(about 2-3 months back) but my pastor and leaders encouraged me and I made my stand to remain faithful to God. Though alot of times is difficult for me now to really love Him as much as I was once on fire for Him which is about 1year back. My heart is not yet heal up for some stuffs but I believe that God will help me and He's making things better for me now. Im working it with the help of God. Yea!! Desire for the unseen things. For God will bless those who have not seen but yet believe.

Yummy.... Last monday, my schoolmates were awesome... We had some gathering during our lunch break. My schoolmates cooked delicious food ever.. Espeically The-Re...!!! AMAZING!!! IMPRESSED!!! No kidding. Haha. Felt kinda love inside me. Awww... Aint they lovely? Just come ask me more abt it if you want??

Our first time at... : HAIL HITLER!!

Our second time at... : Jo: Still HAIL HITLER!!
but The-Re... Ai...

Aiya. Ha. We are just crazy. Ignore us!!!

Haha.. Well.. It been some time seen I touched my blog. I dont know. Im doing great. Thinking about God lately. Do you all find it weird? Once you fall in love with God, you never get out of it. Even if you tried to forget but you will never. I guess is all the power of His LOVE. I dont think, you can get anyone better Him. I guess people will find me - huh? And what are you talking about? But I guess even those who love God deeply in their heart will have the same feeling as mine.

Wah.. Havent blog for a long long time. Juz want to say, I didnt really do very well for my mid year but I guess Im still ok. lol.

And I also want to say...... GOD ANSWERED MY PRAYER!! IS A HUGE PRAYER (to me) AND GOD ANSWERED IT!! GOD IS GOOD!!! Woohoo..!

Wah.. Somehow I.. I'm tired, real tired and really really tired. Busy with some stuffs and studies too coz is exams period mah. Lol. I really wants get 3 distinction for my mid year examinations. But somehow I dont have confidence le leh. I dont know why also. My English paper 2 and Physics paper are so DIFFICULT loh!!! ARGHHHH!!!! WHAT TO DO?!! Sigh. Seriously this time round it really make me want to study hard and achieve something alot better in my studies. I never felt this way before leh.. Hee. I guess Im very very serious with my studies now leh especially in CHEC. I think at times, I seem to a bit hack care but I do care alot when come to get achievements. Yea. I guess so. Hee.

Ai. Recently I been thinking alot of the past. Especially friendship. I dont know why this sentence kept popping out of my mind. I guess maybe is that I used to receive alot of smses like, "Friends come and go and I(the senders)will be the one who will be your friend whenever you need me." And a few of my old friends came into my mind and we all used to be close but where are they now? They all are gone. And I dont understand why? They may said we pull thru together etc but I guess they pulled the string too far back till I cant see them anymore. I know they are not perfect and me neither. No one is perfect. But why no much people can last their friendship for long. Ok. Maybe I shouldnt say anymore coz Im afraid that one day I might be the one. I know I also got hurt someone before. Ai. Dont say le la... CRAPS!!!

My old connect group gave me a t-shirt and a card. Heehee. Nice. And my church leaders gave me an OP file. Ha. It really help me alot by putting my papers. Thank you! =)












After church, I went to Pamela's place. Her parents, younger sis and another of our good friend, Qing De celebrated for me. Pamela and Qing De put alot of effort and time to plan games and to cook what kinda of food for me. Ha. Qing De and she cooked some simple dish but is enough for me and is nice. And her mum and her sis said that, "How would we wish everyday Pamela can cook for us." I smiled at them and said, "maybe you can. just ask her." Haha. Tell you a little secret... Er.. Pamela is like a little princess at home and dont really do any house chores at home.

After dinner, we play TREASURE HUNT!!! Oh man. Her youner sis enjoyed it so much, cos she know where Qing De and Pam hid all the stuffs except ME!!!! (even her mum know where izit but she pretend till as if she dont know like tha loh. not fair!) Grrrr... Fed up!! Her sis and mum kept laughing at me. So weird loh. So how the treasure hunt is like.... I got to find the folded straws that is in heart-shaped around her house and there were 20 of THEM!!! Oh man. I almost went crazy!! Lol. And of cos, along the way, I received a few of presents. Yea. And to cut it short... I only found 17 of them and the unfound 3 of it causes me to do a FOREFIT!!! The forefit is that I have to learn piano and master the music piece she played. Her skill is at grade 8 and she played the very difficult piece for me and expect me to learn on the spot within in a min or so. Then I told her to change and she made me sing those high-pitch songs that I cant even reach. And it sound horrible loh. Eee.. SO MALU!!!

And then instead of cake, Pam made her own jelly to replace cake and join the jelly up into a smiley face and then I blow the candles etc etc.. And 3 of them said they are still not done with it yet and that they want to bring me somewhere and show me the last big present. Then I was like, "huh? i dont wanna play le." Then Qing De, Pam and her sis bought me to somewhere in between the living room n her room and they pull up window curtain (the present was behind the window) and I saw a big big frame and my jaw dropped. And inside my mind, I was thinking what can it be. So they bring it down for me and bring it to Pam's room and they wanted to get me to open it but I didnt want to and I told them to help me with it and I stood in front of the frame and stare at the frame and wonder what it is... And when Pam opened up.....I saw...... I saw... I saw.... SPIDERMAN 3 POSTER!!!!! OH MAN!!! My reaction was like Woah! Woah! and Woah..! I cant believe it and I walked out of her room, I guess I was too happy.

Then after everything finished, I went home with Qing De. Ha. He helped me take to the mrt station and when reached yishun station, he went off and left me with my BIG poster for me to take home and I was really carrying alot of thing with me. For example, my bag, my bass and poster. Lol. It was heavy but Im happy. Lalalalala...

To all my friends who celebrated for me, I really dont know what to say but I really wanna to say thank you for remembering my birthday and celebrate for me. Thank you for the time and effort that you all put in. Im so happy to have you all. =)

3 silly guys in my class... whatever!!! *eyes rolling*

Wow. Feeling so happy today. All thanks to Miss Selena, Samatha, Vanessa, Angela, Sherie, Jessie and Shiyu jiejie!!! They celebrated my birthday in advance. Hahaha. I dont know what to say but to thank all of you guys, especially Shiyu jiejie which is "fen hong da jie". She planned everything, they surprised me, they bought me 20 cupcakes and is delicious. Haha. Im so so so so blessed!! I love them so much! I didnt expect anything. Tell you all a secret, I almost teared, I only si yao mian zi and I was controlling my tears from rolling down from my eyes. Hee. =D

Woohoo!! PHYSICS LESSON in LAB!!! haha. I was bored and I randomly took some photos in class, not the lesson that causes it to be bored but because my teacher was going through with some revision paper with the rest of my classmates that didnt do that piece of revision paper. Ha. So those who finished can sit back and relax for awhile.



The acids in the science lab. Artistic hor? Of cos, I arrange them de hor. Heehee.










My relaxing classmates are getting bored.

















Dharini was "posting" for me. Haha. And guess what she rewarded me with a..............














PRINGLES!!!


Yummy!!! NICE!!!

This is my senior from CHEC. She really very nice. I called her jiejie and her favourite colour is PINK! She love pink like crazy. I used to call her, "fen hong da jie" because she first called me, "hei se hui" cos I always wear black clothings to school and even some of her classmates also called me that. I enjoyed being with her, glad to know her too. hee. =) love her sia. yea man. And she always encourage people by giving gifts to people and she gave me chocolates, sweets and a card. Yea. Feel so loved by her. =) She also tell me alot of things that I never learn before, inspire me, etc.. She juz amazing!! Yea!!

Ha. Back to my crazy passion of blood donating.. Hee. I went to donate my blood ytd with one of my good friend, Qing De. Hee. I feel so happy. FINALLY!! Haha. Yesterday, it was Qing De's first time donating his blood. Ha. He find it quite alright.. See.. Is painless.. So to all my dearest friends, you can go and try to donate once, if you dont like it then I got nothing to say. But dont you feel great that you can help people? Think again, K? hee..



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